1 00:00:24,760 --> 00:00:33,665 老侯同志自從紅軍長征嘅時候起,就為毛主席餵馬,年齡比主席大幾歲。 2 00:00:34,281 --> 00:00:40,550 喺主席進入河北去西柏坡個路上,佢可以有汽車坐喇,唔使再騎馬喇。 3 00:00:41,751 --> 00:00:46,099 臨走之前,佢特登去看望老侯,佢話: 4 00:00:47,064 --> 00:00:54,743 我呢次唔騎馬喇,十幾年嚟,你一直同我餵馬,你好辛苦,我好感謝你。 5 00:00:55,380 --> 00:00:57,626 呢次你去河北就騎馬啦。 6 00:00:58,815 --> 00:01:01,900 當時老侯感動到熱淚盈眶,佢話: 7 00:01:02,646 --> 00:01:11,028 主席,餵馬係我個工作,我應該做好嘅,我個級別唔能夠騎馬,我仲係步行啦。 8 00:01:12,080 --> 00:01:17,995 毛澤東堅持話:你年紀大身體又唔好,應該照顧㗎。 9 00:01:19,247 --> 00:01:25,700 老侯真係冇想到啊,主席咁忙,仲有時間特登嚟看望佢關心佢。 10 00:01:27,087 --> 00:01:30,592 到咗西柏坡之後,老侯病死咗。 11 00:01:31,846 --> 00:01:39,967 當時啲人見到主席工作太忙,正係三大戰役最緊張嘅時期,就冇講畀佢聽。 12 00:01:41,136 --> 00:01:48,143 等到將一切後事都料理完畢之後,睺住主席冇咁忙嘅時候就將呢件事講畀佢聽。 13 00:01:49,133 --> 00:01:55,236 主席嬲嘞佢話:咁大件事,點解唔及時講畀我聽啊? 14 00:01:56,058 --> 00:01:59,694 我就係再忙,呢件事我亦唔能夠唔去嘅。 15 00:02:00,380 --> 00:02:04,683 事後,主席專程去老侯嘅墓地進行咗悼念。 16 00:02:06,674 --> 00:02:11,176 喺其他人嘅眼內,或者覺得老侯冇咩嘢本事吖。 17 00:02:12,100 --> 00:02:13,267 但係毛澤東話: 18 00:02:14,233 --> 00:02:29,947 老侯多年嚟踏踏實實噉餵馬,從來冇唔安心過,從來亦冇話睇唔起自己做馬夫嘅工作,真正做到咗不為名、不為利、一心為革命。 19 00:02:30,929 --> 00:02:35,284 老侯係個好同志,真係令人永遠難忘啊。 20 00:02:37,114 --> 00:02:45,640 世界上古今中外嘅軍隊裏便,有邊一個馬夫嘅去世,會牽動一個最高領袖嘅情感呢? 21 00:02:48,433 --> 00:02:54,323 六十年代初期,天災人禍,好多老百姓食唔飽。 22 00:02:55,295 --> 00:03:01,006 毛澤東知道呢啲情況之後,佢主動將自己嘅生活標準降低。 23 00:03:02,670 --> 00:03:08,347 可能會有人話喇:全國再困難,亦唔會影響到毛主席嘅生活吖。 24 00:03:08,918 --> 00:03:13,154 況且,毛主席節省落嚟嗰幾個錢,又有幾多呢? 25 00:03:14,069 --> 00:03:19,174 對一個咁大嘅國家,對咁大嘅困難,又有幾多幫助呢? 26 00:03:20,222 --> 00:03:29,033 呢啲唔係幾個錢嘅問題啊,係一種感情問題,係一種始終同人民同甘共苦嘅品質問題。 27 00:03:30,361 --> 00:03:40,881 你話呢個信息喺人民群眾當中傳播個時候,喺困難裏便嘅人民,會得到幾咁巨大嘅精神安慰同精神鼓舞啊。 