[ CW ] At least three characters . Dialogue only .

`` Are you ready? Ready? Hey, the last fucking thing I need is you fucking bailing out now''. 
 
 `` How many fucking times? Do you have any faith in me at all? Do you remember everything I said to you? Does that mean absolutely nothing to you, you fucking idiot?'' 
 
 `` I'm sorry, OK, I just ca n't fucking deal with this. It's all at once. Do you remember what I said on that snowy night when we decided?'' 
 
 `` You said a lot.'' 
 
 `` Do n't get fucking facetious with me. Not now. If we're gon na do it I do n't want to have to see your fucking smirking face.'' 
 
 `` And now you're talking to me like that. I'm doing you a fucking favour, Simon, because I love you, and I fucking hate that, I hate you, I hate it all. And I know I'm going to hate myself, and hate you, even though I know you do n't deserve it. I just hope you wo n't hate me. Now is n't the time to be hating things.'' 
 
 `` I do n't hate you, and you know that. You fucking know that. Let's not fucking hang about. Please, my hands are shaking, Deb, but I ca n't feel them. I ca n't feel anything. But please allow me to at least feel a bit of warmth. Smile at me.'' 
 
 `` I ca n't just smile because you tell me to. I do n't want to smile. Now's not a time for smiling.'' 
 
 `` Deb, do you remember the night at the Jewel? The smoky place on Percy Street? You used to get a spirit and mixer for a quid? Fucking hell, look at me, in this fucking mess and I'm still a cheap bastard. You always used to go on at me about it.'' 
 
 `` I still do, Si. And no, I do n't remember the Jewel.'' 
 
 `` Oh. Right, well.'' 
 
 `` Huh.'' 
 
 `` It was fun, that was all. I miss the butterflies. I miss the sun on my arm. I miss your scratchy jumper rubbing my chest.'' 
 
 `` The one with the stripes?'' 
 
 `` Aye, that's the one! You got it after Kev's wedding, did n't you?'' 
 
 `` God, that was a long time ago. We were still young then. We did n't care, did we? And now here we are.'' 
 
 `` It's a fucking mess, Deb, and it's high time that it stopped. I know it's been hard for you. I want you to put the photos in with me. The old ones.'' 
 
 `` What good will that do, Si? What good will any of this do? How am I meant to fucking get up and leave this room after? I'll be a mess. And I do n't have anyone, Si. I have some fucking stupid memories of smoky bars and polyester ties. What good are they now?'' 
 
 `` When I fell, Deb, I thought of you. I laid on the ground, feeling my life ebb away. And yet all I could fucking think of was that time we were round your mum's at Christmas and Derek said we looked good together and you bit your lip. As the feeling drained out of me I saw you in that fucking blue dress! Burned onto my eyes! And how I wanted to fucking just get a hold of you and tell you how thankful I was, and how life was worth it. But I ca n't lift my arms. When you kiss me on the cheek it's cold. In ten minutes' time I'll back in the Jewel.'' 
 
 `` Si, I ca n't. I just ca n't. I want it to- I want it- I do n't know what I want. I want you.'' 
 
 `` Deb, it's time. I'm ready. I fucking love you. Just do it if you love me. I wo n't feel anything. I wo n't cry. Look into my eyes. I'm shutting them now. Good night, love.'' 
 
......... 
 
 `` Foreman, your verdict on Count 1, that of wilful murder with malice aforethought?'' 
 
 `` Guilty, my lord.''
