[ WP ] Write the letter that you always wanted to , but never did .

Dear Baybuh, 
 
 I never knew how quickly I could go from loving someone to instantly hating them. I had so much love for you, and you did n't care in the slightest. I see now I was more of a prisoner than a girlfriend for those four years, but I still loved you. 
 
 I still loved you after you raped me. You even had me convinced that I was lucky that you loved me so much because after that, no man would want me. I still loved you after you bashed my head into a cupboard, convinced it was my fault because I should n't push your buttons like that. 
 
 Even after we had broken up the first time, because you left me for the night to spend the night with Allison, I still loved you. You told me you were to hungover to deal with me, and I still loved you. Even after you were using me for sex, promising me we'd get back together, I still loved you. 
 
 I even still loved you when I slept with Josh while we were dating. The entire time I was thinking about it should be us. He was so sweet and tender, and did n't force me into anything. I cheated on you, and this is still my biggest regret in my entire life. I still have days where I feel like the scum of the earth for doing to you what you did to me. This does n't make it right, cheating on someone is one of the worst things to do, and I will forever regret that. 
 
 Then I met adam. He is so sweet, and so patient with me. I forgot what love should be after you. He's the most amazing man I've ever met, and even knows I cheated and still accepts me. He makes me feel loved and wanted, something I realize now you never gave me. Do you know how amazing it is to know that no matter want you say or do, the one you love the most will always be right by your side? Not dragging you, or you leaving them behind, but by your side. 
 
 So I want to thank you. Thank you for showing what love is n't. Thank you for scarring me the way you did. Now I have this amazing love in my life and I can appreciate him more and more each day. Thank you. 
 
 And also Fuck you nathan. 
 
 Sincerely Kristin.
