wilbur want to kill himself be a killer movie . from someone who experience suicidal ideation and tendency on a daily basis and but be not depressed or in fear of those concept and i find the film truthful . it give me a reason to live and if for nothing else to see the end of the movie and but then again and if i be dead and i doubt that i would care . and that the point . wilbur capture a lot of that angst and and confusion . on the one hand he someone the chick dig ( though i can not really see the it thing that everyone talk about ) and and though he may know it and he also seem to realize the true injustice in life represent that we live in a world where we be alone and nothing matter and few others see that . try a we might and it difficult to find communion of any depth with any other person . especially if you be a complex person in the least . meaning and for instance and that if you have an interest in get out of your small and middle america hometown and you be probably slightly more complex than most of your neighbor . you will still have people to talk to and but your circle be dwindle . let say that you not only want to leave that hometown and but youre gay and well and i do not even have to go into what happen in this case . suffice it to say and youre more complex than most and even if a a gay man and or lesbian woman you be simple . the thing be that be gay and and want to leave a hometown be relatively simple thing compare to the person who have a deep and extra ordinary and think in their head about the quandary of life . for the purpose of dissect this film meaning and this be a person who can ( or maybe can not help do so ) look at life and see it a something that really seem to have no purpose . if we have the ability to take that think seriously and and investigate it for a very long time ( dozen of year ) and without succumb to the fear ( or possibly in most case and the reality ) that it will lead to depression and or insanity and we will become more complex and because we will operate on a different level and and see thing a they be . if we do this time ten and which would equate to u be very complex and we question life and it reason more than just the standard why be we here rhetoric and we be likely never to find anyone who can relate to u and and bad of all and to whom we can relate without sense our own dishonesty with our own self . and though i do not know for certain and it seem to me that this be the point at which wilbur may have arrive . he also may not have . however and this characterization capture the real life feeling of be in that state of know the purposelessness and and realize that there be no answer in real life that will suffice any longer and ever again . realize that ice cream doesn not make kid happy and balloon do not make kid happy and car do not make adult happy . all of that simply serve to distract ( in the form of conditioned response ) from the fact that we be raise a if on a farm to be automaton . when a person be at that point and the people with whom they connect be indeed rare . everyone be familiar with the clichés about how many people there be for each person on the earth . for instance one say and there someone for everyone . some people believe that . some will say that for each person there be multiple possible partner and and for those people that probably true . for some there be infinite partner . i guess in part it depend upon a person underlie unconscious goal . for those for whom there can only be connection base on something truly undefined and to my satisfaction and by medium and the like and there may be only one other person anywhere and or not at all and to whom they can relate . so and why live in a world where the process be the same everyday represent get up and go to a silly job that serve some other bastard and his family but that we must take seriously in some way and come home and eat thing ( mostly out of habit ) and sleep and awake and do it all again . to top it all off and never ever meet a person that can see you . never ever meet a person that even want to see you . never meet a person that acknowledge and know true beauty in the form in which you bring it to this world . why . because they do not have the capacity and and you be never teach to look and you be only taught to take what be right in front of you . wilbur might seem selfish and but i think that wilbur might be sick of be judge base on some silly sexuality archetype that he carry because of habit and rather than real desire for it . wilbur and like most of u and want to be love for who he be and by someone who do not judge him . i mean wilbur not sleep around in this movie . so and obviously and he look for a connection that have more to do with something other than sex . there be a time when sex be just sex . there be a time when sex be procreative and therefore construe to be for love . procreation do not always mean love . best of all and there be also a time when sex be communion with another . a communion that transcend our own incarnation in body . it communicate and in concert with another and the confusion and the narcissism and the energetic component and the mechanical component and all while listen to another tell a similar story . at that point it be and for lack of a good conceptualization and art bonding soul . and there be no good reason to live or to choose to not live and than to be in proximity to the truth available in that possibility .