[ WP ] Describe the first person you ever fell in love with .

I'm not entirely sue if I love her or hate her. When we met, she was open and smiling and lustrous. In later encounters, she was awkward and judgmental. She was indecisive and contradictory. Sexually adventurous but far too liberal in her actions. She had the strangest fashion, like a hipster would dress but in a way that seemed forced, it was n't ugly but not attractive. 
 
 But she was the most remarkable human being I had ever come across. We began talking in high school. I was a senior and she a junior. During my four years, I had grown cynical and cold. It seemed everyone in that school was entirely superficial and exceedingly stupid. But along comes this girl who felt the same way as I did, but where I had become cold and retracted, she had grown curious and open. Where I was sarcastic, she was genuine. Where I was shy, she would flourish. I could n't stand it and regretted meeting her. I despised being around her, until I found myself in the same acting class as her. 
 
 Given my cold outlook on everyone, I had to develop a pseudo personality during the day. Because of this, I was drawn to acting. The idea of being an entirely different person drew me in since I did it so effortlessly during the day. I was good at it. I was able to dive into any role I was given, any accent, any personality, I was born for it. And so was she, our first assignment, we were put in pairs to showcase chemistry between actors. She and I were put together, we were a couple driving cross-country and the stress of the road had gotten to us. I remember it vividly, it was her idea to do a Scottish accent because she thought anger could best be portrayed in such an accent. It was a fantastic idea and turned out to work very well. The scene began quietly, we were silent for about a minute but it was tense rather than awkward. finally she spoke up, `` you know you missed the turn a mile back,'' and thus began our scene. Never before had I been able to build off another person so easily, every bit of anger, every accusation, we bounced off each other so well, it was if we had doing this for years. The scene ended with us back to back with our arms crossed, we knew what we wanted to do but we did n't know who would do it first. She finally made the first move, she turned and with a silent venom in her voice, only said `` hey,'' grabbed my shoulder and turned me around. we faced each other, neither person backing down. `` I love you,'' I knew it was said for the sake of the scene but it felt so real, I was convinced for a moment. Not one to break character, nor one to be outdone, I looked at her for a moment before taking her hands, we all knew what would happen. We both went in for the kiss, I do n't know how long it lasted but I would've stayed locked with her in that kiss forever. We pulled away, I put my hand on her cheek and said `` I love you,'' and scene. The class thundered applause, our teacher was stunned and jokingly asked if we were actually married. It was that day I knew there was something special about her and that I may actually love her. We began talking outside of class, hanging out after school, we became inseparable. 
 
 She was brilliant in every way. She was educated as well as intelligent. She got excited when she learned something new. I loved that about her, we would share with each other any new bits of information we had learned, and we would grow and learn from one another. She would become so passionate in regaling me with her most recent lesson in engineering or physics. I, a psych/neuro student, could never fully grasp the concepts as well as she, but I loved watching her light up as she attempted to teach me. She would become just as engaged whenever I would share my psychological theories or most recent biological lesson with her. I was floored by her, I had never found such a kindred spirit. 
 
 But her most enamoring quality was her bravery. Over the years, I had built several walls to hide myself from everyone. I had developed a superficial mask to help me get through the day. Everyone saw that I was a cheerful, friendly, person; but I despised everyone I had come into contact with. She saw right through that, she terrified me with how easily she could break down the walls I had worked so hard to build. She looked straight into my core in a way so few had ever done. Where others became disgusted or scared of who I really was, she stood up straighter and declared `` Is that all you got?'' She challenged me constantly without ever hesitating or backing down. When I pushed, she pushed harder. When I yelled, she yelled louder. The passion between us, the chemistry, was nothing short of tremendous. The way I felt, or still feel, about her was the first time I had ever felt about anyone. I had had relationships and hook-ups before her but none of them made me feel anything remotely close to what she made me feel. I loved her and she loved me. 
 
 But like all good things, it had to end. Despite how perfectly we functioned with one another, it simply was n't in the cards for us to be together. We did n't complete each other, we added. We were at 150 % with each other. But the fates decided we simply could n't be together. As time passed on, we began to hang out and talk less. Silences grew longer, frustrations rose more easily. An old flame from her past returned and they began to see each other and hook up constantly. I had begun hooking up with several other guys and girls and we grew apart. 
 
 I do n't know if boredom set in or if it was bad timing, but we simply burned out as if we had never began in the first place. It's been two since then, but every time we come home from college, we end up seeing each other. She has been with her boyfriend for over a year now and I have been, to put it delicately, much less than monogamous. But every time I see her, every time we make eye contact, I ca n't help but feel that same rush that washed over us those two years ago. And every time I look at her the way I used, she would shoot back that familiar look in her eyes as if to say `` bring it.'' 
 
 I admire her more than any other human I have ever met. She is outstanding in every conceivable way. She is infuriating and enrapturing all at once and I ca n't stop loving her.
