[ WP ] Intimacy is the worldwide currency .

My father told me when I was a teenager that I need to start thinking about my future. My mother was a natural, with a touch she would have anything she wanted. It helped tremendously that she was beautiful. We had a good life. 
 
 Today, I live day to day. I'm not one that can easily give affection to others. I prefer a caress to the cheek, but obviously that does n't give me much. 
 
 What makes it easy is that my girlfriend is the more intimate one. She tells me all the time that I have a beautiful smile, that if I cut my bangs a certain way, a kiss on the cheek will significantly improve our living situation. 
 
 Sometimes I think she does n't know me. She likes to take me with her a lot of the time because when we hold hands while she kisses the clerk, we can get double the rations. Hey, if thats all it takes, sounds good to me. 
 
 Sometimes I like to think we are good together, but most of the time I think she just resents being with me. I feel like I'm never good enough for her. She always wants me to change something about myself. `` Wear lipstick, this shade really compliments your cheekbones'' `` This top really shows off your breasts.'' 
 
 Whatever. She wants a better life that I simply can not provide. 
 
 `` Sweety, do what feels right for you'' Those were my dad's last words. None of this feels right for me. 

