tonight i watch the premiere of to be fat like me in hope that someone have finally get it right . with the idea that someone have at last make a film to empower the large woman of the world and i happily set my night aside in preparation of be touch by a film that would show the world how i feel . how disappointed i be when i learn what the movie be really about . this wasn not a movie for fat woman at all and contrary to the commercial that be run for week before the premiere of this pathetic lesson in moral fiber for skinny woman the world over . i have such hope that someone have come to the slow conclusion that we aren not fat because we can not stop eating . at least and i be not . i be fat for many reason . the first be and i do not believe that skinny be pretty . the second and and most important and be that i would rather live my life a happy and wonderful and comfortable with myself a i be and die at 50 than live until 108 always fight to be someone i be not . never before in this world have there be such an obsession with fat . never have our body standard be so small that i at 230lbs ( and 56 ) could not go into any store and find clothes . five year ago and i could walk into any store i pass by and buy jean . now i walk into every store i pas by simply to ask them what the big size of jean they carry be . and the ever ecstatic response . oh and do not you worry maam . we have very big size here . we go all the way up to a 14. we definitely have clothes for you . and i say in response and perhaps you haven not notice and but i be an 18. the idea that we be so morally inculpable that we allow the magazine and television show and retail store to govern our size be absolutely beyond me . i be my own woman . i be big and and i be beautiful . i be not unhealthy . there be a very big difference between big and unhealthy . i have know so many skinny woman in my life that be absolutely revolt in a bikini for one simple fact . they may be a size two and but they have cellulite . we think that skinny equal pretty . but and let me tell you . it your soul and your smile and and your eye that make you beautiful . and this movie will never ever be a good movie to me . the moral of this film be that you skinny people should understand our fat plight and not make fun of u and but try your best to sympathize and gently push u to our thin potential . well and that a crock . i promise you that and no matter how sweet and gentle and the first person that befriend me to attempt to save me from my food will have a very rude awakening .