I was agitated wholly by these thoughts; all my calm of mind, in my resignation to Providence, and waiting the issue of the dispositions of Heaven, seemed to be suspended; and I had as it were no power to turn my thoughts to anything but to the project of a voyage to the main, which came upon me with such force, and such an impetuosity of desire, that it was not to be resisted.
Por eso digo que todos estos pensamientos me tenían completamente trastornado. Mi calma y mi resignación a los designios de la Providencia, así como mi sumisión a la voluntad del cielo, parecían haberse interrumpido y no hallaba forma de distraer mis pensamientos del proyecto del viaje al continente, que me obsesionaba de tal modo que me resultaba imposible resistirlo.