[ WP ] Write the letter that you always wanted to , but never did .

Dear N., 
 
 I've been wanting to tell you a lot of things that have been on my mind lately. 
 
 For starters, I can never seem to get you off my mind. Every single day, I somehow manage to think about you. I ca n't stop thinking about you. There are times where I want to hold your hand in the hallways and give you a hug before leaving for my next class but I ca n't. 
 
 I miss times when we would spend time together, just the two of us. I miss when we cuddled in your car for two hours. I miss when we would send cute texts to each other every day. I miss the hour long conversations at night on the phone. 
 
 I do n't blame you at all for not being able to spend time with me. I know that you are a very busy person, trying to juggle school and gymnastics at the same time. And I know that you care about me as much as I care about you. 
 
 But I wish we could spend more time with one another. I wish that we could enjoy each other's company without having to worry about schoolwork. I wish that amongst the chaos in our lives, we could calm each other by being together. I miss you. A lot. 
 
 But I do n't know how I would be able to tell you this. I do n't want to ask for more time with you for fear of coming off as being selfish and only wanting for my own. I want to say what's on my mind, but I do n't want you to think that I'm too clingy. The truth is that I'm just a very emotional person who sometimes lets my feelings get the best of me. 
 
 Times where I do n't get texts back or days where we do n't call each other, I wonder if I'm ever on your mind as much as you are on mine. I wonder if you've ever thought about the things I've been meaning to say to you. 
 
 I want to call you every day, but I hesitate to because I do n't want to disturb you when you're busy. But every time I do n't, I feel a little empty inside not being able to hear your voice. I want to spend time with you on the weekends or after school, but I do n't know if you have any spare time for me, being that you have so many obligations. 
 
 There are times on the phone when we would talk about our plans in the future. You've told me of how in college we could actually be with each other more than we are now. You talked of how we would visit each other's dorms everyday and just hang out. To be honest, the thought of losing out on that scares me. You're an amazing girl, and I've never cared about someone so much before. 
 
 Truth is, my biggest fear in all of this is the possibility of losing you. I know that it's so dramatic to think like that, but at times when I'm alone, it feels just like that. Every day I try to put on a smile and act as if everything is okay because I do n't want you to worry about me when you have so many other more important issues in your life. I do this, but I know that bottling up my feelings is not good for me. So that's why I'm writing to you in this letter. 
 
 Remember that time when you said that I was too good for you? Well that's not true. I'm the luckiest guy in the world to have been able to meet such a wonderful and amazing person such as yourself. You're funny, creative, compassionate, humble, friendly, beautiful, charismatic, and so much more. Never let anyone else tell you otherwise. 
 
 Know that you'll always have a special place in my heart. I love you. 
 
 R.
