[ WP ] A man leaves his nightly shower with the thoughts and ideas on how to change his life , except this time his conviction is maintained after he opens the shower door .

There must have been something in the cold air that hit me as I stepped out of the shower. Without even thinking, I reached for the beer I had left waiting on the counter. It had been 15 minutes since my last drink- I was becoming much too lucid. I brought the bottle to my lips, and then I glanced into the mirror. All of a sudden it hit me. 
 
 All of the shrinks, the meds, the depression and anguish of the past few years flew through my head as I stared at myself. In a beautifully jarring moment of clarity, it finally all made sense. All of this was n't my parents' fault. It was n't my teachers, my exes, my past, society, or any other bullshit scapegoat I had ever thought of. It was me. 
 
 I was n't some lost soul as I liked to think. I was n't doomed to a life of mediocrity by some vengeful god or unfortunate twist of fate. I knew damn well what I needed to do. I just needed to do it. 
 
 I put down the beer. I poured myself a glass of water. The next morning, I signed up for a gym membership and applied to the local college to finish my degree. I finally realized I was sick of leading the life I thought I was supposed to lead. It's my goddamn life, and I'm going to make it exactly what I want. Success is success, and failure is a learning experience. 
 
 My only regret is that I did n't realize all of this sooner. 

