[ WP ] Intimacy is the worldwide currency .

I've always wanted to be rich. 
 
 It is n't about the power, or the money, or the sex, or anything. I ca n't give orders. I do n't want anything I ca n't already get. I do n't want hollow one-night stands paid off with half-hearted kisses. I do n't even want to pay my wealth forward, I just want to hoard, to know I have it. 
 
 I just want to desire, to be desired. I do n't want to be alone when I'm hurt. I want to trust someone, and be trusted. But each time I latch onto someone, hope that maybe I'll work things out this time, all they see is the money I pour out at them, and they think I'm trying to buy them. Maybe I am. I do n't mean to. I ca n't *stop* wanting it, wanting *them*. 
 
 There's a difference, I know. Passion, I think, beyond intimate trust or action. But the line is so thin, and I do n't know how to make anyone understand. Most do n't even notice I'm hiding all these thoughts from them. If they did, I wonder how I'd pay rent, or buy food. And still there's no one to comfort me from those dark thoughts. 
 
 God, how I wish I was rich.
