<s>[INST] i am literly thinking im crazy or a maniac i been looking stuff up like thisi imagine my family being brutaly murdered one by one infront of mei always am ina shitty or irratatiable mood all the time well 70 percent of the timei always gotta screamim deadly afraid of speaking infront of ppl bc i think they think im really stupid n there gonna hit me or make fun of me really badly till i cryi always killing the **** out of ppl in video games bc it relives my mind i had a couple suvicidal thoughts,umm i had lots of thoughts of joining a gang n killing the mutherfuckers who ****** with mei always get annoyed by the smaleest things or person n who ever that person was i feel like beating the **** out of them.im only 16 btw and im dead serious i been thinkg of alot of crazy voilnc to my family since i was little n much more.BUT PLEASE SOME ONE LEVE A Answer no daMM LINKS I WANT A ANSWER HERE NOW I BEEN GOING INSANE FOR THE PAST 2 YEARS I ALSO BEEN THROWING OVER ANGER N OTHER THINGS.I also dont feel anything some times [/INST] DearWe understand your concernsI went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. All these given thoughts are just normal for every person like you. You are obsessive. That is all. These are called obsessive thoughts. Brain (mind) is made for its own functions and its duty is to think. Therefore you cannot stop it from thinking. But you definitely can control the way it thinks by diverting its attention to more demanding things. Creative thinking should help brain diverting. If you try to forcefully overcome obsessive thoughts, it will come back every now and then and disturb you more vehemently. Rather, this is just disappointment. Disappointment which arises out of unforeseen life events do bring such symptoms like sadness, irritation, anger, lethargy, lack of interest, lack of appetite etc. Please understand this fact and make sure to introspect. Talking to your friends, out door activities and being creative should give you relief. Find the reason for your disappointment and consult a psychologist if need be. Psychotherapy techniques should suit your requirement. If you require more of my help in this aspect, Please post a direct question to me in this URL.  Make sure that you include every minute details possible. I shall prescribe the needed psychotherapy techniques.Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications.Good luck. </s>