28 00:03:42,088 --> 00:03:50,569 足足三年嘅特大困難,國家冇垮,社會冇亂,呢啲係永遠值得深思㗎。 29 00:03:52,930 --> 00:04:01,073 一九七六年,一月八日上午九點五十七分,周總理嘅心臟停止咗跳動。 30 00:04:01,936 --> 00:04:09,165 喺總理逝世前嘅十幾小時之內,周總理嘅病情報告就不斷噉送到主席呢度嘞。 31 00:04:10,679 --> 00:04:17,843 毛澤東靜一靜噉睇住一份又一份嘅病危報告、治療方案、搶救方案嘅報告。 32 00:04:19,505 --> 00:04:30,676 周總理嘅心臟停止咗跳動,張耀祠得到呢個噩耗,馬上嚟到主席嘅大廳,講畀毛澤東外便值班嘅護士小于聽。 33 00:04:31,849 --> 00:04:39,527 小于攞平時用慣嘅鉛筆,一支好輕好輕嘅筆,而家變得好重好重。 34 00:04:41,049 --> 00:04:48,187 佢用歪歪斜斜嘅筆跡,喺一張用嚟通報事情嘅白紙上面寫低呢個沉痛消息。 35 00:04:49,316 --> 00:04:53,505 佢將呢張紙,放喺主席大廳裏便嘅長枱上便。 36 00:04:55,149 --> 00:05:03,606 呢個時候,小孟正在主席臥室裏便值班,主席瞓喺床上睇緊一本魯迅選集。 37 00:05:04,931 --> 00:05:13,296 小孟聽見外便大廳有人走動嘅聲音,按照往日嘅經驗,佢知道係有人送條子,或者係送嘢嚟喇。 38 00:05:14,175 --> 00:05:19,740 佢靜一靜噉行出去,見到大廳裏便嘅長枱上便嘅紙條。 39 00:05:20,479 --> 00:05:25,301 佢個心有啲緊張,佢意識到會有不幸嘅消息傳嚟嘞。 40 00:05:26,740 --> 00:05:35,453 佢攞起嗰張三十二開嘅白紙,見到上面寫嗰行字,佢睇完一次又睇一次。 41 00:05:36,886 --> 00:05:41,923 佢攞住嗰張紙,逳都唔逳,定晒型。 42 00:05:43,195 --> 00:05:47,004 佢嘅淚水,不由自主噉流落嚟。 43 00:05:49,077 --> 00:05:55,912 小孟折起嗰張紙,擠入衫袋,佢抹乾眼淚,返入去主席嘅臥室。 44 00:05:57,022 --> 00:06:01,869 主席依然喺度睇書,佢根本就冇留意到小孟去過大廳。 45 00:06:02,962 --> 00:06:13,192 小孟亦都詐假意咩嘢事都冇發生,又去坐返喺主席床邊嘅沙發椅上便,順手攞起一部書,心不在焉噉掀下掀下。 46 00:06:15,151 --> 00:06:18,683 中午食完飯之後,主席休息咗兩個小時。 47 00:06:19,805 --> 00:06:25,795 下午三點幾鍾,政治局派人送咗總理逝世嘅訃告清樣嚟。 48 00:06:26,590 --> 00:06:36,495 小孟收咗,見主席瞓醒覺喇,精神仲算可以,佢決定搵機會將總理逝世嘅消息講畀主席聽。 49 00:06:38,011 --> 00:06:42,236 按照慣例,呢個時候小孟要同主席讀報,讀文件嘅。 50 00:06:43,524 --> 00:06:51,942 佢首先讀咗其他嘅內容,然後,佢稍為停咗一下,攞起嗰張訃告清樣。 51 00:06:53,686 --> 00:07:01,590 佢一向把聲好高嘅,速度好快嘅,忽然間變得好低沉,緩慢: 52 00:07:02,776 --> 00:07:18,359 中國人民偉大的無產階級革命家,傑出的共產主義戰士,周恩來同志,因患癌症,醫治無效,於一九七六年。 