[ WP ] Write the letter that you always wanted to , but never did .

Mom 
 
 I'm sorry about how I am. I know you always say it does n't bother you, that you really just want me to be happy. I have to say I really do n't know. I should, I really really should. But when I said my ideal world just be able to sleep forever, and you said that it sounded too much like being dead for you to be happy, I looked you in the eye and lied. I want you and ( sister ) to know you guys are the only reason I'm still here. But I ca n't, because then I put that pressure on you, the same way sadness would be left if I gave up. I do n't want you to worry about me, to make the job you've been doing for so long seem like a failure, because I'm giving an effort to find... something. I hope I find it, for you guys more than me.
