I dont know what i should do Ive been trying everything and nothings really working Maybe i should let it loose But living like that really only hurts ya man i caught up In these circles with these all these people know who do not like me Yeah they despise me, its not surprising but if i asked them they they would keep quiet, probably deny it Like why you hide it, ill keep on trying Knowing you hate it I keep on writing, trying to make it Dont care bout dying, this is what saves me Through all the trials Iim always smiling while my mind is on some violence Try to fight it but it heightens with the slightest type of slighting I get spiteful, recognizing that my vices got me strangled by the throat See the anger comes and go, but more so lately its been home Im on my own, and every day i feel more restless Yeah I worry so much that i feel obsessive Just wanna taste what real success is Where god at, got a million questions Like why my sis diagnosed with MS Like why not me i could handle all that I could take that stress, i dont have any kids Music got me missing all the family events I dont know what i should do Ive been trying everything and nothings really working Maybe i should let it loose But living like that really only hurts ya man scratch the surface Nah i cant remember all the memories we been through Every single day of life is like waking from benders Dont intend for it to end but damnit its been a minute Too be real Im having days that i start feeling like Im finished Last year damn near quit Im really happy that i didnt Cause id only back and always regret it Gets hectic, cant panick, get to ya, dont let it Cant exit, more effort, more effort, more effort No way ill accept defeat Said it all before, Id rather rest in piece than to Full speed ahead, and never second guess On a quest of stress, but never settling I can be what you need you will see Better say it right yeah the names sallee Im looking around and you all look alike And the music always seem to be same old thing Why every picture you dont like live I swear it only matter if the hook gives a vibe I got a problem i know i cant seem to handle it Shake up the mix and protest the establishment Say that they care but i know that inaccurate Just wanna smile and a shot for the camera lens Man i swear living like this is so hazardous Dont know what to do but keep chasing after it
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