Had I continued in the station I was now in, I had room for all the happy things to have yet befallen me for which my father so earnestly recommended a quiet, retired life, and of which he had so sensibly described the middle station of life to be full of; but other things attended me, and I was still to be the wilful agent of all my own miseries; and particularly, to increase my fault, and double the reflections upon myself, which in my future sorrows I should have leisure to make, all these miscarriages were procured by my apparent obstinate adhering to my foolish inclination of wandering abroad, and pursuing that inclination, in contradiction to the clearest views of doing myself good in a fair and plain pursuit of those prospects, and those measures of life, which nature and Providence concurred to present me with, and to make my duty.
Mas, otra suerte me aguardaba, y volvería a ser el agente voluntario de mis propias desgracias, aumentando mi error y redoblando los motivos para reflexionar sobre mi propia vida, cosa que, en mis futuras calamidades, tuve tiempo de hacer. Todas estas desgracias ocurrieron porque me obstiné en seguir mis tontos deseos de vagabundear por el extranjero, contrariando la clara perspectiva que tenía de beneficiarme, con tan solo perseguir simple y llanamente, los objetivos y los medios de ganarme la vida, que la naturaleza y la Providencia insistían en mostrarme y hacerme aceptar como mi deber.