[ IP ] Beautiful escape [ ex-post from /r/MorbidlyBeautiful/ ]

angrily, I punch the steering wheel. I mutter up a curse riddled prayer to whatever may be listening and try the key again. 
 
 Nothing. 
 
 Francis may have finally kicked the bucket. I zip up my hoodie, grab my keys, I step out of the car. The cold wind cuts threw my jacket and nearly throws me off balance. Stabilizing myself, I begin the slow walk home. 
 
 I rather enjoyed the cold as a child. It was wonderfully exhausting to my over active mind. The snow was mine to command and I, the hero destined to save mankind, would chase the dog around the yard. I imagine it very differently now. With each breath a little piece of your soul floats away. Lucky enough for me I ’ m tired and the walk passes by quickly enough due to it. 
 
 “ Daddy ’ s home! ” Cries the little girl I don ’ t have as I open the door. 
 The dog I also don ’ t have runs quickly from the library to greet me. As I turn on the kitchen light the warmth of such a reality fades to the cold of my apartment. The heater must be broken again. I check the gauge in the living room to confirm my suspicion. It reads 61. And it ’ s only gon na get colder. Grabbing another coat from my closet, I return to the kitchen. I toss a bowl of soup in the microwave and watch it as it turns circles. One after the other after the other. 
 
 It ’ s methodic. 
 
 It ’ s relaxing. 
 
 I consume the chicken noodle soup with nine extra added grains for pro-biotic health or whatever it ’ s for and make my way to bed. Even with my added coat, I still shiver in the darkness. The blinding neo red of my alarm clock reads 12:01. I make the adult decision to actually set my alarm for work and then close my eyes. 
 I imagine her laying her with me. The warmth of her skin, the smell of her hair, the beat of her heart. And as I drift into darkness I find myself humming this tune, 
 
 “ All the street lights say never mind, never mind 
 And the canyon lines say never mind. 
 Sunset says we see this all the time, 
 Never mind. Never you mind ” 

