[ WP ] A genie will grant you one wish . You have wished to become the most beautiful woman in the world .

I'm not going to lie. I love the way I look. I mean, yeah, if I could change the fact that my eyelids are different shapes, and remove the scar on my face from that stupid shitzu, I would be golden. 
 
 ``... Are you sure?'' The genie looked me up and down. `` If you are sure, then your wish is my command.'' And with a comical `` poof'' and a great deal of warm light, it was done. I ran to the mirror. Overall, I looked basically the same. I was obviously down 50 pounds and very fit, with a leg gap and abs. My curly hair was, for once, tamed in perfect ringlets around my face. The scar was gone, and my eyelids were the same. For once, I saw myself in the perfection I wanted for myself, minus the effort it took to look that way. Turning this way and that, grinning from ear to ear, I turned to thank the Genie, but he was gone. 
 
 The problem is, its been 5 years since that happened. I've gained all the weight back. I've had a kid. Nothing about me is remotely beautiful anymore. Maybe that scar is gone. Maybe my eyelids match. Maybe my face is more symmetrical. But knowing what I have looked like, knowing how I ruined it, and knowing that it is unattainable is driving me to wish I had never met that genie at all. At least when I was the me I was meant to be, I loved myself. Now, all I have is crippling self esteem issues and the knowledge it is all my fault.
