[ WP ] Time to choose a side ...

^^^^^^^excuse ^^^^^^^my ^^^^^^^style, ^^^^^^^i ^^^^^^^just ^^^^^^^got ^^^^^^^up ^^^^^^^and ^^^^^^^need ^^^^^^^caffeine. 
 
 I'd been waiting for my girlfriend for nearly twenty minutes now, and I was sure that the entire restaurant knew that I had been stood up. Fuck it, I was too hungry to deal with this. I'd probably order food anyway. 
 
 This had been our last chance to fix our relationship. Since the day she cheated on me, everything had changed so much. I wanted to love her, but I did n't, and some part of me knew that I could n't. 
 
 I do n't really know what happened between us. I always took care of her, I always did everything I could for her. Her casual abuse made me constantly feel like I just was n't doing as much as I should. 
 
 Fuck her. She was probably laughing at the idea of me sitting alone in some shitty diner right now, completely ignoring how much I had cared about her, how much I had done for her. Maybe she was with that handsome douchebag she'd fucked before. It was his problem now. 
 
 A strange kind of anger was building up inside me, one I had never felt before. I did n't want to flip tables over or hit things or shout, and I did n't care about the bitch at all anymore. I was angry at myself, not at her. She was a shitty person, but how could I change that? All I can change is myself, and I should have stopped accepting these torrents of abuse a long time ago. 
 
 I was going to move on, because I was just simply so tired of this shit. There was n't an instant burden lifted off my mind, and I did n't automatically stop feeling like shit, but the more I thought about it, the more I understood my freedom. I could do whatever I wanted. Maybe I'd live in the city with no friends or family- I'd never liked people anyway. Maybe I'd move to Hawaii, spend my days in a tropical paradise. There was nothing tying me here anymore. 
 
 I could do whatever I wanted, and this was the first day of the rest of my life. I opened the menu. It was time to choose a side....
