[ WP ] You die and everything goes dark . Then you see a red blinking light and hear a voice : `` Hello again , Inmate 32561 . Your simulated correctional experience is now complete . Welcome back to 2236 . ''

I'm a pretty bad writer, but I figured I'd bite on this anyways. Let me know how I can improve, hopefully you enjoy. 
 
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 `` Hello again, Inmate 32561. Your simulated correctional experience is now complete. Welcome back to 2236.'' This line makes me cry at night, it's the reason there's a noose in my hand. 
 
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 Purgatory is a middle place of sorts in Roman Catholic Doctrine; it's a feared destination between heaven and hell. The mere mention might make an especially pious Catholic jump. I was well versed in theology, so I was very familiar with purgatory's concept, and the more I thought about it, life was purgatory. I never really felt happiness or sadness, I was just there. I was n't exactly repenting for anything, but life's existence was torturous. It felt like everyone around me could feel happy, but I never really knew what that feeling was. I mean, I know it felt good, but I did n't know what the sensation actually was like first hand. A good way to put it is I was apathetic throughout all aspects of my life. I always wanted to know why I could n't be like anyone else. The purgatory of life was agonizing. 
 
 Years later, I found out that life as I knew it was meant to be agonizing. That life where the thought of suicide was constant was a punishment, a cruel punishment that broke everyone to undergo it. 
 
 This process was called `` SimWorld'' throughout the penitentiary as I would find out. SimWorld's purpose was to throw you into a world full of emotions, while you lacked every one except sadness. The world was specially formulated by scientists to administer as much grief as possible. You'd have thoughts of killing yourself, but no way to resonate them; your life was deterministic and suicide was not in the instructions. Thousands of people in the simulation did what you could not, just to taunt you. Your family would die young, while everyone else could live with their families forever. Nothing was fair. 
 
 The purpose of this was to break down the worst criminals of all. Society noticed long ago if you tortured people enough, they were a shell. However, this was never considered ethical. For some reason though, this was the compromise for death -- somehow robbing people of their livelihood is better than robbing them of their life. I do n't know. 
 
 All I know is after hearing that one fucking line, I'm fucking petrified of waking up into that dreadful world again. My solution is not waking up -- this is the end. I have the rope in my hand, I ca n't deal with the thought of that world.
