[Verse 1] Every morning that Im waking, I feel I need some changing I wanna do some great things, like doing shows in beijing The obstacles Im facing, are messing up my pacing Now everyday Im aging, I feel like time is wasting Im saying that all the time Im taking up is fading Or maybe Im slowly going crazy cuz Im failing I feel my self esteem deescalating Im feeling like I hate me, all my inner confidence is breaking Its aching and shaping me into someone thats angry That aint me. it may seem like it, but it cant be I feel a massive hole in my heart and its gaping ...its affecting the very way Im behaving ...Im tired living life like Im eighteen ...Im tired treating time like a play thing Im not lazy, but I need rearranging ...procrastinating should no longer plague me But on the other hand, ive said this in the past. if I Give myself another chance will it be just as bad? It gets me pissed and mad. why do I live like that? Why cant I pick a different path and just forget the facts? I wanna try everything with my potential maxed Im committing acts now with it snipped in half I can only express this through my gift of rap Im fighting myself, its not a winning match [Hook] Im fighting myself, Imma be nothing Im fighting myself, I can be something Im fighting myself, imma be worthless Im fighting myself, I can be perfect Im fighting myself, I should be dead Im fighting myself, I should be ahead Im fighting myself, Im gonna fail Im fighting myself, I will prevail Im fighting myself [Verse 2] I can hear a voice say, you should finish and quit it Diminish existence, just give in and listen Admit it this instance you sense an indifference With living in mischief, now heres a decision Relinquish your spirit, elicit your sickness Put thin slits in this wrist, let it drip for minutes Or end it with quickness, like Kelvin did Shoot yourself with a pistol, go to hell with him My eyes swell with tears, and I wake up screaming I rebuke that evil in the name of jesus! That kind of wayward dream is not the way Im thinking Now Im laying sleepless nothing say Im speechless But, going through that moment helped me find a secret Im not only fighting reason, Im fighting demons Through all these times Im seeing, Thats its christ Im needing Through him my life has meaning my inner fights completed
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