I dreamed of a circus - made of sequins and rhinestones. It was all exotic colors - no plain blues or yellows - but magenta & chartreuse & aqua - I watched a merry-go-round - all dazzling & glittering. I seemed to be far off and seeing - just enjoying watching - and not darinng to go closer. Interpretation I see this as being my cynical skeptical point of view. I did not dare go too close - I was all alone and I was afraid that if I saw too clearly - the beauty would vanish. Instead I knew (and I realize now that this is my customary attitude) that the really exotic world melt upon inspection.  Also, I see all this in another light. I have the habit of tearing down the idealistic and the consequent disappointment when the materialistic is less appealing (in that is has lost its glamour) I have in the last few days, lost my credulity of the charm of a particular love affar - I know that it wasn't the romantic interlude that I made it be in my mind - I can now realize that he didn't love me as I would like to believe - and I feel wistful that it can't be the sequined violet & carmine story I liked.  I seem to get mired in words - "I know he didn't love me in the way I hoped he did - and it hurts - and I would like to regress to my naive belief - and I realize that I had to keep quite distant from the situation to believe anything so foolish. Answers to questions 2. I was pleased by the scene - and I loved watching it - just as I loved thinking the man loved me.3. Onlooker4. Pleasant5. It was all quite dark except the merry-go-round - gleaming.6. I dream of pretty, unobtainable things - colors - designs - and instinctively feel that they will perish upon closer inspection7. I did