December 25th, 1986 Van Nuys Merry Christmas Well thats what people say at Christmas, right? Except for normally they have someone to say it to They have friends and family And they havent been crouched naked under a Christmas tree With a needle in their arm like an insane person in a mansion in Van Nuys Theyre not out of their minds, theyre not writing in a diary And theyre definitely not watching their holiday spirit coagulate in a spoon I didnt speak to a single person today I thought, why should I ruin their fucking Christmas Ive started a new diary and this time I have a few new reasons One, I have no friends left Two, so I can read back and remember what I did the day before And three, so if I die, at least I leave a nice little suicide note of my life Its just me and you, diary. Welcome to my fucking life Nobody would believe the shit that happens inside my head, its haunted Now that Ive come down from the drugs It seems like a sick play that I saw in a theater somewhere Thirty minutes ago, I couldve killed somebody Or better yet, myself
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