[ WP ] Write the letter that you always wanted to , but never did .

Dear Dad, 
 
 I've been avoiding this for a few months, now. I'm sorry. It's a thing that needs to be said, but I do n't know how to say it. I do n't know how to tell you... Well, what needs to be said. 
 
 So, let's start with a history lesson. Remember in Freshman year, when Amy gave me her hoodie? How I cherished it above everything else? Sure, it was a Megatokyo hoodie, and I love Megatokyo, but there was something else there. 
 
 It was a *girl's* hoodie. And I was n't outfitted with the right gender stats to equip that item. 
 
 But I wore it anyways. I wore it happily. I loved it. 
 
 Until you let Stepmom throw it away. `` Not a hoodie you should be wearing. Do n't wear girls clothes.'' 
 
 And that was that. 
 
 So I made different mistakes. I focused on the masculinity I was supposed to feel. I still read Twilight, in secret, but I also got big into Halo. Big into military stuff. Tried not to be obvious with my love of fashion. With my love of interior design. 
 
 It's not what you wanted. 
 
 But, time and again, you've put her over everyone. You let her tear our family apart, and made us all suffer in the hopes that you would n't feel lonely ever again. 
 
 But I wo n't suffer any more. 
 
 I'm trans, Dad. I'm trans, and if all goes well, I should start hormones very soon. I know you always wanted a daughter. I know that the hopes were, before I was born, that I'd be a girl. 
 
 Well I am. 
 
 Or at least, I will be. 
 
 I love you, Dad. 24 years of my life I've loved you, but I know who you are. I know you wo n't approve. So I'm disappearing. The old phone, gone. My old email, unanswered. The old Facebook, erased. 
 
 Maybe someday you'll love me for me. 
 
 I always loved you for you. 
 
 Yours, 
 
 Audrey.
