But that would make life impossible, therefore Constantine tried to do what all his life he had tried and never known how to do (although he had often observed that many people were able to do it well), something without which life was impossible: he tried to say something different from what he thought; and he felt all the time that it sounded false and that his brother detected him and grew irritable.
Pero así habría sido imposible vivir y por ello Constantino se esforzaba en hacer lo que había intentado durante toda su existencia y lo que había observado que otros hacían tan bien, aquello sin lo cual la vida era imposible: decir lo que no pensaba. Continuamente se daba cuenta de que no conseguía su propósito, de que su hermano le adivinaba el juego, y ello le llenaba de irritación.