I have been having a lot of thoughts lately about the way i will be raising my kids, it's mostly nice and filled with care and love and treating them the way i wish my parents did, but i'm afraid that it will be the opposite and I end up like my parents hitting my kids, just thinking about it make me feel horrible and if i ever done it i won't be able to forgive myself and probably even hurt myself, even just for verbally abusing or humiliating