Sigh...you know....never mind. Never mind There are too many things on my mind I need to vent Before I get overheated and my love starts to bend I pray to the most high to keep a close eye Because whatever he lends me he can sure take away Stakes get higher everyday, and I do reap what I sow But I know he knows the many times I blew away The moments to be faithful and humble Take baby steps and I still stumble The cookie crumbles but I didnt place my hand In the jar that far Make my heart like unto you O Lord If happiness isnt on earth why did youeven open the door for? I only question to make my faith endure Only suffer to make my mind chaste and pure Im grateful for all the blessing I wrought All the food for thought, and that beautiful fish I caught I swear God she can be the one She brought me back whenever I wanted to run She gave me something outside myself to love But the downside is all the temptations and irritations That on a daily basis basically have me beat Lusting for others result in stained sheets.Damn Yes daily I struggle with the test and guilt But what keeps me going is what me and my girl built We built a castle to run from the hassle of life Shes my capsule, my spare axle in this road filled with strife In just four months I fantasize her as my wife But before the gift one must go through much patience Her fragrance engraved in my nostrils, these agents of Satan Keep me hostile. Jealousy and envy get the best of me Forgetting the many times she said shed die before shed cheat on me So whats with the insecurities? Now her male friends I see them as enemies Now I wonder how I can even sleep peacefully While the love of my dreams cant even sleep with her condition Never did anything wrong to me nor deceitfully The real problem rests with me Maybe I need to learn to more love me more Maybe God.Maybe you can keep this door open? Im hoping I can cope with these things Even though love still stings, I will do My best to love her till the end I see her not only as my love but my friend She gave me so much hope in my times of darkness And even though my heart hardened she held my hand With compassion, I hate clashing, I dont want a coliseum I want Eden, if one falls we both fall. Even Steven I love when I show her off to you spiteful cretins What we have is something most kill Its nothing physical but more about faith and will Love is a feast we both had our fill Got a girl that will love to even if even if im down to my last bill And yes God we both virgins we never had sex The thoughts are mental and its all a mess Im just anticipating her next text...phone rings
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