I need to get my attitude in check Im often standoffish Keep my thoughts bottled up Bottom of the barrel You can bet your bottom dollar on em Bert An empty pack of cigarettes in my pocket Im on my way to the pharmacy Got my dollars and a penny in my wallet Keep my eyes on the profit Im smoking sticky adhesive My head is foggy and buzzy Dont give a fuck how you see it All my weed is imported And all my bitches conceited Still trying to cope with the demons Ive been seeing When I close my eyes to fall asleep Most people dont believe me I write it all down and Turn around and delete it Reason being I aint really trying to settle for decent Im working side streets Contemplating, pacing, impatient A whole lot of bullshit in my head Not really trying to explain it Im painting pictures of dysfunctional families With happy faces Just to have some fucking company Im wondering where the days went Still awake scheming Sleeping still dreaming Pressure on my chest I just need a sec to breath in Spend a couple seasons Searching for a deeper meaning But all I found is I cant really find much to believe in The baby face with its Brain in a shady place And recently Ive been having Trouble trying to fall asleep All I really need is some peace of mind And time to breath, but Time is money And moneys a priority now So fucking nervous trying to keep my composure But on the surface Im quiet You probably didnt notice Stay up late and pass out on the sofa Its pretty from afar But far from pretty when youre close up Get up off the pavement Brush the dirt up off my shoulders Im twenty years old and shit Im only getting older like What the fuck I got to show for it Some shitty poems and A couple instrumentals that I made when I was stoned Its whatever Shit I just hope that you get it Dont really know what I meant but If I meant it I said it And if I said it I probably wrote it down in a sentence So you can miss me with the bullshit I aint really trying to smell it Still awake scheming Sleeping still dreaming Pressure on my chest I just need a sec to breath in Spend a couple seasons Searching for a deeper meaning But all I found is I cant really find much to believe in I cant really find much to believe in
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