[ WP ] Write the letter that you always wanted to , but never did .

Dear Amira, 
 It has been a long time since we've talked. Well atleast while I was sober. What has it been 6 years? That time went by so fast and I hardly remember most of it. Most of it was all bullshit anyway, just me making bad desicions over and over and refusing to get help. I'm 25 now, not much to show for it. You'd be 15 now. I see you sometimes, in my dreams, my nightmares, sometimes even when i'm awake out of the corner of my eye. I even hear you, you yell at me most of the time but you do talk once in awhile. I remember back then when our unit would come to your village to talk to your chief of police. I used to give you candy for keeping the other children away from our trucks, you were the toughest iraqi kid I know. The candy was never enough you always wanted something else, every time you asked me for my watch but I could n't give it to you. I used to get in trouble for playing soccer with you and you're brother and not keeping guard. We were on our last mission to your village before i was going to come back to the states, I tried to explain it to you but you did n't understand. Right before we left I gave you my watch, I never saw a happier kid in my life. I was smiling as I watched you show off to the other kids. I was getting back into my truck when I heard yelling and I turned to look, everything was so slow it felt like it was frozen. I watched the iraqi policeman shot you and take the watch from you and put it on. I ran over to you but you were already dead. I wanted to kill that cop but we could n't intervene in iraqi civil matters. I just had to sit there and watch your body lay on the street while we pulled away and went back to base. I have never forgave myself for that, if I had just kept the watch you would still be alive today. I'm sure i'll talk to tonight or tomorrow or whenever I can fall asleep next. Until then, I'm sorry. 
 Joe
