[ WP ] `` I 'm going to live forever or die trying . ''

`` I'm going to live forever or die trying'', I said. 
 
 The rest of the band was silent, staring. Jake dropped one of his drumsticks, and it made a series of *clang* sounds as it bounced through his drum kit. His gaze did n't leave me. 
 
 `` Dude,'' whispered Mark. `` That's glorious. That's exactly the title we've been looking for.'' 
 
 Jake finally picked up his drumstick and nodded in agreement. `` We've been trying to come up with a name for this god-forsaken album for two months, and you drop this bomb *now*? Why the hell did n't you think of it earlier?'' 
 
 `` Fuck you, Jake'', I said, but with a smile on my lips. We often gave each other a hard time but I loved these guys. Jake smiled back knowingly. 
 
 `` It fits our theme perfectly. How did you come up with it?'' asked Mark. He was the guitarist and my closest friend since we started this band together. 
 
 `` Let's just say it comes from... personal experience'', I replied. Mark frowned slightly. 
 
 Ulf, our bass player, did n't say anything but he went to the fridge and came back with two beers. Popped them both open and gave me one. He was always strange like that, preferring to use actions rather than words. Giving you a beer was his way of showing that you'd won his respect. It was the first time he did that since the incident between me and his girl, two years ago. My heart ached and felt warm all at once. 
 
 `` It's a great title and all but how about we finish up this song so we can head back home?'' said Mark. 
 
 `` Yeah, let's do it'', I said, picking up my guitar. `` We can all spend some private time admiring my genius later tonight.'' The guys laughed. They did n't know what I really was thinking of when I made up the name. They did n't know about the little baggie of heroin in my pocket, about the shivers running up my arm as I fingered it. *Later tonight, I will soar eternally. *
