[ EU ] Faking his own death was only the first step of Ben Parker 's plan .

Faking your death is harder than you think. The crush of humanity seems so chaotic, such a mass that makes the individual seem so very inconsequential. But that disorderly bustle hides connections and connections and connections. Perhaps when you have no one it's easier. I was freer when I did n't have a cent. Those lonely, lovely, long autumn college days from so long ago are far removed from this reality. Business gives a facade of meaning, but sometimes a smiling face precludes a happy heart. May does not suspect a thing. Has she not noticed that our fire has died? No heart remains burning forever. I do n't care for her anymore. Somehow it does n't really bother me. As for Peter... I never liked my brother anyway. Perhaps it was some sort of guilt that made me take him in. Who else would have? I tried to be a good father figure. And maybe I was. Maybe I was n't. 
 
 You see, the problem with killing yourself is the people you leave behind. Maybe I do n't care anymore, but I do n't want to make any trouble. Just slip away, quietly. You die, people cry, then they move on. You kill yourself, and everybody loses their mind. Such a hue and cry goes up! My god. I do n't want to go out like that. Who in their right mind would? The problems you create for the ones you leave behind; the shame, the questions. No, I could n't die like that. 
 
 Faking your death is harder than you think. Killing yourself is harder. Setting up the mugging, now that was tiresome. The effort! To make yourself really disappear nowadays is so, so, hard. But I did it. May thinks me dead. Peter is none the wiser. No one else is left behind anyway. So there. It is done. They will grieve, and then they will forget. No mess. No commotion. Simple. 
 
 When I am done, a cleaner will collect my body. It will sink to the bottom of a river whose name I do not know. Out. Finally. Peacefully. Damn but I am tired. 
 
 
 
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 fyi I have never played Destiny and I know jack shit about it 

