[ WP ] `` How much of a hero are you , if all you 've managed to save is yourself ? ''

She looks at me and waits for an answer. 
 
 I finally reply- `` Are you alive?'' 
 
 `` Yes but-'' 
 
 `` Are you alive? Because-'' She cuts me off. 
 
 `` YEAH! I'm alive but-'' 
 
 `` Then why the hell would you say I only saved myself?!? How can you say that? You think I had time- to pick and choose who I helped and who I let die? YOU THINK I HAVE ANY CONTROL over this?!? -- because if I did have a fucking say in any of this I'd be on some island right now and far away from here and FAR AWAY FROM YOU!!!!'' 
 
 She puts her hands up to quiet me. 
 
 `` You're too loud, shhh!'' 
 
 `` NO! NO! YOU do n't accuse me of something like that and then get to just end the conversatio-'' 
 
 She jumps in again- `` I'm just trying-'' 
 
 `` I do n't care! You wan na blame me? Fine. Blame me. I lost so much already I do n't have anything else to lose. But you do n't have to stick with me. So... I'll go that way, and you go that way and uh... best of luck, ok?'' 
 
 I turn and start walking. I try not to cry. My chest starts to heave but I choke it back down. I'm not crying for her. 
 
 `` Wait'' she says. I keep walking. `` WAIT!'' she runs up to me. She grabs me by the arm. `` I'm... I'm... sorry.'' 
 
 I look away. Why does n't she get it? I turn back to her. `` You know why... you're here with me? Why... I went back and left my... why I brought you with me in the first place?'' 
 
 She smirks. Only person I know who can go from pissed to playful in five minutes. She grabs my zipper on my jacket. `` Is it... because... you love me?'' 
 
 `` No'' I say. `` It's because you still owe me 10 bucks.'' She half punches me in the stomach. We stand there for what seems like forever. Finally, one of us starts walking again. 
 
 We start to walk together. `` I'm sorry'' she says. `` I'm sorry too'' I quietly say. Only person I know that I'll apologize to. Who am I kidding. 
 
 She's the only person I know that's still alive.
