[ WP ] Show a Darker Side of a Well-Known Fictional Hero or Mentor Figure

It keeps me awake at night, the fear of letting go, the fear of losing control again and becoming the monster. 
 I try to stay calm and relaxed, take a deep breath, be rational, concentrated. I´ll be strong today, we can do this, i can do this, one step at a time right? 
 That´s what they told me, face everyday just like everyone else, be cool, everyone has problems, solve them like a normal person. 
 But how could i be normal? With everything that´s happened, with all the things that i´ve seen and done? 
 No i´m not normal, I haven´t been normal in a very long time. 
 These days my sight is clouded, the shadows are everywhere, they constantly follow me. I´ve already lost everything and everyone that i ever cared for. Betty, oh how i miss her, but i don´t blame her anymore, i´m a danger to everyone around me, the constant yelling, the violence, the rage,.. 
 I´m not a hero, i´m an alcoholic and i deserve to be alone.
