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大約係六八年二月份有一晚,小孟哥哥屋企畀人抄咗家。
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佢哋翻箱倒櫃,既冇攞古代字畫,亦冇攞所謂嘅四舊衣物。
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最後,只係喺皮箱裏便攞走咗一件嘢,就係小孟哥哥寫嘅嗰份揭發材料。
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第二日一早,小孟嘅哥哥畀人哋帶走嘞,進行群眾專政。
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罪名係反對偉大領袖毛主席。
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為佢提供材料個小孟,亦難以逃出魔掌啊,只不過係時間上稍為遲一啲就係喇。
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六八年春天嘅一個傍晚,嗰日係一個週末,一架小汽車開入燈市口同福夾道嘅空政文工團嘅大院。
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孟錦雲正在宿舍寫大字報。
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自從大革命以嚟啊,佢哋已經冇咗週末同假日喇。
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呢個時候一個英姿颯爽嘅女兵小李,正行緊去孟錦雲間宿舍。
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佢係文工團無產階級革命派嘅頭頭。
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一個風雲一時嘅,其實,亦只有二十六七歲嘅姑娘,係當時革命委員會嘅主任。
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佢紅極一時,出入中南海,出入於林辦。
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吳法憲喺佢面前都敬畏三分。
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根據佢自己講,葉主任請佢哋一家食飯。
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佢媽媽,一個老貧協主任。
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一個人老心紅志更堅嘅老貧協主任,亦喺宴會上當場獻藝,唱咗一支天大地大,不如毛主席的恩情大嘅歌。
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當唱到最後一句,誰要是反對他誰就是我們的敵人嘅時候,做咗個果敢而堅定嘅動作,將手向右前方一指。
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結果有咁啱得咁巧,指正斜對面嘅葉群。
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搞到葉主任當堂黑起塊面,好在佢有求於呢個小將啊,噉先至冇發作啫。
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當然呢個小將亦已經察覺喇,佢好機敏噉講咗幾句笑話,將氣氛扭轉過嚟。
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七十歲嘅老人家,邊度知道自己嘅過失吖?
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喺九一三事件之後,呢段故事有咗新嘅發展同創建。
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有啲人話:李某某仲懶叻添,佢同葉群嘅關係呀認真密切㗎嘛。
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有啲人話:佢媽媽倒是金睛火眼噃,嗰個時候呀,就識穿咗葉群喇。
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如果唔係,佢點解會用手指指住葉群呢?
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有人仲模仿當場演唱嘅樣子,引起啲人呀哈哈大笑啊。
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文工團女頭頭小李行入去小孟嘅宿舍,好嚴肅噉對小孟話:
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孟錦雲,空軍首長搵你有事,你嚟一下團部啦。
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已經戰鬥咗幾日嘅小孟,而家仍然未感覺到疲倦。
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儘管佢個心裏便,多少有啲茫然,佢渴望同人哋傾下,交換下睇法,亦希望聽人哋談一談,堅定信念。
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佢一面行去總團辦公室嘅時候一面諗:
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呢次搵我,一定係空軍首長傳達最新指示,或者係有新嘅戰鬥部署喇。
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小孟跟住嗰個頭頭去到總團辦公室,一入門口覺得有啲奇怪嘞。
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只見空軍保衞部嘅保衞幹事楊某,用兩道兇惡個目光睇實小孟,睇到小孟唔敢望佢。
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楊某出示一張逮捕證,逮捕證三個清晰嘅黑字,小孟睇得好清楚。
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不過小孟簡直唔明白係咩嘢一回事。
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係㗎,呢個世界上,使人唔明白嘅事太多喇。
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好多事情喺啲人仲未明白過嚟嘅時候,就已經發生嘞,而且必須要接受,因為無法抗拒。
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而且當時唔明白嘅事情,經過多少年以後,亦好難講就完全明白。
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因為呢一切事情嘅發生、發展,冇法子用正常嘅邏輯規律去解釋、去判斷嘅。
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嗰個係一個顛倒嘅時代,一切都係顛倒嘅。
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嗰個係一個狂熱嘅年代,一切都係狂熱嘅。
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嗰個係一個莫名其妙個年代,一切都係莫名其妙嘅。
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直到而家,仲令人回味無窮,痛定思痛。
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逮捕證嘅逮捕兩個字,赫然醒目。
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楊某話:你反對偉大領導毛主席,你被捕喇,你快啲簽字!
