[ CW ] create a character I feel strongly for ( love/hate/sympathize ) using a monologue from their perspective .

Today was supposed to be the day I went out. That I left behind the solid safety of my yellow couch and finally did all the things society expects I be doing. It's surprisingly easy to say how I've wasted an entire day without setting foot outside and people not really blink, even agree with me, laughing. I wonder if people actually do it as much as they joke about it. For me, it's not Reddit, it's not Netflix, it's not a gripping thriller that keeps me here, nestled in blankets. They are just the distractions from how little care I'm taking of myself. They are the excuse I tell myself to rationalize my behavior. Look at me, so self-aware. My shrink would be proud. I'm just tired. Tired of everything. Of the show, of the effort. At least here, there's no expectations. No drama outside of the things emanating from my Mac.
