[ WP ] It 's the zombie apocalypse . You have turned , but you 're still in there . Unable to control your own body .

Have you ever experienced sleep paralysis? Where you're awake, in bed, but you ca n't move? Ca n't even change the pace of your breathing, let alone scream? Imagine that, but you're up, moving, and hungry. 
 
 Unbelievably hungry. 
 
 I ca n't decide if the pain is from my stomach rotting from the inside out or if I'm legitimately starving, or both. No matter how much the body eats, the pain still gnaws at me like the body gnaws on every bone. I do n't think it can tell the difference either; I think that's why it eats. It's eaten a lot of people. 
 
 I'm happy it did n't eat my sister. She got away while my body was still getting up. That moment was the most surreal. In the movies it seems like you turn off and turn back on as a zombie, but the reality for me was that I never turned off. The body just stopped listening to me. 
 
 I remember hearing about terminally ill people being `` trapped in their own bodies''. But I do n't think it felt like this. 
 
 I lost count of the days a long time ago. The experience is n't horrible any more, not even really bad. Now it's just the status quo. It's borderline fascinating watching my body make decisions on its own, seeing how the `` rules'' of this plague line up with our expectations. 
 
 I'm going places I never would have thought to visit in life. I'm watching nature slowly reclaim a world where humans are n't the dominant species any more. I'm wondering when the body will rot just enough to release my mind. And I wonder about you. 
 
 All of you writhing, moaning bodies that ache and hunger. Are there people trapped in all of you too?
