[ CW ] create a character I feel strongly for ( love/hate/sympathize ) using a monologue from their perspective .

( EDIT: realized I had a few words out of place and a typo ). 
 
 You know why I do what I do? I do it because they said not to. My parents, my friends, my bosses, the world! They all say to me `` No!''. Why should I follow the rules of another man? I did n't choose to be born in a land with rules as restrictions. From the day we are born we are told `` Yes'' to what's acceptable, and `` No'' to what society deems unsightly. Rules are n't enough though, you need to be punished for not listening to the words of society. Locked away in some place full of other people like you, rule breakers, people who appreciate humanity for what it is: chaos. That's the true state of humanity the true state of every person you see, beneath that facade of rule following and obedience is a primal chaotic force wanting to break through. So that's what I do, allow the chaos to break through. That's why I do what I do, that's why I raped that child and killed that man, chaos demanded it. In the wild she would've been mine and not a person would bat an eye, because if everybody is in chaos they understand the order within chaos. Given the chance I would do what I did a thousand times over, watching her cry and whimper knowing she stood no chance if she fought was delicious, I like to think I gave her a taste of the chaos inside of her, maybe she will break free like I did. Do n't look at me like that, you feel chaos inside yourself too, you just block it out. Given the right circumstances your chaos would've made you do the same thing, we are all animals ai n't we? You would've enjoyed her sweet innocence draining from her as much as I did, you just do n't have enough sense to admit it.
