Intro After I shot myself I was conscience. I couldnt see, I heard everything. I heard my boyfriend screaming. So I remember feeling around, the recoil of the weapon was so powerful it took me from being on my hands and knees, To sitting on the bed, it threw me on the bed. And I remember the first thing I thought was, oh my god, I did it, I did it. I cant believe I did it Verse 1 Im so tired of falling If this Tylenol could numb the pain or extra strength but a firearm would I got a friend who survived the shot Suicide, humans die, say goodbye then say hi to God She said a prayer fore she pulled the trigger Lord if it be your will, I apologize so please forgive me Then the hammer clicked The devil and his demons laugh entertainment like theyre staring through a camera lens Shes on the doctors table operating She said thats when she left the body Nurses screaming like they lost a patient And she woke up in hell so goes the tale That it was hotter than the barrel of the gun she shot her face with And to make things even worse She can hear herself falling while they calling out a name that wasnt even hers And shes like dang Im dying And no one even knows my name What a shame that I am Like an insane asylum the way they tie me to this bed and stich my face together My names a waste of letters Colder than the late December Thats when she heard God say I did not forget you, I know your name and I would twice hang on that cross to get you. And the scars on your face Ima leave you with are there to remind you that from this day its for me you live. And her story is so bittersweet Cause I know if God can deliver her Than surely hell deliver me Chorus Im sitting in my room and I wonder what it is that you see when you look at me Is this how it is? I dont wanna pretend like Im something that Ill never be Lord pick me up cause I dont wanna to fall again And save me, save me, from this prison in my head Verse 2 So theres no one else to blame or point the fingers at If lifes a sad sad song than where the singers at? Love just flies away I guess thats why these artists always seems to draw the red heart with the wings attached Life is short time is borrowed like the tweaker who just never brought my speakers back Mr. Deacon, please dont put me where the preacher sat Cause I dont own a suit, and just might stain your carpet Cause lately to be honest All this dirt Ive been walkin in has turned my sneakers black My wifes the best of me And Im the weaker half If lifes a recipe Im sick of eating that Become the death of me This pure ecstasy so let it be Put that on everything that Jesus has But thou shall not swear So my words are locked there In a freezer bag They just melt away Talk is cheap Cant afford to pay if there is hell to pay So Im feeling kind of nervous And my stomachs turning At the dinner table like Im hoping someone else can pray All my selfish ways Ive been caught red handed Like the kid who stuck his hands in the velvet cake Chorus Verse 3 Yeah, kids look up to me Its like they think Im perfect See Im drowning barely breathing trying to reach the surface They say my songs speak to em like Im preaching sermons And the pastor at his church sounds like hes speaking German But I just wonder if he knows That I got problems of my own And Im following this road But I aint perfect neither Thats why I need God His grace keeps me from flippin out at my wife And packing my bags at night to leave her And trust me I done thought about it And not one homey was around that I could call on like Dog, Im drowning. They just left me drinking oceans Trying to swallow mountains Walking the tightrope during an earthquake Im all off balance But Im convinced that he was there when no one else was Satan gives the evil stare but Romans 1 says I am not ashamed And I am not ashamed So even when its all over I still overcome Chorus
like, god, bed, ashamed, deliver