[Intro Lecrae] Uhh, you I, umm I know I just got out of rehab, but uh I actually need to be checked back in. Yeah I didnt think this was gonna happen to me... man... [Verse 1 Lecrae] Feel like Im back in that dark place Somewhere in between a rock and a hard place And I aint doin nothin bad, Im just doin bad Feelin empty when I got more than I done ever had So Ima do what I do best when I feel depressed Go ahead and let my pen bleed out the stress In the margins, me and wifey arguin I dont remember why, but basically I aint washin her in Ephesians 5 She get out of line, I dont show her grace I get a pen and I trace her Now we need an eraser [PreChorus Lecrae] Im like, God, give me a sermon or a verse Anything to break the curse I feel like its getting worse But its like for every step up in the right direction Come with two swift punches to my midsection I get discouraged and I question is it really worth it Maybe tryin to change the world isnt really my purpose [Chorus Lecrae] I wish it wasnt true But it is, though Now the kids know Im not a hero, but I know somebody who is, though I wish it wasnt true But its very true And if its scaring you Look in the mirror, see my reflection instead of you [Verse 2 Lecrae] I can settle and be suburban, put down the Spurgeon Be concerned with keepin my home furnished Now my fire burns only for my own advancement Forget a passion for the pastors in Sudan The kids in Afghanistan, who be losin their dads They took a stand, saying that Christ is more than a man Man, I got the blues I aint got a clue how to get em another hue All I wanna do is escape with a cold brew Go to sleep and wake up and pretend that its all cool I wish it wasnt true But aint no quick fix on the wish list Trials make you better while they make you sick, yeah I was dyin to try Now Im dying from trying Now Im trying to die To the lies Im buying [Chorus Lecrae] I wish it wasnt true But it is, though Now the kids know Im not a hero, but I know somebody who is, though I wish it wasnt true But its very true And if its scaring you Look in the mirror, see my reflection instead of you [Verse 3 Lecrae] How come I wait till Im downcast and gray Before I think, Lecrae, you may wanna pray You may wanna walk in that library Get one of them commentaries See what them old dudes got to say But its easy to push play on the YouTube video or the Vimeo Escape from the menial, letting all these subliminal messages Wash me, watch me as I watch these People tell me what I can purchase just to wash these Blues away, functional savior, Im getting mine Its 19.99 for a limited time Besides, after that Im sure that Ill be feeling fine Ok, Im lying. Really Im just dying to try And for the 55th time times 9 Im disappointed looking for anything but the divine Save me from what Im feelin inside, its like a crime How I end up in the same place every single time Check me in
lecrae, true, wish, wasnt, scaring