[Verse 1] Heavy weight my mind always stresses me Not focusing on the present cause I got offered a fantasy In the present thinking of the future in which I talk about my past It never lasts, it never lasts, this addiction is bad Shooting up like a fiend, as painful as drug addicts And as cray as it sounds I need a rehab Help me, lift me up, save me, Im as good as dead The cage that I live in is not helping it end Been dealing this for too long, been suffering for too long So damaging that I gotta spit it out on this verse They tell me Im crazy and wrong but they dont understand My unique disease, eternal mark and brand Although it gives me my ability to think and come up with ideas All those things store in my head and makes me follow it in that order Horrible cases of burdens, grudges, hatefulness, and hidden anger And I dont want my life to be predicted by me, I want it to be my Father Cause life would be boring if it all came true through my head Praying day and night hoping the raging sea in my brain calms Please forgive if I disappoint you all Its been a long time coming if you know what I mean Let it all out
hatefulness, present, long, disappoint, damaging