[ WP ] Write the letter that you always wanted to , but never did .

Dear Sister, 
 
 Our last conversation left a lot of thing unsaid. I see your points: me not reaching out to you, checking to see how you are. You call me and others selfish because, in your mind, the conversation never turns to you or what's happening in your world. The truth is, it's hard for me to relate to you now. 
 
 I used to see you as strong, that you could overcome anything. Now all I see is you being conquered by the eating disorder. You say you are lonely, and I know that the disease makes you this way. You've called our parents narcissists, not wanting to have anything do to with them ( especially since you do n't want them to know about your disease ) and yet have no problem asking for handouts when you've needed money ( which they've gladly done ). You ca n't accept gifts from then denounce the same people who have helped you. I hate that you've missed family events, putting money ahead of it but preach about the importance of family. I know that this but be a daily battle between your heart and mind. 
 
 I do n't understand what you're going through, I love you, and I want to help you heal. I've seen you do extraordinary things in pursuit of your dreams. You say you do n't want to be this way anymore, but I do n't see you pursuing something that deeply affects you. I guess the reason why I do n't reach out is because maybe, if I pull away, it will hurt less when this disease finally conquers your body as it's done your spirit. If that's selfish of me, then it is what it is and I will have to live with that. Right now, it feels better than watching one of the great loves of my life slowly die. 
 
 I do n't know where to go from here. I just know that I love you. 
 
 Truly yours, 
 Sister
