This the only therapy I really got the time for, Designing these rhymes as I write in a psych ward Sick of fuckin skitzing out, Valium wont sit me down sick of feeling guilty never ever meant to put you down It wasnt me, you seen my personality, its splitting up, Baby Im not crazy, Im ashamed of all the shit Ive done And I aint giving up in life, watch me scribble up a rhyme I try and fight it, but I hide it all inside See whats happening in my mind, Im in rehab cause of Ice, and Im feeling like Im dreaming I dont need another high Today I seen my mother cry, I dont need another lie, my brother come to visit, I couldnt look at him in the fuckin eyes I had to struggle while I suffer with these nightmares, I never told you anything, Im knowing that you guys care Sarah standin there and man Im happy that she never left, she knows I got potential but shes seeing that Im just a mess Whatta wreck, I need to get this off my chest to a pack of panadeine forte lucky that I cheated death Wish I could take it back, all that fuckin crazy crap wish I never carried on, What I gonna say to dad . All I have to do is sit him down and hell start to listen, but im scared to tell him cause his got a heart condition This is far from rich and right now im locked, in a mental home and theyre feeding me a lot of drugs This is hard to admit, cause im plastered, but my target is to be a better man no more startin shit No more sparkin spliffs, no more fuckin harder shit, no more being violent, overcome it like my father did The violent episodes im havin man, im not that guy, Scott, Sarah, Troy, Dad, Mum I apologize And that is not a lie never did I comprise, dad I see the mirror and its tellin me Ive got your eyes I really wanna try, didnt really wanna die, didnt wanna end it all, but the thought it crossed my mind Safer if im locked inside, dont throw away the key, give me a couple months to try and wait and see Dont need to prove myself, ratesy never lost a fight, how would you feel if I woke up and I lost my life Hate it how I feel inside, hate it how Im really nice, hate it how I changed into this person that cant deal with life Hate it how I dream about the shit that happened year ago, hate it how youre scared to talk to me, you shouldnt fear me no I know I carry on a lot, smashin walls, then I drop , another pill im gonna pop, when this ever gonna stop? Brother can you help me out, never have you let me down, never have you turned your back, appreciate it, let it out This fuckin clinic has me spinnin out, im tripping out, all these meds I gotta take I really wanna spit em out Sarah yeah I love you girl, doin it for mum as well, all the drugs Ive taken to escape are gonna fuck my health Numbin me with drugs it isnt helpin, man I need to talk, I see the blood, I hear the screams, its dreamin but I see it all I wanna change my life, im dangerous and crazy inside, lately I hate it, contemplating should I take my life People have it worse than me I know it, but it hurts to see me turn into this person that its hurtful when I wake from dreams I wake up in a cold sweat, Sarahs there to hold my hand. Told her things I didnt mean, its tearin out my whole chest Im kind of scared, cause theyre tellin me Im fucked up, its fuckin bullshit, meet my family its just us My dads sick, its stressin me, these dreams get the best of me, they give me downers In an hour get my therapy Whats it to my fans, would they ever understand that im doin this and hiding out to be a better man Did they ever really care, yeah I got my family there, and im lucky that im knowing that Ill be here til the end I need to seek and find just a little piece of life, you need to fill your fuckin puzzle, mother fucker have a piece of mine Say that im intimidating , charge me with intimidation, drop the charges mother fuckers, getting help, im sick of waitin I wrote this track to speak my mind, to say im not real, place the blame on drug abuse and say its cause I pop pills Say that I am fakin it, you put up with these hot chills, once youve gone and done that, you tell me how you gonna feel Another dream tonight, speak the demons eye, need to find a happy medium and yeah I needa cry I admit that im sittin here drippin tears, as I disappear, another pipe to see crystal clear After this I can certainly say that I am tough, if you dont agree than you can go and get fucked!
sarah, fuckin, hate, dad, need