i be 14 year old and travel to florida and we spend the night in a hotel . i be up late watching hbo when this movie come on . a i sat and watch it i be mesmerize by patrick deweare . the movie and his performance touch something very deep in me and i become an instant fan of his and the memory of that movie stay with me for year . i purchase the movie a an adult . i think it be the deep sadness that emanate from him and just the sad look he would convey without actually speak . i love this movie a much today a i do at 14 and which at that time i do not know that he have just die . with the advent of the internet i be able to find out much more about this man who performance haunt me and learn where that sadness come from .