Have you ever felt so alone, in a room full of people that just admire you? Its overwhelming to see the people all lie to you I suck it up for the fact that I have to keep it movin And for my reasons, happiness aint why I pursue it I sit alone in my bedroom and wonder what Im doin I think about the fans Im gaining but the friends Im losin I push away the people tryna get close to me And try to reel in all the people who dont even know me I have issues with trust, can someone please show me? How to do it the right way, Im fuckin lonely Never forget none of the words that she ever told me Why everybody wanna hug me but nobody holds me? Ive lost a part of me to someone that I used to hate It reminds me of the music that we used to make Ironically I ended up not even bothered by it Happiness was really close it was just hard to find it Yeah, and to the girl that was a part of me Thank you for everything but its time you grew a part from me I thought that everything weve ever been through Would help you understand, but none of it dont mean shit to you For that, I bid you adieu Just remember all our shit together, I been through it too Maybe life isnt as bad as it seems Cause a nightmare eventually turns into a dream In this rap game theres only one policy Aim for the stars, and I never took astrology Accept no apology, so much stress on top of me Dont care bout what you do with them just please get it far from me Since I was a kid, I seen my own death No stress, lost in an alley, see my own breath Mentally Im lost, in my heart Im feelin hopeless See my murderer just getting closer with the process After everything Ive learned What I thought was spittin fire I ended up getting burned This music would cause me drama and shit that I didnt need Im starin into the mirror and I dont know what I see Confusion is a step into depression You know it when you even start to question your reflection I would desire attention and for affection Until I say my confessions Ill never see my progression You talk a lot but I dont understand your sentence So I dont follow you, even if you try to mention My name, you would keep it in your conversations If were really a team, where is the cooperation? I live in Obamas Nation People laughin at me cause Im an obamanation No longer racin for people who arent chasin Their dreams, cause a nightmare is only what theyre facin Been betrayed so many times Im not a quitter Cause revenge is only sweet if they betrayal tasted bitter Fuck em all, none of em are friends to me An old friend still can turn into your newest enemy What the fuck you tellin me? I aint even listenin The truth hurts, it can leave the human heart cripplin The fact you was a long time friend Told me what youre tryna start, I should really try to end But to be honest you was a part of my game To show me what I tell you, what you tell her, is it the same? Im paranoid of the people I even trust now Used to give a fuck, but I dont give a fuck now I never take my eyes off a bastard Cause everyone will stab you only if youre facing backwards And 2 people I know, theyre the best wit it Ill take the knife out of my back, stab ya chest wit it Cause I dont need to betray you if I dont like you You should worry bout what Im doin, not what I might do My trust is something easily abused Cause its hard to gain, and very easy to lose But your betrayals not what I predicted They told me stay away from you, but I had resisted A natural emotion lasts only 12 minutes So that means that my depression is mostly selfinflicted After 12 minutes, how you feel is what you wanna feel Depression is my happiness, I just try to keep it real I go to sleep every night cryin my eyes out Wondering when the fuck all the pain will ever die out The eyes are the windows to the soul So I always make sure that I keep my blinds closed If I should really die Ill be lookin down from Heaven watchin my funeral just to see whod really cry Im glad yall can witness greatness before the final stages Life is a book Im too scared to turn the pages A dream is a wish that your heart makes And a nightmares the evil when your heart breaks Been walkin for too long in this dark place And I never win, whenever I feel my heart Always ended last in the hearts of many But my music landed great in the hearts of plenty Lord tell me, all this pain that you send me Lemme know if all of my struggles will really help me In the future, I been abused to the Point that I dont know where is my sanity, Im after peace I treat all of my lyrics like a masterpiece Its sad to see, somebody mad as me Walkin around livin a life I should be grateful for I look at life and say its them on why I hate you for! The demons in my dreams are chasin after me They follow me when I wake up I see em in reality They ask me if Im okay I really dont want your condolence Im acting like Im okay, dont interrupt my performance
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