[ IP ] Park bench at night

I love coming here, especially at night. I could spend hours just sitting here with no one around, just me and the memories. I was sitting on this bench when I met her. I used to come here for lunch a few times a week. It was good to get out of the office and enjoy the fresh air. Then one day it all changed. 
 
 “ Is anyone sitting here? ” She asked. I looked up from the book I was reading and saw the most beautiful sight I had ever seen. She was brushing a few loose strands of her auburn hair behind her ear. Her lips were full and did n't need any lipstick to make them more desirable. It was her eyes though that really caught my attention, they were gray with bright blue flecks that seemed to have an light shining from within. 
 
 “ Um, no, ” I managed after what seemed like an eternity of staring into her eyes. “ Please sit. ” 
 
 “ Thanks, ” She said after she settled down and started taking her lunch out. “ You come here quite a bit do n't you? ” 
 
 “ Yeah, I work just down the street and I just need to get out of the office sometimes. ” 
 
 “ Oh, trust me I know what you mean, ” She agreed. “ I'm Tammy. ” 
 
 “ I'm Jim, ” I told her as we shook hands. I never wanted to let go of her hand, if I could just sit there for the rest of eternity holding her hand and looking into her mesmerizing eyes I would be perfectly happy. 
 
 That was how it all began. After that we met there everyday during lunch and soon after began spending every evening together. It did n't take long for me to fall completely in love with Tammy and she assured me that she shared my feelings. We spent months getting to know each other and started planning the rest of our lives together. 
 
 Then, slowly little signs started showing up that her feelings were changing. She was becoming more cold and aloof. Whenever I would ask her what was wrong she assured me that nothing was. I was still utterly and completely in love with her and worked hard to convince myself that I was imagining it all and that things were still exactly as she said they were. 
 
 A few weeks later was when it all came to a head. She accidentally grabbed my phone as she left for work after spending the night at my place. While I was getting ready for work a text came through on what I thought was my phone, but was actually hers and I was faced with the reality that I just could n't handle. The text read “ I ca n't wait to see your sexy ass again this weekend Tammy! ” 
 
 I was devastated. My entire world quickly imploded and I did n't know what to do. I ran through the entire range of emotions from denial, to pure rage, back to denial, confusion, anger again, and finally I calmed down. I sat on the couch in for the rest of the day trying to figure out what to do. She was supposed to be coming back here after work, she had been staying here almost every night now. What was I going to say? Should I just let it do and not say anything? No, I had to know the truth. 
 
 Finally, she walked through the door. “ Hey, baby, ” She said as she came in the door. “ How was your day? ” 
 
 I guess she could tell that I had never finished getting ready for work and had not left the house. “ What's wrong, Jim? ” 
 
 All I could think to say was, “ You took my phone this morning. ” I handed her's to her. 
 
 “ Oh, yeah, I noticed that. I was going to switch them at lunch, but you were n't at the park. I figured you were busy. ” 
 
 I had n't moved, had n't even looked at her in the eyes yet, “ Why do n't you check your texts. ” 
 
 A look of horror and guilt came over her as she read what I had read hours earlier. “ I'm sorry, ” was all she said before I got up and left my house. I wandered aimlessly for a while and ended up at the same spot where it all started. I sat on the same bench that I first looked into her eyes until late in the night. It no longer seemed peaceful and relaxing, though. I knew my life as I knew it was changing again, but this time it definitely was n't a change I wanted. I did n't know what to do and once again just wanted to stay in that one spot for the rest of eternity, so long as she did n't show up again. 
 
 Thankfully, now this spot has slowly been getting back to the peaceful and relaxing spot that it was once before. I stopped coming here for lunch after that day, but I did keep coming at night. I barely notice if the occasional jogger or dog walker goes by. I just sit here alone with my thoughts and memories. I can still feel her hand in mine and, I swear, I can occasionally see tiny flecks of blue light shining through the dim light from the street light a little ways away. Even though I am alone here at night, this is the only place where I do n't feel alone anymore. I guess the strong memories of her keep me company, that and the fact that, I can just see the, now covered, spot where I buried her that night.
