[ WP ] You are a schizophrenic maddeningly in love with the man/woman of your dreams . But you 're becoming increasingly unsure if she 's real , or just another hallucination .

`` Puppy,'' she calls me. I radiate heat. Sweating. My eyes feel like machine guns behind my nose and mouth. These damn sheets wont get the fuck off me. `` Puppy,... Shhhh.'' My stomach is so sour. Someone open a window. I shouldnt have waited this long. I can feel her hand sweep down my ears to the nape of my neck. `` Itll be okay puppy. Just push through this. Nothing good comes without something bad.'' I wretch. My muscles tense. How many days has it been? Something about silk between my fist makes me feel better. `` Ill do better. Im ready. ``.....She looks at me and wavers a bit. `` You did fine puppy. Youll be better. Youll find me. Sleep now puppy.'' I take a shuddering breath and finally close my eyes without nightmares and heaving. 
 
 79 hours....Heroin. Gain love lose love.