53 00:07:20,180 --> 00:07:26,161 主席聽住,慢慢噉眯埋雙眼,皺緊眉頭。 54 00:07:27,480 --> 00:07:34,593 冇幾耐,喺眯埋雙眼裏便流出眼淚,一直流到去面珠。 55 00:07:35,900 --> 00:07:41,580 小孟自己已經喊出聲嘞,泣不成聲噉堅持讀完咗訃告。 56 00:07:43,644 --> 00:07:49,732 沉默,沉默,仿佛係永無休止嘅沉默。 57 00:07:52,376 --> 00:07:56,649 主席一句説話都冇講,任啲淚水一味噉流。 58 00:07:58,023 --> 00:08:04,208 啲淚水流過面珠,流到嘴角,流到條頸。 59 00:08:05,505 --> 00:08:07,902 主席始終冇講一句説話。 60 00:08:08,842 --> 00:08:13,907 係㗎,呢個時候,能夠用咩嘢説話嚟表達感情於萬一呢? 61 00:08:15,113 --> 00:08:21,736 幾十年同舟共濟,幾十年嘅風風雨雨,永遠過咗去喇。 62 00:08:22,646 --> 00:08:29,920 幾十年嚟嘅得力助手,周恩來同志,到底先走一步,永遠去咗喇。 63 00:08:31,133 --> 00:08:41,168 對於飽經滄桑,歷盡磨難,曾展鴻途,籌建大業嘅一代偉人毛澤東嚟講,無疑係個沉重嘅打擊。 64 00:08:42,371 --> 00:08:50,947 儘管毛澤東曾經好多次揩乾淨身上的血跡,掩埋好同伴的屍體,我們又前進了。 65 00:08:52,237 --> 00:08:57,831 但係嗰陣畢竟係喺佢壯年,畢竟係處在生命嘅輝煌時期。 66 00:08:59,440 --> 00:09:03,653 道路是曲折的,曙光就在前面。 67 00:09:04,313 --> 00:09:12,361 無限嘅希望,壯麗嘅前景,吸引住佢永遠向前,佢冇時間沉溺於悲哀。 68 00:09:13,456 --> 00:09:21,461 而家就唔同喇,長年多病,政治嘅失誤,使佢身心交瘁,力不從心。 69 00:09:22,415 --> 00:09:27,336 佢唔能夠唔面對現實,佢唔能夠唔觸景傷情嘞。 70 00:09:28,516 --> 00:09:34,651 此時此刻嘅小孟,唔知該講啲乜嘢,亦唔知該做啲乜嘢。 71 00:09:36,029 --> 00:09:51,186 無聲嘅悲哀瀰漫喺主席寬敞嘅臥室裏便,臥室裏面,而家顯得格外沉寂,彷彿呢度嘅空氣都凝固咗喇,彷彿整個世界都瞓着嘞。 72 00:09:54,171 --> 00:09:59,012 總理嘅追悼會,喺七六年一月十五日下午召開。 73 00:10:00,539 --> 00:10:07,289 輪椅、氧氣袋,一切搶救嘅措施都準備好喇,準備主席去參加追悼會嘅。 74 00:10:08,621 --> 00:10:15,381 十四嘅夜晚,早就重病在身嘅主席,身體又多次出現反覆。 75 00:10:15,944 --> 00:10:19,969 佢根本坐唔起身,更加唔使講係企響度嘞。 76 00:10:21,663 --> 00:10:28,375 小孟打電話請示汪東興,總理追悼會嘅事,要唔要請主席參加啊噉。 77 00:10:29,334 --> 00:10:30,730 汪東興回答話: 78 00:10:31,897 --> 00:10:38,214 政治局未發出通知請主席參加追悼會,你哋就唔使問主席參加唔參加喇。 79 00:10:39,623 --> 00:10:43,888 就係噉樣,毛澤東冇去參加周總理嘅追悼會。 