[ WP ] Write the letter that you always wanted to , but never did .

Amber, 
 
 For years I ’ ve tried to find it within myself to forgive you, I ’ ve tried so hard, but I ’ m weak and I can not. I thought what we had was real, something that transcended the conventional, but I was wrong, and even though I loathe my foolishness I ’ m glad you taught me this lesson. 
 
 You ’ ve broken me, and I fear that I ’ ll never be able to get over my own insecurities and self-doubt. It makes me wonder when I think about it if you ever had feelings for me, at least the way you claimed. 
 
 You asked me something the night I left when you told me the truth. The truth that in some way I always knew but chose to ignore, maybe I was just hopeful or maybe I was just naïve, or maybe I knew that if I confronted it that I would lose you. You asked me when was the moment I realized I loved you, and then you asked if I could feel that moment after your confession. 
 
 I never answered you and I think we both knew the answer as to why. I knew it was going to be bad, but you surprised me. I don ’ t know why, but it has bothered me ever since that night. Maybe if I had voiced it then things may have been different for us, or maybe I ’ m still just as gullible as I was back then. Maybe I just feel like a question like that shouldn ’ t have gone unanswered on my part. 
 
 Do you remember the night I came home early and I told you to put on jeans and grab a jacket? It must have been just after New Year ’ s now that I think about it. You kept asking what was going on and I never said anything. It took us about 40 minutes to get to where we were going, and the whole time you kept asking what we were doing and I would just smile and tell you to wait. I parked us in the middle of the field and we lied on the hood of my car and watched the stars fall from the sky. 
 
 In the rush you must ’ ve forgotten your jacket and as we watched the sky you asked for mine. That was the moment, that ’ s when you had me. 
 
 Michael
