INTRO I just made a terrible mistake I dont know if am gonna survive it But it seemz so complicated to excape fate and you can never understand till we trade places My own wordz i guess There can be no understanding without misunderstanding I believe 2b old and wise you must first have to be young and stupid Am just promoting my past till am past out Starting with my first love Let the world hear it VERSE 1 Yes i didnt send you flowers but i wrote you all those love note still I couldnt buy you flowerz but i did try to put smile on your face Does that mean i dont love you because i didnt show you care the way other loverz do ? Girl i talk about you to everybody, let them know special you are to me But you dont get it Pushing me away You dont care about me You say you tired of me repeating wordz ? And you cannot love me ? Am i that ugly ? No i dont think so, cuz if i am girlz wouldnt have been into me I dont think you understand the sacrifice ive made, have been waiting for you under the rain, 8 hours and i come to you You dare ask me why am nodding my head ? Bitch am catching cold I dont know if this is love or desperation But 3 years i still dont want to let go Its like am sired to you You my worst distraction Its like i carry you in my spirit But am tired of being posses with this feeling Cuz this is folishness Someone please get me out of here cuz HOOK Its like i couldnt figure out how to love am i a lost cause ? nope Someone take me back to where i use to be My home the city of love VERSE 2 Sometimes i feel something is wrong with me But i need no goddamn physcologist To correct me or tell me what todo I just want to be the one to deal with oscar over superior and my evil twin Me generalizing things, sometimes i hurt the ones i love that aint how it suppose to be Cuz lately i havent made my parentz proud A voice keep talking to me deep inside Oscar you lying to yourself Cuz you slowly dying and you denying, your health is declining With your self esteem you crying for help You dont admit when you get hurt You just do something stupid or try to cover it up, but tonight am breaking free Cuz i alwayz show love to the wrong people and my rights are being taken away from me Why do they do me in a class with a bad name, and rep me off my pride for Gods sake ? Am tired of being the victim of hate Am tired of being the victim of shame Its like am stuck in between two worldz But id rather be the city of love REPEAT HOOK VERSE 3 For those of you who never stop believing in my vision Plz accept my apology I feel like am back to normal I feel like me again My life is no longer a movie I just want to thank everybody for baring and waiting patiently for these last couple of years while i figure this shit out HOLD NOTES But nobody has everything Thingz are never what they seem So you cant assume You just gotta speak your truth Cuz i still believe nobody helps you in this life without seeing a lil potential in you But my mum said even the greatest gotta suffer sometime She said truly theres no man who canbe your jesus But they are few who are ready to take a lil burden of your cross OUTRO Despite every nerve in my body trying to break or hurt someone Am holding it together the best i can for my family
cuz, wordz, love, tired, oscar