[ CW ] Write yourself into a corner .

People tell me I do n't know how to talk, but I do know how to. They tell me that I have problem when it comes to describing a situation. They say that I never really say the things I'm supposed to; and rant about things that does n't matter to anyone. 
 
 The day started as mundanely as any other. The Lithium heaviness was slowly creeping in. Cigarettes would come later as laxatives, and later on as a reminder that I had to quit it. I do n't drink coffee as I'm not bothered enough to make myself some. Shower cold and fast and grab a bite on the way to make it to the University. 
 
 Once inside the class, I was seated immediately and glued myself to the sky that always seemed so far away and pretty. My routinely lost self did n't even bother with the ever important world. I needed a break from the world; from: over consumption; murder; rape; humiliation; Internet-how-to's; books; ugly girls; pretty girls; 25 year old millionaires who wear jerseys. Not that I was getting raped at every corner, but some things have gone on longer that it 
 should. Nobody ever seems genuinely concerned about these matter. 
 
 I was as glued to the vista as my classmates' eyes were glued to me. Everyone had their own little thoughts that was chewing on them. They must have seen something in my tilted head because they generally left me alone. Asking a question and my awkward no-reply had discouraged them from asking me anything, not today. I even answered when I knew that I should n't have. 
 
 `` Hey, Psycho...'' 
 
 `` Yes.'' 
 
 `` Psycho, come here.'' 
 
 ``...............'' 
 
 `` Retarded fuck, come here you retarded fuck'' 
 
 I should have said nothing and just stared at her face, like I always did. 
 
 `` No.'' 
 
 `` what the fuck did you just say?'' 
 
 `` Go fuck yourself'' 
 
 `` What the FUCK WAS THAT?'' 
 
 Grab a pen and stuck it on her eyes as everyone around just watched dumb founded. Another jab at her pristine blue eyes that everyone just loved. A beautiful moment and I was n't even looking at her. 
 
 `` A beautiful weather, is n't it?'' 

