[ WP ] Write the most angry , vitriolic thing you have ever written . Make it a love letter .

i hate you. 
 
 i hate your sleepy brown eyes and the soulful look you get when you actually listening, like i could throw a coin in your well and it would fall forever before you stopped listening. i hate that. 
 
 i hate your lips. i hate the way they pout when you watch tv and i hate the way they part to reveal perfectly lined pearl teeth. i hate your smile, the way it fills a room as if every light has been shut off and you radiate like a spotlight. 
 
 i hate the way you laugh. there are other things to hear. i hate how you choke a room with your giggle and steal sound with a smirk. 
 
 i hate the way you dress. i hate how i ca n't remember what i said to you that night but i know you wore a turquoise shirt. 
 
 i hate the way you smell. it's like a pleasant memory i have never had. 
 
 i hate that you're here. i hate the way that i lived every day like it was my own until you came back. i hate that you took my city from me a second time and i did n't even blink, i grinned like an idiot, i split my face wide open from cheek to cheek, thanked everything i thought might be responsible and more, looked forward to every night i could see you, made every excuse, invented every opportunity, and spent every waking moment spending my time trying to divine ways to spend time with you. 
 
 i hate the way you say friend. i hate the way you mean it. i hate the words cute, nice, reliable. i wish you would say asshole or dick or creep or something real. i hate that you do n't hate. 
 
 you're like scylla. you're like charybdis. you're the mermaid that calls each to each but will not call to me. you are neither, your not even a tease, you're upfront with all your boundaries and expectations and i hate that. 
 
 i hate the girls i could have instead. i hate that i do n't care about them. 
 
 i hate you with every fiber of my being. i hate you with every brown waving hair on your head. i hate you with every coffee we share and every sunrise we do n't. i hate that i would spend every last breath hating you before i'd move on. i hate that you do n't blame me for that. i hate that you wo n't spend time with me because of it. i hate that after everything has been exhausted, everything rejected, i still have the energy to hate you. i hate that forgetting is better. i would never forget. and i hate you for that. 
 
 i hate that one night when you let down your guard and we shared a kiss. i hate that for one moment, when there was nothing else better, that you would choose me instead of nothing. i hate that you make mistakes and that i am your biggest one. i hate the way you apologize for the best night of my life. 
 
 i hate the way you redefine me. i hate that to everyone else i am enigmatic, pragmatic, brutally honest, utilitarian. i hate the way you prove i ca n't follow my own advice. i hate the way i can be my own worst enemy. 
 
 i hate the way you make me feel real. 
 
 i hate you. with all of my heart.
