[Intro] Yo... Zero... Ayo this record aint meant to make you feel some type of way You feel me? But if you feel me... Let me know [Hook] Oh.. Cant anybody see? Youve got to want to find me Never find our way Regardless of what they say [Verse] Fear could easily fill the room fill your heart up wit a feeling of doom Remember lookin out the window of the projects back in New York At age 3 crazy feelin like you never knew your Mother but she behind you but you look out that window You see somebody else you let the tears flow, for years I didnt know What was going on, but I just knew this wasnt home to me I had a mother who didnt have love for me Abandoned, abused, thats what they had told me A little fuckin baby I was, they wouldnt hold me Anybody who know me know the scar on my arm Was caused to me by my mom cuz she enjoyed causing me harm Cryin all day long I was put up in that closet Cuz I was cryin she aint know how to stop it I was the first born of a new generation my destination Wasnt here when I was 3 thats when I was taken Its quite amazin.. Crazy I dont know my father either For all I know my mama he prolly beat her If you just now tunin in, or now payin attention Rewind this back listen to everything that I been spittin Im tryna tell you what a fuckin child had to witness What Im givin you is realness, I dont care if you dont feel this I dont care about a lot of shit, pain I got a lot of it Im tryna exercise my demons cuz they look all outta shape I like to smoke a lot of weed visit different odysseys Theres a lot of shit in my mind that I wish that all of you can see What you oughta see is how a child such as me Came up outta poverty grew up livin properly Mama told me shut ya mouth your music dont need concern the Shit you had to deal wit growin up but mama youre the Reason why Im this strong, to me this isnt wrong Take it as me as praisin you up in my songs I know you dont like me smokin but its the only thing that Brings me back to peace Im tryna leave that Habit in the past but I doubt that it will ever leave Since my first hit its been a part of me, guess thats cuz it probably Runs, in my family history But mama know the man who ejaculated me, isnt me Yeah he created me but didnt raise me Thats why 22 years later dont care what he would say to me This is my art my release my heart my passion To me this isnt even rappin This is me talkin to the demons that haunt me Growin up as a child the other kids would taunt me Sayin that I dont, have a mommy.. Honestly This rap shit is a call to me Remember pickin up the phone cuz she would call me Sayin I love you Justin I aint respondin properly You posed to be my mom instead Im livin wit someone else You live up in New York wit my brother sister whoever else Is supposed to be my family instead I am oblivious Because I live wit this woman who really gives a shit About how I may turn out.. Its my turn now Show her everything that I have learned now This is my apology To you my father who didnt love me like you couldve properly Mama told me that you carry hate inside ya heart Youre mad at 2 people you never see just let it out Im mad at 2 people who wasnt there, when they shoulda been Aborted I prolly shoulda been, remember they said that I coulda been Mama wasnt ready to have me Daddy wasnt ever a daddy A child all alone man its sad to see If God painted me then Im his beautiful tragedy Zero [Outro] How can it feel this wrong? From this moment How can it feel this wrong?
mama, wit, properly, wasnt, cuz