identity . . . . i be part of my surroundings and i become separate from them and it be able to make those differentiation clearly that let u have an identity and what inside our identity be everything that ever happen to u ( ntozake shange qtd in fire in the mirror ) . piece like decalogue v use to intimidate me . i felt that if i accept them and than i would be compromise something . what i think before really isn not worth get into . i understand what naturalism be try to say . i experience a tangible katharsis and and one that fell into existence piecemeal and and one that still alive and that i still have to reckon with . it still work inside me . the film wasn not sympathetic and per se . it doesn not need to say that the death penalty be a wicked thing . there be certainly wicked people while whether or not they should die be for another film . what decalogue show be that good and beautiful people exists who kill other people when their society and primal urge jack them up . the cience of naturalism be what have help me to appreciate decalogue v. it not worth the write space to go into why i would not let myself before and but i see now the worth in make art like this to amake people and or perhaps to make people do something . there a method to lazar compromise of his . . . light . much of that meaning make sense only in retrospect . this should not be too strange of an idea represent after all and how much of respectable science do not gain meaning in retrospect . i wince when i say it and but naturalism seem so much more productive and so much less nihilistic when i have the power to say to myself and this ruin and this process and this natural process and make me want to buck the system . i do not think naturalism be paint a doomsday portrait of humanity and tell u to give up our powdered wig and head to the wood . instead and i think that it be catalog proof and experiment and that we be and of course and free to ignore . we can ignore it all we want and if we want to give the naturalist more corps to bury . for surely and despite their aesthetic specifically design without sympathy towards their character likely and catastrophic fate and they be impassioned by readerly inaction and writerly snobisme . i do see the delightful risk in the hope that the audience will understand what to be do with what they see . a have be mention and there danger in the hopeless see their fate immortalize in stone . there danger in the hopeful disparage the natural because it doesn not correspond to their world view . and i do not think that the hopeful need be either wealthy or fortunate . i have not see it and but it seem that the film american beauty prove the inadequacy of circumstance a a provider of vision or comfort . there be ascetic as well a glutton as well a beggar who wonder where within themselves their humanity be and who grieve because they can not find anything that separate them from their landscape . landscape can be powerfully and beautifully portrayed and but in reality and landscape do not enact . they change and sure and and dramatically and but only by a large set of natural law which no one truly have power over . but it can not be change itself .