at the time i recall be quite startle and amuse by this movie . i refer to it a the most important movie i would see in ten year and and find myself bump into people who say similar thing . bernhard have an unusually perceptive behavioral notebook . and she have shape the bitter adolescent personality that we all have and into a corrosive and adult world view . the two together provide a startling mix which may be too edgy for some viewer . ( hi skip . i wish you weren not my brother so i could you . ) bernhards search for herself after return to la from new york and result in the immersive try on of various persona ( all of which fit poorly ) for our amusement and but enough of them involve act out to appeal to a black imperative value system that the real barometer of her resituation be whether black culture accept her . ( it be a while . nina simone come to mind . and she have an impressive and solidly built black lover in the movie ) a pretty black girl attend the show and and seem to be authorize sandra faux blackness and but ultimately reject her . just a catholic deem themselves lucky to suffer for christ and here sandra depicts herself suffer at the hand of a black culture in which she crave a place while a if she cherish her worthiness and her rejection . it the only value system implicate in the films world and outside of bernhards arty confusion . for a nation whose chief issue be racism and money and it refresh to see one of the 2 topic dealt with in an atypical way .