For years and years in this world I am living With infinite pain I swallow deep down inside, No one have known how much wounds I covered, No one have known how much I was tired. How can it be I am drowning in oceans Of deep agony that take me to edges With the weight of this fate on my shoulders, Asking myself to fall in this haze... Ive tried to search my hopes and my answers, Across this malignant reigns of sorrow and grief, I have seen so much gloom, desperation And the lights of the truth disappeared. Indeed i felt my spirit withering slowly, Cold autumn waves embraced entirely my being, My fragile wishes have called me to follow My inner wisdoms and my secret dreams... Ive tried to fight against my loneliness, I was always afraid to delusing someone, Ive slighted my real ideals and wishes And Ive lied to myself about my life... But Ive found just cold statues on my paths And my naivety became my eternal flaw, And soon I forget about my tenderness, And thunders of madness encircled my soul... Black fogs covered the sun of my existence, And the fallen leaves have frozen my heart, Asleep in the deepest agonal slumber, I am chained in the mirrors of loss... With every new fall I gain to this knowledges, With every new pain my being will fade, My sins and my failures will lead me to abyss, My journey will come to its unnatural end... .....this words are so cold ...... .....this beings are so wrong.... ......this pains are so old.......... .......this feelings are so strong... I drank alone my poison, Ive sit in depths of ashes... Ive withered in my darkness.... I burnt in my fancys flames... I fell in absence of myself, I travelled beyond sweet deceits, My world, lost and forgotten, Adrift adrift in ocean of sins. Im the cursed, the vagrant, Im silent in fire of doom, Oppressed by my inner damnation, Betrayed by my wounded lusts. My world is dying in indifference, In loveless oceans of lies, Theres no time for the changes... And I am I am so tired so tired to try ...
adrift, tired, ocean, delusing, much