[ WP ] You receive a second chance at something that has haunted you your entire life .

Everyday in school was the same, crisp monotone. Wake up, arrive, work, break, work, dinner, work, depart, homework, chill out, sleep. 
 
 I was neither happy nor sad, especially. Some days were better than others but they all seemed similar. 
 
 Then a new girl came into the class. 
 
 Instantly I became curious about her, she was different to the others, there was a magnetism. 
 
 The months went by and I could n't stop looking at her, I tried not to look but I kept wanting to. My eyes would scan the room and she would attract them to look at her, I could n't help it, she was the first person I thought was beautiful in the whole world. Nobody could compare. 
 
 Time moved on, I got braver and told her how she felt. She ran. 
 
 I was happy I had said something but it ended there, nothing new to report. Nothing changed. 
 
 I became shy again, tried to focus on my work but I could n't I was already distracted. My thoughts turned to her and then, before I knew it, time was up. 
 
 I asked her to a movie before it was too late. I remember arriving and keeping an eye out for her but, she did n't show. I remember getting into the car with my father, I swore I may have seen her in the road looking for me but it may have been my imagination playing tricks. 
 
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 Years went by, tried to put her out of my mind but it was no use. I got into relationships, they did n't last because I was still transfixed on this one person. 
 
 It took nearly 7 years after school to get into a serious relationship but even then, the memory still corrupted everything. 
 
 It was as if my once monotone world had returned but I had experienced technicolour and now, it was n't enough to just be shades of grey. 
 
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 I found her again, by chance and we met. I was still living with my parents and she was a single mother by now. She confessed to me that she had regrets, wanted things to go differently for her but, time had moved on. We walked her dog, went to the cinema and then shared a kiss in the car. The kiss, which I had wanted for so long, was, sort of mediocre and in its mediocrity I found serenity. 
 
 It was this moment that I recall something changed. 
 
 This person, I had wanted for so long, was just a regular person. She did n't see me much after that, there were still elements within my mind that wanted her too much to let it go but I had already realized by this point that I was too invested in her to make it work and as I predicted, I sabotaged myself and made a fool of myself and then I began to reflect on everything I had learned over the years, of coping and hoping. 
 
 I realized that people do deserve a chance and in doing so I ended up giving another person a shot, somebody who liked me in a similar way to the way I liked her. It lasted 2 years but ended brutally because it burned her that I was with her, because I was giving her a shot. 
 
 Smaller relationships happened, and more reflection occurred, I found myself losing any feelings towards the person I had in the first place and learning more about how things are supposed to work. The more I realized the person I thought I loved was merely a facade in my own head, the more the world came into focus and the quicker the colour returned, I worked on myself and bettered myself, until one day I saw a person who made me stop and stare, in a similar way to before. Instead of getting crazy notions or giving somebody a shot, I just asked to meet and got to know her. 
 
 We're still together to this day. 
 
 I think, sometimes, it is best to get to know a person first, before judging them, you never know what will happen, but what ever you do, do n't waste a decade.
