[ WP ] `` For what it 's worth ... I 've always loved you . ''

I stumbled in through the front door of my house. I was exhausted. And possibly slightly drunk. I fumbled with my keys as I took them out of the lock and dropped them, I shrugged and found my way into my room after closing the door behind me. 
 
 `` Fucking everything'' I mumbled `` Fucking life'' 
 
 I looked around my room frantically, I had to find it fast before I passed out. I began looking through my closet and as I did I remembered the day my father died. My mum died in a car crash when I was four so my dad was all I ever had. But of course he was taken away from me when I was twenty. I slammed the closet door shut and shambled over to my desk, moving papers and such around searching for it. As I did I thought about school. I was always a loner, always bullied and picked on. They all hated me. 
 
 `` I hated you pricks too for your information...'' I muttered to myself as I spotted it in the corner of my room. I made my way over, grabbing the chair from my desk on the way before picking it up. 
 
 `` Here you were you little bastard.'' I smiled as I picked it up and clambered onto the chair, being careful not to fall off. I began attempting to tie it around the rafter above me. As I did I thought of my first girlfriend and the time we first kissed. Just past high school it was, standing in the rain we kissed and she looked at me and smiled so lovingly, she did that cute laugh of hers that she always did when I did something she liked. I hesitated for a moment. She told me eventually I'd never matted, I was always just a tool for her to get over her ex. I guess she never really loved me. 
 
 `` I always loved her though.'' I murmured. 
 
 I finished tying the knots. I put my head through the noose. Not like I had anyone who'd care after all. No one who really loved me. Just before I kicked the chair out from underneath me I looked to the mirror beside me. Tears streaming down my face I croaked my final words. 
 
 `` For what it's worth... I've always loved you.'' 

