[ WP ] You 're about to speak at your deceased father 's wake . You have n't heard from him since you left home decades ago , and you do n't recognize anybody in the audience .

Every man has his faults, his mistakes, things that they do and will always regret but keep hidden inside because its how we are. My old man made the mistake of telling me some of those things he did. Things I thought could n't be true and that forever changed my perspective of him from then on. 
 
 Everyone here should n't worry about what I know because I am not gon na make his mistake and let them out, as well as my own secrets to my own kin. You all knew him as the hardworking man who drove his semi cross country and attended church every Sunday. A man who believed in the absolute word of god, in Jesus Christ, in a lot of what the bible says. Now, his eulogy being given by his atheist son. A son who can not confess his sins because of his fathers position and closeness with the Church. His son who shares one of those mistakes with his father and regrets having to go along with it. 
 
 He always said how I took after my grandfather, someone who was too noble for this world, who was too kind and willing to give people a chance. Maybe he was trying to fix that in me, but I always felt that it was n't me that like he would tell me, was not my `` North''. 
 
 Remember him as you do in your own respected ways. Do not remember him like I will. As a man who I both loved yet hated, a man who tore my heart in two and shattered what I thought love was about. Love that I had to fight to find again and rediscover thanks to my wife and the rest of my family. 
 

