[ FF ] Can you tell your life story in just 200 words ?

Attempted suicide from birth, my body refused. 
 From so young, such a weight placed on my shoulders. 
 From age 7 my mother a mother no longer; merely a providing stranger. 
 Raising a little sister when I could barely raise myself. 
 The blade bit, and I fell in love. 
 Hiding the cuts, hiding the scars. 
 Hiding the weight they all put on me. 
 A friend, a close friend, a best friend. 
 She took my lover, and was something more, but something less. 
 Strong, she called me. 
 Stronger than she could imagine. 
 She saw the weight, and comforted me. 
 The weight shifted, but remained. 
 Then, she attempted suicide. 
 I saved her, because she asked me to. 
 It shaped me, but I refused to crumble. 
 I was not enough, I could never be enough. 
 So I merely bore my weight. 
 The blade bit, and I was in love again. 
 I could survive without her. 
 Then time, and distance. 
 I grew bored, I grew... Weak. 
 Attempted suicide again, and again, my body refused. 
 Now I walk on hesitant legs and scared arms. 
 I stand, against my fearful mind, and question: 
 Am I still as strong as she once said I was? 

