[ WP ] Write the letter that you always wanted to , but never did .

Dear Jared, 
 
 I remember when I first met you. My mom was picking me up from school and you were on the passenger side. I was just a little girl. I also remember when I looked up to see you at the foot of my bed, watching me masturbate and threatening to tell my mom what I was doing. 
 
 I want to thank you. If it were n't for you, I wouldnt be where I am today. Remember what you once told me? You told me this would make me grow. And by this, I mean you sliding your hand up my knee every now and again and shoving my sister's face into the cat's litter box. Yeah, I sure did grow into a nice, happy woman. 
 
 Remember the time I watched you drag my mom by the hair from your bedroom to the living room, only to pee on her and beat the shit out of her? Thankfully you only gave her a bald spot and a black eye this time, instead of putting her in a wheelchair like you did the next time. Remember the time you threw the house keys into the thorn bush and making me crawl into it to retrieve them? I remember that. 
 
 Silence was the only thing that made me feel safe from you. I never spoke, which is why I think you hit me less than the others. There was only one time, though, when you requested silence from me. You came into my bedroom that one night and brought your pointer finger to your lips. It was all over after that. 
 
 I used to hate blaming people for things, especially for my emotions. I sincerely blame you for everything, though. I can not have a healthy sex life now without requesting to be abused; pain is what I'm used to now. I blame you for the state you put my mother in. She will never have a sane relationship again. I blame you for my sisters trauma. I blame you for my nightmares. I fucking watched you tear my mom apart, you sick fuck. 
 
 But most of all, I blame you for who I am today. I have developed into a smart, successful, young woman. I am well educated and finally understand who I am. I am no longer suicidal and am no longer upset. I will always think about what would have happened if my mom never met you, but then I do n't think I would appreciate sanity and security as much. Ever since you left, I have never felt more safe. 
 
 But in all seriousness, fuck you. 
 
 itriedeverything
