[ IP ] I was but a speck in enormity of nature .

Herein lies the beauty of the human mind and its strength. The strength to keep going when all is lost, the strength to find in yourself a fire to keep burning amongst the snow. Here, in the desolate landscape, here you must choose to find heaven and not hell. You must choose to keep going and never give up. You must choose, one step after another, to keep walking long after your feet and your fingers and your face has fallen numb. 
 
 Sometimes nature can surprise us with her vastness. She shows us how we've failed to tame her, even after all these years in our cities - in our houses with our heaters and our kingdoms with their floodgates. Here we forget that nature's wildness still runs free, blowing over the deserts and stripping bark from pines, carving away at cliffsides with her mighty waves. We forget because we do not see her, and we underestimate her because we think we are the mighty, the proud, the brave and the few. The most intelligent species on earth thinks it can outwit the earth itself. 
 
 I am no fool. I have spent my nights among the stars, climbed the trees and reached the sky. I have slept on cold mountaintops and near crackling, roaring fires. I have watched the sunsets and the seen rainbows. I have witnessed the terror and destruction. I have within me the strength to keep going, but I also have the wisdom to know when I have lost. 
 
 I had hoped long ago that if I were to die, it would be within her hands. That I would not live out my last days away from her, trapped in some hospital in some great city, where she was tamed and caged inside the parks. Where those who came to visit her paid no attention to her vastness but instead selfishly used her for their gain. 
 
 God giveth and he taketh away. And perhaps now it is that time. But if I am to die now, and this is to be my final entry, then I will die knowing that I died in the hands of my love. Yes, I was but a speck in the enormity of nature, but she patiently showed more of herself to me with every passing day, and there is no better way to show my gratitude than to go willingly when she comes for me.
