[ WP ] People have always been born as twins , one has the heart and the other , the brain .

I do n't know what drove Ricky. He always seemed so negative. I do n't know where that came from, we were always together. He just was like that from the start. Hating everything, never seeing the good in things like I do. It made me sad, it made our family sad. He became a drain on everyone. No one wanted to put up with his issues. But, Ricky was always a smart one. He was going to be successful in life. Ricky got gifted with the brains. Sadly seems like he overthinks everything way to far. I feel bad for him. I know he's not happy. I just cant understand why he does n't feel the emotions everyone else does. He loves doing things, why ca n't he find joy in his hobbies as motivation to keep on living. 
 
 But he did n't. He did n't. Ricky may have had the brains and not much emotion, but he never could of imagined the impact he would have on me and the rest of our family. He left a hole in our hearts. A hole I ca n't possibly fill. He ruined it. I wish I could see him one last time. One last time so I can tell him what an asshole he was for doing that. Telling him that while I hug him as tight as possible. Feeling him one last time. He was going to do good for the world, but that mind was too much for him. 
 
 Ricky, from what the cops put together. Walked to North Side lookout. Smoked a pack while sipping on a diet coke. Writing down a note to detail his motives for doing so. Sitting there, enjoying the little things he liked before stepping over the ledge. 
 
 I thought I was so blessed to be born with a twin. Someone whose just like me. Someone I could talk to down to the most personal things, that they would understand completely. But Ricky was n't like me. I had the hearts Ricky never had. The one thing he wrote that he wished. Wishing he could feel like I do. I'm sorry I could n't give it to you bro, you know I would if I could. I'll leave it at that. I'm so sorry Ricky, sorry that I failed you as a twin, as a brother, a friend. 
 
 See you soon bro, hope you finally found happiness wherever you are.
