Lastly, I can vouch--as improbable as it seems--that even if I had wanted to destroy all my illusions, even if I had been willing to "give in to despair," I could not have done so!
Y, por último, puedo afirmar, por improbable que esto parezca, que aunque tratara de destruir en mí toda ilusión, aunque me esforzara por desesperar, no podía conseguirlo.