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聲色俱厲啊。
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小孟嚇到傻晒,佢唔知道應該做乜嘢,應該講咩嘢。
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突然間,啪啪兩隻巴掌,兜口兜面打過嚟。
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嗰個二十幾歲嘅革委會嘅頭頭小李,竟然打得咁迅速。
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打完之後,佢仲嬲到咬牙切齒,嬲到渾身發抖猛咁喘氣。
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佢連珠炮噉話:孟錦雲,你反動透頂,你反對毛主席,你罪該萬死!
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鮮明嘅階級感情使佢非常憤慨,真係有氣沖霄漢之勢啊。
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你快啲簽字!
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小孟覺得佢個頭從來冇咁大,冇咁沉重。
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佢個身體彷彿承擔唔住頭嘅重量。
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佢失去咗平衡,佢幾乎要跌低嘞。
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但係佢出力噉支撐住,企返定。
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佢手震震噉攞起支筆,喺逮捕證上簽咗佢個名。
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佢畀人推上架小汽車,汽車起動個聲音,使佢覺得天旋地轉。
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小汽車將佢帶走嘞。
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佢唔知道路線,唔知道地點,唔知道行咗幾耐。
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佢畀人韞咗入監獄,名副其實嘅鐵窗大牢啊。
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佢作為一個嚴重嘅政治犯,單獨韞喺一個又黑、又潮濕,四面冇窗,只有一個鐵門嘅單人牢房裏便。
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佢坐喺裏便,真係叫天天唔應叫地地唔聞。
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天真無邪嘅小孟,竭盡赤城嘅姑娘,仲唔明白自己革命有乜嘢罪。
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時間一日日過去,真係度日如年啊,佢都唔知點樣捱過去。
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冇人提審冇人過問。
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佢日日夜夜噉望住牢房嘅鐵門,望住鐵門上面嗰個細細嘅窗口。
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喺窗口,有一啲啲光透入嚟,使佢知道日月星辰,仲喺度移動,地球仲喺度運轉。
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佢望住鐵門,聽見鐵門外便一啲啲聲響,佢幾咁渴望有人嚟過問佢個問題啊。
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鐵門外便傳嚟嘅任何一啲聲音,都會使到佢激動,都會撩起佢嘅希望。
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唉,腳步聲又漸漸行遠咗喇,大概係看守喺度巡邏。
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盼望,失望,又盼望又失望,佢嘅眼淚不知不覺噉流,都唔知流咗幾多,亦唔知道流咗幾耐。
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過咗幾個月,開始准佢喺外邊勞動改造喇。
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開田、插禾、掹草、拉犁,佢覺得噉樣比韞喺監房裏便好得多嘞。
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雖然佢仍然係囚犯,但係到底見到天日。
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看守佢嘅戰士不斷噉更換。
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因為唔少看守嘅戰士,見到一個漂亮嘅姑娘做嗰啲力不能及嘅重工,仲經常偷偷地喊。
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佢哋諗喇:呢個姑娘到底犯咗咩嘢罪呢?
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係生活上,政治上,定係經濟上啊?
