[ WP ] The most hateful , spiteful , bitter confession of undying love .

I have determined that you have no heart, no soul. Maybe I shouldn ’ t have waited so long to write this to you, but I shouldn ’ t have had to. You ’ ve seen me, watched the way I act around you. You can ’ t even begin to pretend that you didn ’ t know that I have loved you for years. 
 
 Has that mattered to you? No. Not one bit. No, instead you have taken advantage of my kindness and affection for you, and you have abused my emotions and my desires to the point of no return. I was there for you when you needed help so many times, fixed your car, gave you the money you needed when things got down, even consoled you when your myriad boyfriends turned out to be the douches I always told you they were. 
 
 And yet, here I still am, pining my time away on someone who could care less. God, it ’ s infuriating. I wish that when you first realized that I was in love with you, you had pushed me away then. That would have been easier than this daily torment you submit me to, keeping me close yet always out of arms ’ reach. All of the shit you ’ ve put me through, and here I still am, melodramatically penning my sappy, uncontrollable emotions to a woman I already know I ’ ll never have, because she ’ s the bitch that will never return my love. 
 
 Sorry I called you a bitch. You know I don ’ t mean it... 
 
 I just... I don ’ t know what to do. Tell me what to do. Is it possible that you will ever care about me the way I care about you? Is it possible that I will ever grow the balls to actually give you this letter, call you out for treating me like this? 
 
 Will I ever be able to get over you? 
 
 If you do get this letter... please don ’ t judge me too harshly. I don ’ t know that I could take it if you really did cut me out of your life. I hate being near you while you don ’ t love me like I love you, but if you were to reject me, and we were to lose the closeness we have... I don ’ t know what I ’ d do. 
 
 But you ’ ll probably never get this letter anyway. Sorry for being such a coward. 
 
 
 I ’ ll always love you.