80 00:10:45,270 --> 00:10:49,675 當然,對呢件事,外便流傳唔少嘅講法。 81 00:10:51,290 --> 00:10:55,016 當時四人幫一班人,對周總理有刻骨仇恨。 82 00:10:56,064 --> 00:11:00,119 佢哋對總理嘅悼念活動,進行咗種種干涉。 83 00:11:01,048 --> 00:11:07,381 咩嘢唔准戴黑紗喇,唔准開追悼會喇,唔准影響揸革命促生產喇。 84 00:11:08,602 --> 00:11:17,737 四人幫一班人啊,一齊談笑風生、打撲克、睇電影、聽音樂,佢哋真係比過節仲高興。 85 00:11:18,561 --> 00:11:22,424 江青仲特登着起佢平時根本唔着嘅紅色羊毛衫。 86 00:11:23,390 --> 00:11:31,984 呢啲舉動、呢啲禁令,人人都看在眼裏恨在心上,人人都敢怒而不敢言啊。 87 00:11:33,427 --> 00:11:39,112 佢哋想唔通,更加唔理解,為咩對總理嘅悼念活動一壓再壓。 88 00:11:40,570 --> 00:11:52,275 啲人幾咁希望當時嘅偉大領袖毛澤東,希望有最高權威嘅毛澤東講一句説話,有一個行動,表示對周總理嘅公正肯定啊。 89 00:11:53,692 --> 00:12:02,132 人們曾經流傳一個噉樣嘅故事,話總理喺住院期間,主席坐地鐵去醫院看望總理。 90 00:12:02,920 --> 00:12:07,538 仲同總理送咗營養品,只不過冇登報發消息啫。 91 00:12:09,373 --> 00:12:17,607 不過呢個只係人們嘅希望,係人們喺渴望之中,編出嚟嘅帶有傳奇色彩嘅故事而已啫。 92 00:12:19,027 --> 00:12:27,484 人們幾咁希望總理嘅追悼會,主席會去參加,就算嚟露個面,就咩嘢問題都解決嘞。 93 00:12:29,392 --> 00:12:38,453 但係人們失望喇:主席冇參加總理嘅追悼會,亦冇一句對總理嘅公開評價。 94 00:12:40,387 --> 00:12:44,994 當然,邊個都唔知道毛澤東當時嘅處境。 95 00:12:46,004 --> 00:12:54,556 佢當時早就已經係力不從心,參加追悼會對佢嚟講,係無能為力㗎喇。 96 00:12:55,767 --> 00:13:04,502 人們誤會咗喇,或者人們會永遠誤會落去:睇嚟主席對總理冇感情。 97 00:13:05,506 --> 00:13:07,113 甚至仲有噉樣嘅講法: 98 00:13:07,923 --> 00:13:11,230 晚年嘅毛澤東對周總理產生咗妒忌。 99 00:13:12,783 --> 00:13:18,042 毛澤東係唔希望,亦唔允許有任何一個人超過佢嘅威望嘅。 100 00:13:18,867 --> 00:13:22,737 長期以來,佢被神化,被崇拜。 101 00:13:23,027 --> 00:13:32,960 特別係文化大革命以來,人們對佢嘅歌頌、讚譽、祝願、吹捧,已經達到頂峰,達到咗瘋狂嘅程度。 102 00:13:34,082 --> 00:13:41,034 毛澤東早就唔係嗰個能夠寬容別人嘅人喇,佢早就唔係嗰個有寬闊胸懷嘅偉人。 103 00:13:41,829 --> 00:13:44,425 佢有時甚至變得小肚疾腸嘞。 104 00:13:45,775 --> 00:13:50,560 四屆人大,總理喺醫院出嚟做咗政府工作報告。 105 00:13:51,179 --> 00:13:55,070 人民大會堂裏便,爆發出如雷貫耳嘅掌聲。 106 00:13:55,725 --> 00:14:02,330 呢啲掌聲長達幾分鐘之久,呢啲表示人民對總理嘅感情同熱情。 