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聽講係個政治犯,不過佢唔似係反革命唔似係壞人吖。
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啲看守戰士嘅心動搖嘞,眼前嘅姑娘,無論如何同罪犯畫唔出等號。
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儘管佢哋多次想喺佢身上搵出反革命罪犯嘅特徵,但係適得其反。
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啲戰士同情佢,難免對佢個態度和善啲。
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噉樣,一旦畀領導發現就要馬上更換嘞。
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有一次,小孟喺監房裏便佢越想越委屈,越想越激憤,竟然控制唔住就唱起國際歌:
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從來就沒有什麼救世主,也不靠神仙皇帝。
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開始係細細聲唱,越唱越大聲。
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看守喺外便聽見喇,就喺窗口望入去,呢個姑娘啊,幾似英勇就義嘅丹娘啊。
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呢個戰士竟然間忘記咗自己嘅職責,佢一面望一便聽,雙眼竟然含住淚水。
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有邊個知道,佢就係毛主席嘅半個小同鄉啊。
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但係佢唔能夠同人哋講,講亦冇人聽冇人信。
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佢只有開田做嘢嘅時候先至會忘記呢一切,至少,可以使呢啲嘢模糊起嚟。
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為咗擺脱思緒折磨嘅痛苦,佢寧願開工。
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佢怕一個人靜一靜噉坐喺度。
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一年之後,佢畀人送咗去西安大力農場勞改。
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之後,又送咗去甘肅蘭州,喺一個軍工廠裏便做小雷達。
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呢個時候,佢可以寫信喇。
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不過亦只係寫畀文工團嘅革委會頭頭,就係嗰個喺宿舍叫走佢個女頭頭小李。
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呢啲係廠領導根據上面傳達嘅指示嚟定嘅。
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佢每封信,無非係寫自己認罪嘅情況,向組織、向領導匯報自己改造嘅現狀。
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就係噉樣嘅信,亦要畀廠領導審查之後,然後由佢哋代發出去。
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小孟被捕喇知唔知啊?聽講啊,佢個問題非常。
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同情佢個人,喺下便偷偷噉傳,不過絕對唔敢談論詳細嘅情形。
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孟錦雲,現行反革命。
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對立面嘅群眾就係噉樣講嘅。
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文工團嘅人都知道孟錦雲係現行反革命,已經被逮捕,但係冇人敢打聽詳情。
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空政文工團嘅革委會啲頭頭公開噉鄭重宣佈:
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孟錦雲嘅問題係文工團嘅一號問題,唔准問,唔准打聽,因為絕對唔能夠擴散。
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邊個講佢個問題,就係喺毛主席塊面上抹黑,就係作反面宣傳,就係攻擊毛主席。
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孟錦雲嘅問題任何人唔能夠重複,邊個重複,邊個打聽,邊個就係現行反革命。
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當革委會喺全體人員大會上宣佈咗呢一條之後,當場有人帶住高呼口號:打倒現行反革命分子孟錦雲!
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打倒個聲音久久盤旋喺小禮堂個空間,久久盤旋喺人們嘅腦際。
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啲人雖然有種種疑團啊,但係邊個都唔敢打聽。
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誒仲有一件事應該提及嘅係,自從孟錦雲被捕之後,文工團裏便嘅文化大革命嘅對象同方向,似乎嚟咗個一百八十度嘅大轉變。
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本來係紅旗砸爛硬骨頭,奪咗印,掌咗權嘅。
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但係葉主任接見小將後冇幾耐,文工團又嚟個反奪權,呢次係硬骨頭砸爛紅旗嘞。
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硬骨頭個革命小將,緊緊噉掌握咗大權。
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據説,三一四奪權,成立革命委員會,空軍文工團嘅劃線啊從此先至分明起嚟。
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擁護革委會嘅,係無產階級革命派;
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反對革委會嘅,自不然係反動派啦。
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紅旗早就變咗黑旗嘞。
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空軍保衞部捉咗黑頭頭去,有啲進行咗群眾專政,有啲係反戈一擊。
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當時成立革委會嘅時候,同好多單位唔同嘅係,進行咗武裝奪權。
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空軍黨委派咗警衞戰士嚟,嚴密把守。
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從此,喺好長一段時間裏便,空政文工團,燈市口同福大院嘅門口,都有荷槍實彈嘅戰士站崗。
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唔少外單位嚟串聯嘅人,都唔知呢處發生咗咩嘢事。
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只係個文工團啫,又唔係咩嘢軍事機密單位,點解咁神秘森嚴?點解有戰士站崗嘅?
