He put a constraint upon himself, and struggled to repel and repress the pleasure he found in contemplating Camilla; when alone he blamed himself for his weakness, called himself a bad friend, nay a bad Christian; then he argued the matter and compared himself with Anselmo; always coming to the conclusion that the folly and rashness of Anselmo had been worse than his faithlessness, and that if he could excuse his intentions as easily before God as with man, he had no reason to fear any punishment for his offence.
Culpábase a solas de su desatino, llamábase mal amigo y aun mal cristiano; hacía discursos y comparaciones entre él y Anselmo, y todos paraban en decir que más había sido la locura y confianza de Anselmo que su poca fidelidad, y que si así tuviera disculpa para con Dios como para con los hombres de lo que pensaba hacer, que no temiera pena por su culpa.