[ WP ] Dscribe depression in a contextless monologue .

It's the usual tired, mainly of living. Sleep is a decent escape from it all. Stay in bed as long as you can. The best it will ever be is neutral. One needs to be at the top of the mountain for that and usually one resides near the bottom. It can sometimes sink down into the negatives like you're a losing contestant on a game of jeopardy. That is when things get heavy. 
 
 The weeks, months, and years can go fast but the days always go so slow. Energy required for even the basics is unbelievably high. Shower, brush teeth, wash face, look presentable, or even a decent meal those are the low level challenges that feel like one needs the stamina of a marathon runner to even stand a chance. School or work is sometimes hard and sometimes not. The body and mind can be trained to show up on time and do a decent job. 
 
 Apologies but one can never look or sound like they did n't wish to have jumped in front of the train or rode against traffic on their way over today. Minimal eye contact please. Sorry it can still be heard all day in one's voice. More money? Less work? Those mean nothing of course. Necessary for living but ca n't be used to purchase an antidote. Before leaving the house one needs to be filled with their personal poison of choice. One can literally count the moments when their poison is going strong and the pain of everyday has temporarily faded away.
