[ WP ] A man on the death row realizes his fault and experiences guilt , for the first time on the night before his execution .

It feels like it happened forever ago. 
 
 I would sit and watch how they moved, talked to each other. Blatantly lie to each others faces. Disgusting. I hated them. every last fucking one of them. I was n't surprised when it happened. It really was just a matter of time, that first feeling of wanting to see someone cut up.. what their insides looked like.. How their blood smelt. The warmth from their insides on my face. 
 
 No one understands why I am the way I am. I dont even think I know why. All I know, all I knew, was that someday I would loose control. My blood lust would seep into my mind and I would n't be able to stop myself. That's exactly what happened. 
 
 After 5 murders they Locked me up. I would hear rumors from the outside world about me. They called me names. They called me names!? Those ignorant filthy animals.. Said I was some kind of monster, a psycho! Well maybe they're right, maybe I am a monster. Who knows? Maybe I'm getting what I deserve, Death row. 
 
 Its funny, I never really felt anything in my life. Nothingness was a constant, Numbness engulfed me. But now, suddenly as I sit here waiting for them to take me away. For the first time in my life I'm feeling guilt. Not guilt for the crimes Ive done or guilt for the lives I've stolen, no. I feel guilt for not killing more people, guilt for not cleansing this world of its disgust. 
 
 This is my one true fault. I was not good enough. 
 
 
 ( OK I have not wrote ANYTHING since high school. so umm.. yeah my grammar is awful. So I must apologize.. I just thought this was a cool idea. so I went for it! cheers! )
