[Part One Nightmares] [Verse 1 Josh Smith] Im starting to feel distant Looking at my inner self and doubting life decisions Im addicted to clicking and searching pics of naked women I just pray to The Lord all my sins are forgiven Try repenting but cant, dont know how much I can take If you aint me then you simply cannot fathom whats at stake Man Im serious, this is a career Im tryna make Its hard being around people who got money in the bank When you broke broke, tryna stay afloat Unaware of the trials and tribulations up ahead Walking through a place knowing that you could end up dead Cuz your shirt the color red where the blues live And I aint tryna get shot like Proof did Never catch me slipping even though I am a loose fit Inexperienced and underestimated But working constantly just so I can tell you that I made it Word explosions and mind implosions Im staring in the distance Questioning my existence blocked by unintended inhibitions Story book of my life, but the rest is still unfinished Its unwritten whatll happen if I keep flipping these pages Semidepression Im caged into this prison Amazing how I stay in it when I know Im about to give in Im sick of it Im in bed and Im tossing, turning and shiverin Waking up quivering, in cold sweats, Lord please deliver me Some shut eye, cuz I never get to sleep Wolves in my mind devouring and slaughtering the sheep Craving for some peace at night when Im having my dreams But in reality its all wishful thinking, truthful speaking Im having nightmares [Screams, roars, gunshots, laughter, chaos] [Part Two Lucid Dreams] [Heartbeat] [Hook Josh Smith] My body is gone, Im lucid dreaming again A loss of feeling it seems like its just me and the pen My body is gone, Im lucid dreaming again x2 [Bridge Josh Smith] Slow my thoughts down just so I could keep up Inner voices are telling me Im not good enough My uncertainties and doubts are slowly rising up Everything as it seems wants me to give it up [Verse 2 Josh Smith] Im nothing Thats what I think as my nightmares turn lucid Its too much pressure, dont know if I can do this What if people think my project is stupid? What if they think that my rappings a nuisance? Am I good or is that just something they say? Will I be Dlist or will I be on Sway? Up at night, I just hope and I pray That my insecurities would all go away Will I ever be better at freestyle than Ye? Will I ever be someone kids can look up to? Will I always be someone that you can run to? Will I be a failure or will I become successful? Will life always be stressful? Will rhymes always flow through my pencil? Am I just a person or can I be a vessel? Am I just a human being or can I be a stencil? Carving the way for others up ahead Or will I simply be one that they all laugh at instead? What if Im too generous and end up like Hammer? What if my music doesnt get me that bread? If they Google search my name, will actually they find me? Or will they see the guy thats bouncing the Spalding? What if rapping isnt really my calling? What if thoughts no longer flow from my head? Will people miss me if one day I was dead? A dark thought, but a genuine fear Im so afraid of the future and what it brings near My life ponds turning murky when it used to be clear My mind in overload, cant process these thoughts Cuz what I got is all I got, and it aint even that hot Its not, my thoughts in knots, memories are forgot As I fought to regain consciousness, cant take it Feel like Im wasted And I black out [Part Three Unconscious] [Verse 3 Josh Smith] Its like Im unconscious I dont feel like me anymore It feels like Im nauseous So sick, got one foot out the door I dont know where my life is headed But I know one things for sure Im unconscious Just lost in this world [Verse 4 Josh Smith] Just a wanderer, hes wandering Wondering whats become of him Its lightninging, its thundering Hes blundering, hes struggling Losing hope, hes about to just give up and then He looks up and his eyes begin to open and Hes home again
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