[ WP ] Write the letter that you always wanted to , but never did .

Dear Dad, 
 
 I miss you more than words can say. Not a day goes by that I do n't feel your absence. I wish that you'd been here when I needed a friend and a guide. I wish that I'd been there for you more, smiled more, hugged you every day, and told you how much you meant to me. I wish that I'd had the forethought and the courage to tell you what a great dad you were when you were still alive or aware enough to understand. I had plenty of opportunities and wasted them all. You were the best father I could have ever hoped for, I did n't deserve you. 
 
 I'm sorry for being the ungrateful little snob I was when I was younger. Your patience and love helped me grow from that person into who I am today, I walk in your immeasurable shadow. I have a girlfriend, a career, and I'm your grandson's favorite uncle. You deserved more time with him than you had. 
 
 I wish you knew how lucky I felt to have a you as my father. I feel ashamed of the times I did n't appreciate you. There are times like today, where shame and moments of intense sadness grip me and I ca n't stop the tears. 
 
 Since your absence every unanswered e-mail, ignored link, or under-appreciated gift haunts me. I wonder if you thought your son was ashamed of you, I was n't. With all your faults, I was proud of you, I wish I had told you so. I'm not half the man you were. 
 
 I promise to keep trying. 
 
 -J
