[ WP ] Write the letter that you always wanted to , but never did .

Dear Katie, 
 
 It's been 2 months and 10 days since we started dating, 2 weeks and 5 days since we broke up, and two days since you gave me your letter to me. 
 
 I was hurt by what you said to me and those wounds are still there. Your words cut into the insecurities that I hid from everyone, and yet somehow without me telling you, you just knew them and hit me there. I know we were n't working out. I just did n't expect you to be the one I was going to be so hurt by. I thought we could just end amicably but you had other plans. 
 
 I never understood why two people who used to love each other could end up hurting and hating the other so much. I saw it in people's divorces and in the media but it just had no emotional grounding for me. Something talked about but never experienced. Yet, now I know and I wish I never did. I do n't hate you but I ca n't be around you ever again. 
 
 I forgave you after reading your letter, the fact that you regretted saying what you said, that you're sleepless, and that you think I deserve better than you. Part of me believes it and part of me ca n't, at least that last part. 
 
 I forgave you because it was the right thing to do. I did it because even if you hurt me in a way no other human alive has, I still ca n't help but want to make sure you are okay, and I know that the only way you'll forgive yourself is I forgive you. I'm a bit fucked up now from this, I just do n't feel like I want to get close to someone like this because the low after climbing to great heights with you is even worse than having never experienced it at all. 
 
 I do n't know what the future will bring. For now though I'm going to move on. If anything the cold logical objective side of me you hated ( because it said some boneheaded but correct things to you ) is carrying me through. I ca n't change who I am for you, but as you said, `` You're going to find someone worth being with who treats you the way you deserve and appreciates all the little things about you that I was too self involved to see.'' 
 
 In a way you've set me free and that's all I needed to hear from you. You'll always have a special place in my life and for that I'm grateful. 
 
 Yours, 
 
 Michael
