[Verse 1] 1991 a star was born My soul was torn in the exact moment that they umbilical cord was gone And honestly I still think Id rather stay dead Cause Im still a monster thats rage fed in Haze head But I was born into a ton of curses Same blood, same genes, just a different purpose And a different person like all around My life was fucked up and I let it tear me down And I always dressed in skirtses And I always slept in churches Didnt believe in shit so I always felt so worthless Molested at age 7 nobody ever noticed So I locked myself inside myself and had to keep on growing Of course youd never know it That type of pain is the [?] In fact its been 13 years, I still feel a strain on my shoulders [Verse 2] Its 2001 and Im hoping to die Im writing suicide letters I mailed to the sky My biggest question is why That fucking question remains But since I sound my purpose I have never felt pressure the same All of the pressure was drained And God was here I know it I didnt choose where I started, but I did choose where Im going [Hook 2x] Every day is hard work struggle, pain, and dedication I know it gets hard to end the pain for preservation If you make it through then every day is a celebration If you know where youre going everydays a reservation [Verse 3] Its 2007 Im still looking to heaven But Im thinking murder now and Im using hate as my weapon Im using pain as my leverage I want them to suffer too Almost lost my whole mind look at what that struggle do Insanitys blissful in silence Almost met mental asylums Outside Im a quiet storm, but inside a fist full of violence Dear Ty, Im sorry that youre gone I wish you could come back to life so I could kill you on my own Fuck it all motherfuckers Ive made it on my own And Ive never had shit, man I made it here alone With my brother as my crutch and my mother as my soul And I didnt choose where I started, but I chose where Imma go [Hook 2x]
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