107 00:14:03,341 --> 00:14:08,911 在場嘅毛澤東,目睹咗呢個熱烈嘅場面,佢能夠容忍咩? 108 00:14:09,898 --> 00:14:12,729 佢嘅內心難免掠過一絲絲嘅不快。 109 00:14:13,744 --> 00:14:21,456 好似呢一類嘅故事,呢一類嘅分析,呢一類嘅猜測,曾經喺人們中間秘密噉流傳。 110 00:14:22,461 --> 00:14:30,229 但係,即使呢類故事係真嘅,噉能唔能夠係毛澤東唔參加周總理追悼會嘅原因呢? 111 00:14:31,821 --> 00:14:39,319 雙方之間嘅矛盾衝突,感情糾葛,會跟隨住一方嘅退卻而消失㗎。 112 00:14:40,608 --> 00:14:45,576 更何況係一方永遠嘅退卻,永遠噉離開人世呢? 113 00:14:46,818 --> 00:14:59,833 即使晚年嘅毛澤東,真係變成咗嫉賢忌能嘅人,佢嘅良心,佢嘅人性,佢嘅感情,又點能夠消滅得咁乾乾淨淨呢? 114 00:15:00,505 --> 00:15:11,086 況且,喺追悼會嘅前一日,就係七六年,一月十四日嘅下午,又係小孟同主席讀報個時間。 115 00:15:11,965 --> 00:15:18,265 小孟同主席讀咗追悼會上,由鄧小平同志致嘅悼詞嘅清樣。 116 00:15:19,556 --> 00:15:22,592 小孟喺度讀,忍住眼淚。 117 00:15:23,620 --> 00:15:28,488 主席喺度聽,佢淚如泉湧,失聲痛哭。 118 00:15:29,577 --> 00:15:35,193 佢依然冇講一句説話,佢又能夠講啲乜嘢呢? 119 00:15:36,371 --> 00:15:41,099 男兒有淚不輕彈,只緣未到傷心處。 120 00:15:42,569 --> 00:15:46,738 佢嘅痛哭,已經講出咗佢深厚嘅情感: 121 00:15:48,263 --> 00:16:01,956 裏便有對同生共死嘅戰友嘅哀傷,有對幾十年來交往嘅回顧,有對自己暮年多病嘅悲涼,有對自己已經無力回天嘅沮喪。 122 00:16:03,450 --> 00:16:09,336 周恩來嘅謝世,或者係一個時代嘅結束,一代人嘅退出。 123 00:16:11,289 --> 00:16:17,981 毛澤東大概亦感覺到一種夕陽無限好,只是近黃昏嘅悲傷。 124 00:16:19,856 --> 00:16:26,081 歷史到底係分階段嘅,任何人都唔能夠永遠做歷史舞台上嘅主角。 125 00:16:28,384 --> 00:16:33,326 聽悼詞嘅嚎啕大哭,你話佢唔係一種真實感情嘅流露咩? 126 00:16:34,101 --> 00:16:37,181 裏便能夠冇對周總理嘅沉痛悼念咩? 127 00:16:39,217 --> 00:16:47,964 喺後來幾日每次同毛澤東讀有關悼念活動嘅文章,各國嘅唁電,佢都會默默噉流眼淚。 128 00:16:49,036 --> 00:16:53,594 每當小孟發現嘅時候,小孟亦唔忍心再讀落去咯。 129 00:16:54,420 --> 00:17:02,700 佢想起汪東興嘅叮囑:主席歲數大喇,身體又唔好,就唔好讀咁多噉樣嘅文章嘞。 130 00:17:04,534 --> 00:17:11,585 周總理逝世後嘅好長一段時間,毛澤東嘅情緒上都籠罩住一層悲傷。 131 00:17:12,568 --> 00:17:21,928 本來仲可以説説笑笑嘅主席,總理嘅去世,彷彿一下就帶走晒佢本來就唔係好多嘅歡樂。 132 00:17:23,585 --> 00:17:30,135 喺嗰段時間,佢幾乎冇晒笑容,佢經常沉默。 