[ FF ] A fruitless conversation

You'd changed a lot since we last crossed paths. I wish I could say I remember it like it were yesterday. But it would be in vain. Those memories have faded and blurred. A photograph with a clouded lens. I remembered a few details. You had that short blue skirt you liked to wear when you felt ostentatious. I never told you that I did n't like it that much. 
 
 *'' Joey, are you okay? `` * 
 
 Okay. Okay, Okay is the word she chose. I do n't know what I expected, I do n't even know what I wanted to hear from you. Your voice has lost something. I hope you know that as well as me. I would n't want a thought like that to go to waste. In this world of technology thoughts should n't be lost to time. But your voice. I hear it, that spark, the spark that caused me to fall for you. 
 
 *'' Joey? Joey!? `` * 
 
 Please do n't panic, this is hard enough on it's own. You've only made it harder on yourself now. You never could stay level headed. Remember the time under the old tree by our school? I do, We were so bright-eyed and foolish. We saw that boy fall off his bike, smash his head right on the tarmac he did. All we had to do was call for a grown-up and keep him company. But you were panicking. Worrying if he were seriously hurt or dead. You always cared too much. You stupid fool. 
 
 *'' Oh my god, JOEY! `` * 
 *'' Ms.Armstrong, please, you'll panic him'' * 
 
 Ha! That's rich. She'll panic me! Something makes me truly doubt that theory Mr.SmartArse. Wait, Armstrong? Not Winter? So you married since we last met. Sophie Armstrong. Sounds nice, has a good ring to it. Some people get lumped with awkward names when they marry. But that's probably all subjective. Some people would say the same about Joey Turner. Shame I probably wo n't meet this Mr.Armstrong. He must be something... 
 
 *'' What happened to him? `` * 
 *'' His Father found him in his apartment like this. `` * 
 
 Please do n't bring Dad into this. I wanted this to be easy and he just complicated things. He always does that. 
 
 *'' I'll leave you with him'' * 
 
 Do n't leave me with her. This is too much for her. Let me be in peace. 
 
 *'' Joey, I do n't know what to say...'' * 
 
 Tell me you're sorry. Do it, give me that wo n't you? All these years you've thought I was n't good enough for you. Why did n't you ever realize that did n't matter? Well here I am, I've shown my true colors now. I'm here in my weakest, most vulnerable position ever. I do n't regret it at all. All I regret now is the chain of events that made it so you got here. 
 
 *'' Say something Joey'' * 
 
 I would If I could, you stupid bitch. Do n't you think I'm trying? I'm wasting all these though. My last thoughts. All because of my weaknesses. I never told you how pretty you are did I? I might have gotten somewhere better in life if I'd've done that. But that's what I get for being pathetic. 
 
 *'' Time's have changed. You're different from how you were. `` * 
 
 You think? 
 
 *'' I wanted to get in touch, I could n't bring myself to it. I was scared. `` * 
 
 You? Scared? What do you have to fear. You're successful. You an that stupid girl-group of yours. Were n't you in the US for a tour last month? Selling out big shows with you lazy generic pop-music? You've made it in life, you can have whatever your desire. What exactly do you ahve to fear? 
 
 *'' I could n't trust people after Dad'' * 
 
 Wait... What. 
 
 *'' He hurt me and Mom, I ca n't forgive him. I changed my name to try to distance myself from him. But the damaged was done. I could n't trust men for a while. I wanted to get in touch, I was scared. `` * 
 
 Shit. Armstrong must be her mothers maiden name. 
 
 *'' Sorry, I like you a lot Joey. I never got a chance to say. `` * 
 
 Sophie! Oh how I wish I could speak right now. I wish I could move and hold you in my arms. I've never felt like this before. A proverbial pivot point this strong. Oh god, what did I do to myself. I'm such a moron. I never told her. 
 
 *'' I should go. This is n't what you want to hear right now. `` * 
 
 Wait! Do n't go! Oh fuxk Joey. You fucked up. Congratulations. You've just doomed yourself. Just one more moment! Please! Do n't go!. 
 
 *'' Doctor, I'll be going. `` * 
 
 I can feel my strength mustering up. I know I wo n't be able to get much out. Joey, make this count... Oh god, what do I say... 
 
 *'' Bye Joey. `` * 
 *'' You're voice has changed'' *. 
 
 Well fuck...
