[ WP ] Write the letter that you always wanted to , but never did .

wow, i want to do this so i will, but i have a few letters i need to address. just for sanity and subtle sake of ones demons. 
 
 Dear Jennifer. my beautiful sister. 
 i'm sorry for staying at yours the month after your wedding and having no money and regrettably overstaying my welcome and being a pain in the ass. 
 i'm sorry i was broke as fuck and lied to try and make up for the past. i miss you so much. 
 
 you were the surrogate mother i never really had, i have our mother of course, and i still live with her and steve, but you, when i was a child towards 7, you was everything to me. i hated you when you left for scotland, i did n't know dad kicked you out when you were only 16. 
 
 so many years have passed, still your daughter is 9 now, and i'm super fucking jealous of her, even though i'm happy for you as you got told by the doctor originally you could n't have kids and you lost a tube via ectopic pregnacy and lost a baby trying to conceive, but i just miss you and me. 
 
 to dad, im sorry about the lie that changed everything, any age was n't the best but 11 was n't either. i was mad at you destroying mams heart by cheating and being a disobeying abusive, manipulate and horrible husband. i fucking hated seeing you beat her up and when you two broke up i felt relief but mentally snapped. i'm surprised i did n't go to jail, but i was a minor and things were forgiven. 
 
 but i'm sure glad we moved away and i found a stepdad that showed me a commited relationship of a male role model in my life who i could trust, and to learn what a father and daughter relationship should be, as for you, you are a old man whom i've tried to forgive but at the end of the day, i still have sick memories of you tickling my feet as a child, of you terrorising me and making me cry and laugh at me, for ridiculing me and my mother, and she spent 8 years in that abusive hell until she herself snapped after you hit her. 
 
 to harry, im sorry i never really knew how to love you properly, you were my childhood pet dog and you died on 31st dec 2009 via put to sleep, im sorry we didnt know sooner about the cancer tumour, and im sorry mum kept you alive until your back leg went, oblivious to the cancer and thought it was old age until the vet... 
 
 i love you and hope you rest in peace, same to you bobby cat, i miss you both. 
 
 to lucky my dear patterdale i love you lots too: ) 
 
 to jake, fuck you for stealing my first edition yugioh cards. 
 
 to clark, fuck you for breaking my heart at 15. 
 
 to sam, thanks for cheering me up when i had acne and noone else would talk to me. 
 
 to Nick, thank you for being my rock the past two years, also i feel im turning into my dad sometimes, his manipulate mannerisms and agression seem to make it hard. at least im on serotonin pills now.
