[Intro] There is a war going on inside our head the good versus the bad, the scared versus the brave. There is no single victor, for the war goes on for a lifetime. Back and forth, the voices go. Perhaps there was never meant to be a winner, and the real prize is to be selfawareto befriend your voices and from time to time, give them a microphone [The Arrogant Room] They think that I fail when they see me on YouTube. Who is she? They dont have a clue. Man, she aint funny, I dont understand, yo, how does she get views? These numbers aint nothing. She tripping, straight up, yo, this girl is confused. I trip all the way onto Forbes and stay on. Let me tie up my shoes Who am I? Who am I? Hello, nice to meet you, my name is the news Haters, say hi to your sisters, and tell them that I said, Yo, thanks for the views! I got three Ls in my name, but yo, dont get it twisted, I get Ws My money like a pair of Nikesmy checks, they coming in twos When you sleeping, I work. When you slacking, I work. When you clubbing, I dont do the same. When you breaking, I work. When you quitting, I work. When you faking, I dont play that game. When you fronting, I work. When you talking, I work. When you crying, I go through the pain. You flexing your arms, Im flexing my life cause homie, my hustle got gains Back in the day, they used to say, You will not get far. But now today, my insta page looking like postcards.. These people dont move, they run out of gas. Their hustle is idle. Im sipping on booze, flying first class, texting my idols. If you dont know me, I replaced T.V., so yeah, Im entitled If you dont like me, kiss my booty with some BAWSE. That ish will last a while If Im in a good mood, I might mention you and give you some hype Tag you in a pic, and give you a career for the rest of your life [The Vulnerable Room] Im working hard to make my family proud..but maybe they just wanna see me more What if Im all alone before a crowd, and the only friend I have with me is Forbes. Is it worth it? Do I deserve it? I think Im destined for greatness but Im unsure of it. I moved so far away from everything I know. That was the only way I thought that I could grow. I see amazing things. I meet amazing folks. You ask what joy it brings, I couldnt tell you though. Im always on the go. No time to take it in. I meet my idols, then Im searching for the next win. I dont know what Im doing. Im making this all up. What if talent isnt true, and this was all luck. Do people love me for me? Or do they love my stats? If I didnt have all of that, would they have my back? I miss having conversation. I try, but its hard to have patience when its selfies before hi. Like, Can I take a selfie? No Hi, how are you? Yeah, for sure, uncle. Its nice to see you, too. My choices make me lonely. I dont let people hold me. Im addicted to success. Scared to get some rest. Killing myself slowly, claiming nobody knows me, and it took this beat to confess that Im a mess. I dont know what Im doing. God, give me a sign. I dont know what Im doing. Im making this all upand Im a mess [The Sexy Room] I dont wanna talk. I work a long day, so I wanna know, can you work a long night? I dont wanna talk. I work a long day, so I wanna know, can you work a long night? I like the way you look when Im in this dress. Can you make me feel blessed when Im feeling super sexy? I dont care whats right. I want you next to me. Make me forget my responsibilities. I dont wanna tell you about my day. I just wanna use your body in the most selfish way. Im feeling myself, feeling some type of way. Only thing would be better is you feeling me. Can you pull me really close? Kiss up on my neck, then we switch roles, and we start to sweat. Dont you dare stop now. Chills up and down, fingers down my spine, heavybreathing sound. Bodies start to grind. Dont you dare talk now. Let me let go of myself. Let me be a side of me that people never see Humble the Poet Can you let go of yourself? Let me see a side of you that people never see. Im a tomboy with a figure, underneath that tshirt tracing curves with your finger. But you better make it quick. Took a break from the hustle, I need to get back to it. Its your lucky day. I work hard and they say thats also how you gotta play Can you please stop talking? Put some Queen Bee on repeat, lets get it popping [The Goofy Room] Im sexy and I know it, wearing Spanx and I show it. Got stretchmarks on my booty, all these carbs are bound to grow it. And I dont give any effs. Lifes too blessed to be stressed, but if your name is Efron, Ima step on out this dress. Yeah right, like I shaved my legs. I didnt. I dont have a thigh gap, but I sure got all the trimmings. And I cant do a smoky eye, no matter how hard I try. So I use that eyeshadow to turn myself to a guy. Drawing beards on my face, putting wigs on my head. Doubletapping Nick Bateman while Im lying in my bed. Holla Lovehandles! I got them lovehandles! No pedicure, rocking opentoed sandals! Holla Lovehandles! I got them lovehandles! Hella splitends, and my hair so tangled! And I am such a G, unicorns all on my feet. Sippin half a cosmo, got me dancing so offbeat. My outfit not on point, and my nails not on fleek. Spray tan effin up on my clean white sheets. Life is really good. Yeah, my life is kind of perfect. I can see the whole world, like Im Jasmine on a carpet. I dont have a single problem. I think I deserve it. Im like Sixth Harmony, baby, I am so worth it. Got my heels in my hand and Im walking down the street. I cant wait to eat some fries then go straight to get some sleep [The Socially Aware Room] How can I sleep? How can I eat? How can I live when freedom isnt really free? Cause I am a failure, not just me, but rather, we all fail if people dont know black lives matter. But money dont mean nothing if equal pay aint the standard. Trying to tweet these changes but oneforty letters cant change strangers. Its not enough to be a diamond in the rough cause if you sit to pee, you at the bottom of the ladder. We got clowns in elections, never pay them no attention, but the hate is progressing. Thats a reflection of who we are. Who are we? We killing people for loving people. We dont know how to stop it. We just making trending topics. Why arent we aiding aids? When it comes to real problems, we need some hearing aids. Some priorities, some respect. Instead we reading about what two celebs just had sex. Girls are getting raped. That aint the fault of miniskirts, it aint because of alcohol, or because she liked to flirt. Thats because we made a place where she has less of a worth, and offenders walk away while the victims lay to hurt. You scared of Muslims? Im scared of your mentality. Your weak mind is why we have so much damn brutality. A war on terrorism, bigger war on ignorance. Nice Muhammad Ali tattoo, I guess ignorance is bliss. People are drowning in the water that we drink. Trying to escape war, what more? You got to think. You would rather let them sink then to let them in. Borders, money, politics. Eff the human condition. Thats the world we live in. Killing them, letting them die. Now, whats the difference? We are killers. We are hateful. Are we blessed and ungrateful? The solution and the problem. We cant just pray. We gotta solve them. Stop praying. Shut up. We solve them We are the problem to our goddamn problems How can you sleep? How can you eat? Youre the problem to your goddamn problems We are the problems to our goddamn problems Shut up, and just solve them [Outro] We all have these voices in our heads, but regardless of their presence, its up to us to decide which ones to use. Which ones to base our actions on, and which ones define us. Its not about the voices in your head. Its about what you do with them
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