[ WP ] you 're a literal walking positive energy nuke - the happier you are , the more nuclear energy you build up until you explode . As a result , you live your life as an incredibly angry , bitter person to protect everyone around . However , you wake up one day and have the best day of your life .

I grab my things and go out for a walk, it's one of the few things I can do now, you know, to clear my mind. I knew living by myself in the woods would n't be easy, but I did n't think it would be this hard. Loneliness consumes you, one bit at a time, and there ’ s really nothing I can do to stop that. Or at least nothing I *should* do. 
 
 I start walking down the road and after a few minutes I see a couple having a picnic, which is n't often. I turn around and put my headphones on. Music keeps me distracted, like most of the things I do throughout the day: draw, read, eat. One distraction at a time before night falls and I go to sleep. 
 
 I try to avoid interacting with other people as much as I can, and I haven ’ t had to talk as much as a minute since I arrived here, it ’ s not like there are a lot of people around anyways, but I see tourists and runners near the lake every once in a while, it ’ s a gorgeous place after all. Well, it isn ’ t that beautiful, I guess it ’ s ok. 
 
 I keep walking and after about half an hour I find an ok-looking log, so I take a sit and enjoy the view, I try not to enjoy it **that** much though, I know what could happen, and I do n't want it to. Hopefully I ’ ll fall asleep for a few hours before heading back to my cabin, I lay down on the floor and find a comfortable position before trying to not think about anything, it has become quite easy after all these years, and I'm usually asleep after a few minutes… 
 
 “ Hello? ” – Who was that? No one comes to this side of the woods, that ’ s why I came here in the first place. 
 
 I stay still and pretend I didn ’ t hear anything, but she calls again. 
 
 “ Sir, are you ok? ” - Sir? Really? I don ’ t look that old, so unless she has an emergency someone is about to get really angry, or at least try to. 
 
 I get up and turn around, ready to confront her for such an insult, who the hell does she think she…..well, wow. 
 
 “ Thank god, I thought something had happened to you ” – she said, and she actually looked worried about me. Why? 
 
 “ Sir, can you hear me? ” – Sir, again. Well I guess I ’ m getting older. 
 
 “ Yes, of course I can hear you ” – That was pretty impolite. Wait, when have I cared about that? 
 
 “ Sorry, I didn ’ t mean to offend you. I just saw you lying on the floor and thought you were in trouble ” – Of course, sounds likely. It is n't normal. 
 
 “ I like to sleep here in the woods…ehh…connect with Mother Nature, you know ” – Now what was **that**, Mother Nature? Seriously? What ’ s wrong with you 
 
 “ Well that ’ s a peculiar way to connect with it ” - she said as she smiled, and what a beautiful smile – “ Anyway, I should be leaving now, sorry for bothering you, have a nice day ” – She started walking away and I felt the unexpected urge to say something, but what? 
 
 “ There ’ s a little store 20 minutes away ” – I said as I pointed down the road, I really don ’ t know what I ’ m doing. 
 
 “ Oh…Is there? ” – She looked at me strangely, I mean that ’ s a random thing to say. 
 
 “ Yeah, would you…would you like to grab a cup of coffee? You seem tired ” – WHAT? 
 
 “ Sure, I ’ m exhausted to be honest ” – She said, the strange look had disappeared, and there was no doubt in her voice. 
 
 “ I ’ m George, by the way ” – There was no going back from this 
 
 “ Claudia, nice to meet you ” – She answered, and we started walking 
 
 I try not to talk on our way to the store, and my feet start hurting as we arrive, I can ’ t remember the last time I had felt it happen, and I knew I had to stop it as soon as possible. 
 
 “ This looks really nice ” – Claudia said, her eyes went from one place to another, as if she was taking a mental note of every little detail. 
 
 “ I guess it looks fine ” – I replied, trying to sound as bored and angry as possible, but she was right, it looked very nice, and my body knew it. I was getting more and more nervous. 
 
 I ordered some coffee and we sat down, my hands started hurting as well, this isn ’ t supposed to happen. We chat for a bit as we drink, but I try to talk as little as possible. However, I can ’ t stop looking at her beautiful face and I feel my chest starting to get warmer. 
 
 “ George, are you alright? ” – She gives me a concerned look – “ Your face is a bit red ” 
 
 NO. I stand up, leave a few dollars on the table and start running. I can hear Claudia calling my name but I know I can ’ t go back, I took this way too far and there is only one thing that can stop me…anger. I try really hard to get angry, but I can ’ t, I JUST CAN ’ T. Everything looks more colourful and I can ’ t help but smile when I look at the trees, the wildlife, or just see someone in the distance. 
 
 My whole body hurts by the time I arrive to the cabin. I go to the bathroom and look in the mirror, I ’ m red, fire truck red. I get into the shower and stay there for what feels like an hour but this warm feeling doesn ’ t go away. I get out and lay down, trying to get angry at myself for not being able to stop, but I ca n't. 
 
 I just wanted some company, that ’ s all, I didn ’ t mean to hurt anybody, but it is late, way too late, and I am so, so sorry. 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

