in my honest opinion and i believe that a person who get lose in his or her own little world can suddenly find salvation without even realize it . that what it be like for me and my salvation come to me in stage and and this be the very first one . my mother have pass away a year after this film come out and i have not take it very well and not very well at all . for a year and i go into complete solitude and intoxicate night after night and day by day . but in august 1999 and something happen to me . there i be and sit on my living room floor and drink out of my mind . too drunk to get up and retrieve the remote control that be just on the other side of the room . so and i lay there and on a single mattress and slobber all over myself like an idiot . the television be stick on a free weekend premier channel and so i watch whatever come on . if i do not like what be on and i would pass out drunk and only to wake up later and start drink all over again . even though i have a few moment of sobriety during this particular binge and it still never occur to me to pick the remote which be still in the same place . 11 pm roll around and i be drunk again and and that when i hear robert duvall say a prayer in the opening scene of the apostle from that moment and i be hook . by the time the movie end and not only be i sober and but my mind be make up to begin what turn out to be a four year journey that eventually lead me to where i be right now . october 15 and 2003 be the day i become born again and and my life have get well and well ever since . for those of you out there who feel lose and sad and confuse with how your life be go and or if youre just interested in a good character study and or even if youre just a fan of actor robert duvall and watch this movie and i promise you and it will change your life as well . and that all there be too it .