[ WP ] Write the letter that you always wanted to , but never did .

To my ex, 
 I'm sorry I'm being `` bitter'' about this but that video you had the tenacity to post on YouTube and show three thousand people is stinging in the back of my mind. 
 You were pretty much the reason I realized my sexuality and thus that night I sat there and decided I did n't care if there were thousands of miles between us is one that now fills me with regret. I waited, I never pressured you and I respected you. However when you went on to take me for granted and such that is when I decided not to keep going. I held up for months, trying to ignore the fact that you used me to get people jealous. 
 We broke up, I sat there for two days fighting with myself and blaming myself. I won you back, but the victory was shortlived when one of your friends had to message me and say you had cheated thrice, both on and offline. That's what I was waiting for, the reason to leave. I won you back in the hopes it would make you notice. We had the good times, the ones where we would stay up late into the night on Skype just talking about nothing. And now when I look at those photos, and when the date of your birthday and such passes there is still hurt there. 
 And then of course, as I began to feel better and hate you less ( however not once did I wish anything bad upon you ) you decided to make that video. Act like I was the scum, say I was bitter and such. Maybe I was, maybe I was bitter but maybe that was because I trusted you with something that was hardly there. But that video, the link to it was sent to me at 2am one day. I got through two minutes before I broke down entirely sat down just staring at my screen. When someone that important says such terrible things you snap. And I relapsed. I was hunted by people you gave my skype to, I was told I was a whore and I was told to kill myself. I sat there crying. I had nobody to call, I was alone. But I went and messaged a few of those friends of mine, and they sat there for hours trying to tell me I was better than that. That I was better than you. And for once I had a little belief in myself. 
 When I passed out, they still sent messages. Saying that I was amazing because I help these people. I tell them that daily because some are suicidal and some have people like you on their backs. That morning is also when they went after you. I never told them to, I was only aware when I went to flag it. They spread that, they helped me. They left those comments saying she was out of line and when you said I was too much of a coward, I went and I told you I was no coward and I was strong enough not to hide behind a computer screen and strong enough not to tell people to stalk them. 
 I watched the full thing today. After I cut it off I wished nothing bad upon you, and even now I do n't because I am better and stronger. And I have people who care surrounding me and telling me I am amazing. Because I guess I am. 
 Sincerely 
 Someone who's moved on
