[ WP ] You see horrifying vision of the future , they all come true but in not so horrifying ways .

It is hard being religious in a nation that does not really care about religion at all. It is worse if your own religion is different from the one of your parents. My parents always had been god-fearing protestants, but I could n't believe in their God after so many churchmates, devout, god-fearing people have been sent to prison. But I could not give up God in its entirety. I felt a presence of the divine in nature, in the kindness of others, in people sharing what little they had. I was 12 when the visions started. The visions of the wall, which we always learned existed for our benefit being toppled and the ideological enemy roaming in our streets. The mutiny of the armed forces against protests. The toppled statues. Our nation toppled and our brothers in arms toppled with them. I knew that I could not tell about these visions or people would think that I was insane - or worse: wished that to happen. The only way I saw talking to anyone was if I pretended these were not visions I had about what was going to happen but childish fears. When Mama tucked me in one night, I told her: `` Mama, I sometimes have nightmares of our nation being attacked. It's horrible.'' 
 
 Mama gave me a kiss on the forehead: `` My darling, do n't fear, the DDR has survived 39 years. It will survive much longer!'' 
 
 ( for everyone confused: this child has seen the *Wende*, ie: the end of East-Germany )
