She guessed it to be something that she could not tell her mother and did not even say to herself. It was one of those things which one knows and yet cannot say even to oneself – so dreadful and shameful would it be to make a mistake.
Adivinaba algo que no podía decir a su madre, una de esas cosas que uno sabe pero que no puede ni confesarse a sí mismo por lo vergonzoso y terrible que sería cometer un error.