[ WP ] Write the letter that you always wanted to , but never did .

Dear Mom, 
 I know you're just a room away from me, but I probably will never have the courage to tell you this. I'm sad, mom. Everyday. I know I'm the one that always laughs and smiles through anything, but it's been getting pretty hard for me. It's weird though, because there's nothing terribly devastating going on in my life, but it's honestly been really hard for me. Whenever I'm alone, all I want to do is cry for hours, because I feel so, so lonely all the time, but I ca n't. I know seeing my sad makes you guilty, and I love you too much to hurt you. 
 
 I'm really sorry I disappointed you today. I did n't mean to. But mom, I do n't know what to do. I'm really trying to listen to you, but sometimes I ca n't tell what you want from me. Sometimes you demand so much and it just makes me feel like this horrible, useless thing that you take care of only because you feel this sense of responsibility. 
 
 Mom, I truly do love you. I want to give you the entire world, but I do n't know how. I know how you cry yourself to sleep at night, and I know that you feel miserable and glum all the time, and I know it's because of me. I'm sorry. 
 
 I know you're dating someone new. I'm happy for you, but I wish you did n't have to keep it a secret from me. Do you know how devastated I was when I found out? You know how supportive I am about you meeting new people, but could n't you at least tell me? Could n't you at least tell the person who's always been by your side through everything? 
 
 I really wished I was able to tell you this, but here I am, showing it to everyone but you. It's ironic, is n't it? 
 
 I love you, your daughter.