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當然,文工團裏便好多人係知道內情㗎。
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有葉主任對空政文工團嘅特殊關懷,文工團點解夠平平常常嘅呢?
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必定要有新嘅花樣,令人瞠目結舌噉至係㗎嘛。
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當時啲人係敢怒不敢言啊。
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理解嘅要執行,唔理解嘅亦要執行,喺執行中理解,呢個就係當時嘅革命邏輯嘞。
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當時小小嘅文工團,一片紅色恐怖,拉咗去嘅有七八個人,畀群眾專政嘅成三十人。
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但係大家都知道,唯獨孟錦雲嘅問題與眾不同,係一號問題啊。
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孟錦雲,一號問題,令人疑惑不解,亦使人覺得千祈唔好黐埋去,更加唔敢理。
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孟錦雲,唔理係喺文工團,定係喺監獄,喺勞改隊,佢都係個極之神秘嘅人物。
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佢個周圍環繞住一層神秘嘅氣氛。
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佢個問題,基層專政單位都唔能夠過問㗎。
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係由空軍黨委,由吳司令,由文工團嘅革委會嘅頭號人物嚟直接處理嘅。
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有一日,孟錦雲畀看守員叫咗去廠辦公室,領導畀咗佢一封信。
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佢知道封信肯定係文工團嗰個負責佢嘅問題嘅頭頭寫嚟嘅。
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信嘅內容,無非係要佢低頭認罪,老老實實噉改造,對自己嘅問題唔好重複,擴散之類嘅説話。
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但對佢嚟講即使係噉樣嘅信啊,亦可以使佢激動好幾日㗎嘞。
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唔理點講都好吖,仲有人掛住佢同關心住佢。
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佢仲冇畀人完全遺忘,就唔理呢種關心同掛住,係以點樣個方式出現啊。
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幾年嚟與世隔絕,訊息全無。
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除咗極少嘅提審之外,冇人同佢講説話,冇人敢理佢呢個現行反革命。
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彷彿,佢係個危險嘅帶電體,稍為一掂到唧,即刻就會被擊死嘞,會陷入永遠講唔清而唔能夠自拔嘅境地。
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屋企啲人,唔知道佢喺邊處,佢更加唔知道屋企人嘅狀況。
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佢係好似喺茫茫大海上嘅一隻孤帆,見唔到海岸,望唔見島嶼,都唔知會漂流去邊處。
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佢苦悶,佢孤獨,佢時時覺得畀人捻住條頸噉冇法子呼吸,何月何時先係盡頭啊?
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佢曾經想到死,想結束自己年輕嘅生命。
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小孟僅僅係二十二歲,不過佢仿佛喺呢個世上已經走過漫長嘅路程,佢早就疲憊不堪。
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佢嘅心更加係傷痕累累,佢真係想快啲結束呢啲苦難嘅現行反革命嘅生活啊。
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現行反革命,仲有咩嘢比呢頂帽子更沉重?更能夠扼殺青春,扼殺生命嘅呢?
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就再唔能夠爭取做個人,做個普普通通嘅人喇,做個革命群眾中嘅一員,更加係想都唔敢想。
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佢真係羨慕嗰啲普通人啊,佢幾咁想有一陣間咁耐個自由。
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有時會望住窗猛上面嗰幾隻小麻雀望到傻晒。
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佢哋吱吱喳喳噉叫,不停咁叫。
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有時仲你啄我我啄你,喺度玩,喺度逗趣。
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然後,佢哋飛上天喇,佢哋自由自在噉飛走喇。
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小鳥啊,小鳥,你能夠理解我個心嘛?你能夠帶走我個情嘛?