[Intro The Act] Cant stand at ease Low selfesteem Screen is a window Portal to my soul See right through me All thats left is a hole I hate the sound of my voice Im stuck with the noise Cant stand at ease Low selfesteem Screen is a window Portal to my soul See right through me All thats left is a hole [Verse 1 The Act] This is a Critical selfreflection Sleepless nights, result in depression Criticizing, to the point of insanity Extra attention, to this damn vanity Like a detective See every detail with an inspection Not to mention, I remember every mistake Ever made, every scene, every take Recorded and stored in my memory banks And replayed in my brain Whenever I try to rest and sleep Unwind, undo, rewind, replay In my dreams Thanks, no thanks Nobody but me to blame Ive looked for an escape Dead end in every lane Im no Superman, but shes my Lois Lane Fond moments are gone Cause I washed them down the drain! There isnt any pain, just so much regret Think about it every day, its got me a little upset I feel like an idiot, filled with detest And an anger in my chest No wisdom Im still a fuckin little kid 18 years lived, and I still dont know shit I dont know what love is Not because Ive never been loved No, quite the opposite Ive just been too stupid To cherish it Least I acknowledge it So I forgot Now theres a fog causin a mental block Cant get over it Weighed down by chains and locks Holdin me to the Earth A lesson left to learn Caused you so much hurt, I deserve to burn It is what I have earned The paycheck for which I worked A paincheck Something I accept Im the one who stacked the deck I expect no less Goddamnit, I make no sense Its like a noose around my neck Cuttin off the blood to my head Id take my last breath But Im cursed with undeath... [Bridge] [Verse 2 The Act] Yeah, I had it all with you But I really dropped the ball Kept movin on without lookin in the rearview What Id do just to be near you I wasnt seeing things clear, you Gotta understand My vision was foggy and faded And our relationship degraded Cause I was acting so jaded I look back now, and I hate it! I see a mirror and I break it And it is not painless The pain is, what I get for being brainless I dont wanna make excuses But my thoughts were fucked And I was so clueless As to What was in front of me, now Im just stuck I wish I could go back and redo this Shake myself the fuck up, its bullshit I hurt you, and everything is ruined But I really had no idea If you think I knew it Thats not what the truth is I cant believe how badly I blew it But I deserve everything I get now To suffer and struggle through it Lie awake every night and review it It taints my dreamscape And it seems late But I am so fuckin sorry I keep things as a keepsake To remind me of my deep pain So I dont forget, elate I know you can relate I dont want to teach hate Im an asshole, and I was angry At every curve ball, twist and turn That life served froze on home plate Home is a battleground, no escape Ill never know what it means to be home safe I dove and all I got was road burn What I really need is some closure I cant ask for your forgiveness Because everything we had is over
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