133 00:17:31,853 --> 00:17:36,529 就喺呢種氣氛之中,一九七六年嘅春節嚟到嘞。 134 00:17:37,641 --> 00:17:42,678 七五年十二月二十六日,佢度過咗佢最後嘅一個生日。 135 00:17:43,676 --> 00:17:47,926 七六年二月四日,佢度過咗最後一個春節。 136 00:17:49,729 --> 00:17:52,888 佢嘅最後一個生日,仲有過一啲快樂。 137 00:17:53,670 --> 00:17:57,817 而佢嘅最後一個春節呢,就難得有一啲歡欣喇。 138 00:17:59,119 --> 00:18:12,734 除夕之夜,佢嘅住所顯得冷清而寂寞,並冇親人嘅團聚,亦冇招待朋友嘅宴席,只有小張、小孟陪伴住佢。 139 00:18:14,610 --> 00:18:20,890 當午夜中南海外便傳嚟噼噼啪啪嘅鞭炮聲音嘅時候,佢聽得好清楚。 140 00:18:22,198 --> 00:18:26,041 佢一下意識到今晚係除夕嘞,春節嚟喇。 141 00:18:27,129 --> 00:18:38,596 佢睇下小張,又睇下小孟,佢話:燒啲炮仗啦,你哋亦應該過下節嘅。 142 00:18:40,213 --> 00:18:44,856 邊個能夠相信,呢個就係毛澤東嘅最後一個春節。 143 00:18:46,539 --> 00:18:54,154 佢嘅悲涼,佢嘅寡言,唔通冇對已故戰友,對周總理嘅悼念咩? 144 00:18:56,762 --> 00:19:01,362 當我哋睇到毛澤東獨立寒秋,橘子洲頭嘅時候; 145 00:19:02,235 --> 00:19:07,974 當我哋睇到毛澤東喺延安窯洞前便,同一個小戰士談學文化嘅時候; 146 00:19:08,975 --> 00:19:15,485 當我哋睇到毛澤東返到去離別三十二年嘅故鄉,嚟到農民屋企作客嘅時候; 147 00:19:16,438 --> 00:19:21,513 當我哋睇到毛澤東攞起菲律賓,馬科斯夫人隻手輕輕一吻嘅時候; 148 00:19:22,464 --> 00:19:33,488 當我哋睇到毛澤東同小孟講故事、話家常嘅時候,我哋能夠唔覺得,毛澤東係個極富感情嘅人咩? 149 00:19:35,323 --> 00:19:40,445 無情未必真豪傑,憐子為何不丈夫? 150 00:19:41,328 --> 00:19:50,341 毛澤東係個富於感情嘅人,佢雖然早就被稱為領袖,被稱為救星,早就高高在上喇; 151 00:19:51,555 --> 00:19:57,411 但係佢同情弱者,看重友情,感情細膩而豐富。 152 00:19:58,069 --> 00:20:02,315 呢啲,唔能夠唔話係佢一貫嘅性格特點。 153 00:20:03,732 --> 00:20:07,600 喺佢留低嘅詩詞裏便,我哋更加可以睇到佢嘅情感。 154 00:20:08,361 --> 00:20:15,276 既有纏綿悱惻,又有豪邁果敢,既有潺潺流水,又有氣壯河山。 155 00:20:15,680 --> 00:20:22,012 詩言志,更言情,三十多首詩詞,係佢豐富感情嘅見證: 156 00:20:23,073 --> 00:20:28,263 無論係悵寥廓,問蒼茫大地誰主沉浮嘅青年時代; 157 00:20:28,921 --> 00:20:32,944 抑或係數風流人物,還看今朝嘅壯年時期; 158 00:20:33,475 --> 00:20:42,332 直到天生一個仙人洞,無限風光在險峰嘅老年,佢都不愧係一個感情豐富嘅詩人。