[Verse One MikelWJ] Its been three long months since I picked up a pen And my chicken scratch journal is questioning where Ive been I mean, I dont know, feeling utter mental collapse In the back of a mind state that could shadow my raps You fuckers made me a clown, another pawn in a show I was acting out the words the songs that I never wrote I was leaning on the feeling of hoping my heart had broke Since compared to my friends, my fucking life was a joke They call me smooth, yet obnoxious, my personalities cautious And if youre stepping to my level then you know that Ill stop it Now Im stacking up letters, Im writing faster and better And I put together puzzles with pictures of better weather Its this big battle within me that will be ending me softly Its my desire to win, but knowing winnings not healthy Its my blood stream with coffee that pays the price of a robbery And the fact that Im young makes them think they can stop me [Verse Two MikelWJ] I gave up a life of calm thoughts to chase this dream I gave up being normal just so you wont leave But I got sucked in, and so you found the door They call me manic depressive, so let me say a little more Half of those thoughts were suicidal, I felt like a lost prophet I was reaching for the stars, but I guess that I grabbed a comet Im a failure to my district, my father hates my existence And none of my friends have realized that lately ive been missing These ladies Ive been kissing, all theyve done is made me empty Then people start to question the reason Im never friendly I try to move forward but my friends tell me to fall back And all along Im looking for a bullet for my skull cap And thats not even the half of it, I wont go there Since Im better than ever but I still find grey hair This is the path that I have chosen. Yes I know its lone and broken But the only way Ill make its if I do it by my lonesome [Verse Three MikelWJ] Grey is just the area where black and white meet So this stage is just the wood that will hold up my feet And this pill is just a method that will help me fall asleep So I deliver my message to help you relieve the grief I walk in shoes that arent mine, so my friends dont cry Ive stood in front of people as they all told me to die Ive held the world on my shoulders, pebbles turn to boulders But the only thing I fear is Im slowly getting older [Ha, And thats some real fucking talk man I thought I won, but I never had a real plan So now Im tired, and I only want a break Take off this mask if you want to see my face.] [x2] [Verse Four MikelWJ] Things were darker than ever and I was trying to breathe Friends kept me together but friends happen to leave I was looking for heaven, since men took all that id give I was saying I would die just to learn how to live My mother tells me to smile since the world will get better But I claimed my little corner and thats what keeps me together Since Im rolling with punches, and shootings not in the memo Im standing my ground firmly, but learning how to let go The whole world tried to tell me lifes an eye for an eye But if you stab me in the back, then all youll get is goodbye Because Im better than that, its not my job to punch back I came here just to create, working on track after track I cant just end it all at outcast, I need to tell a story Of happier days after dark nights that are blurry So forget about heartbreak and forget about the cheater Now welcome one and all to the start of the pigeon theater [Perhaps all my dreams are simply imagined endings for the cliffhangers in my life.]
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