people have sex for many reason and one reason be that for however fleeting sex can give u a sense of unboundedness and without time . that fleet chase to orgasm which we take again again take u to god and we feel whole for so terribly a brief time and but whole . people masturbate for many reason and some people masturbate a lot because it be the best they know of to the truly transcendent moment from which we come and to which we go . an orgasm and any orgasm and be a petit mort and only in death do we get to hold the divine presence in fullness . the human soul be sadly unattended to in our contemporary culture because of the moral bankruptcy of the conventional religious institution . people have no where to turn and they have no tutor and no credible religious mentor and so they undertake the journey on their own and end up with loveless sex and the inevitable next step and a slow and but certain and death . when the young man masturbate on his dead father porn he do the only thing he can do in his state of spiritual abandonment . the adult in his life live in a world without sin and hence no salvation . the desperate and painful masturbation be his recognition that his father could not love anything or anyone .