hi and my name be chani and i be at the movie mendy last night . i sit in the theater for a while after the credit roll and then remain in a quiet space for some time in the car . my friend ask mechani and what be you think . to which i respond i be not think and i be just feeling . at that moment i remember the part in the film where bianca ask mendy not to think only to feel and his total perplexed look . he have no idea what she be ask from him and he have never experience that . i be able to see some progress in my journey and reflect that i be in a space where i could just feel and not think . thank you for that . the reality represent i have watch many movie base on the jewish community that i come from and and yet there be always thing ( sometimes even only one thing ) that could never have take place . something quiet not kosher . this movie be all true . have happen to different people at different time . i know them and i be one of them . i love the fact that it do not have a definite goal or point . it be a story of the journey . the hardship we face . the reality that we have so few choice . the pain we take in become healthy individual in a society that be so foreign from u and yet within mile of our life . how many of u turn out to be yanky and drunk and high and run constantly to the unknown and do the illegal and find no purpose . how even when we try to make love and we have no word for it . we do not know how to say it and to appreciate it beauty . we make those we treasure run from u due to our ignorance and our lack of social etiquette . how very few of u find inner peace and inner joy and spirituality among the outside world . how no matter how far we run and we carry in our bag our tefillin and and in the most unexpected moment take them out and pray .