[ WP ] You are always the cause of your own death .

`` Karen, I'm sorry,'' I spoke above the sound of scraping metal against the door as we inched forward. `` I had no other choice. I love you.'' 
 
 The color was almost completely absent from her face; she'd lost too much blood. As I reached over to brush the hair out of her eyes, she glanced up one last time and whispered, `` It's not your fault.'' The vehicle let go from the cliffs edge and began it's decent into the abyss. 
 
 All I wanted for her was a chance, but I've failed again. I always fail. Why? I should n't have chanced the mountains in this weather. Another flash of my lives passing before me; the memories that I can never relive or forget, blinding me from what's coming. I should have tried to change this one, to break the cycle. Does everyone experience this? I do n't want this an... 
 
 The jeep crumpled into the canyon floor with the force of two hundred and forty feet of free-fall. Fire engulfed the crash, and the explosion sent scraps of material hurtling outwards. It was 3:46 am, and the wreck wo n't be found for another 4 and a half hours. But that's irrelevent, because we're already dead. 
 
 Just another drop in a bucket. How many have there been now? Too many. Time has long since held no relevance for me, and rememberance seems meaningless. I would have been happy with one life, just one experience. Instead I carry this curse with bitter contempt. What am I here for? 
 
 My name is Richard Lazaras, at least that's what I call myself, and from what I can tell I ca n't truly die. I live and i die, and every death has come by my own hand, yet with every death begins another life. Which is my reality; living or dying? I've seen thousands of years pass, but to what gain? I've lost thousands of those that I love, but where are they now if not repeating life as I am? 
 
 I see it now. The light is drawing me on. It will be some time before I can speak again, but I'll soon remember everything. For now a time of peace, love, and fear awaits me in birth. 
 
 
 edit: changed a `` he'' to `` I''
