[ WP ] Write the letter that you always wanted to , but never did .

Dear The Man I Lost My Virginity To, 
 
 I talked about you today. The first time in a long time, but I did it. It's been so damn long. It took me a while to talk about our history, how things went, how we knew each other. How things ended. But I did it. 
 
 You were older than me, by a good few years, and we did n't know each other long ( a couple of weeks at the most, right? ) but your brother really wanted to host that small party. Everyone was there, and the drinks were flowing. I admitted I was a virgin during a drinking game. I was so embarrassed ( looking back, having your virginity at 18 was n't something to be ashamed of ) but you had that confident smile on your face. 
 
 I still remember the feeling of you inside of me. I remember the words you said to me as the sun rose whilst your girlfriend was upstairs asleep. I remember the pain. I remember the tears. I remember the bloodied bath I took hours later. I remember taking the morning after pill. I remember the doctor asking if I consented. I remember telling him `` I do n't know.'' 
 
 My therapist wants me to press charges. But how could I? You were my first. 
 
 From,
