[ WP ] It used to keep me up at night , now it helps me sleep .

Oh God, damn thing used to drive me absolutely NUTS! And it was at its very worst at night. Not that it was any better in the daytime which just meant I would stay awake having nightmares about what the next day would bring. 
 
 I questioned myself every single moment those weeks. Was I really that incompetent? Did I make the right decision? Would this ever get any better? Should I ask someone for help perhaps? 
 
 Should I give up? 
 
 I can ’ t thank all the stars and Gods and powers-that-be and what not that I didn ’ t give up.. 
 
 Despite such destruction and trouble, my life would have been a huge mess and I would probably still be having trouble sleeping. And eating. And breathing. 
 
 The doctors said that I had one of the worst cases of depression they had ever seen in someone so young. What they were most confused about was that there really wasn ’ t even a life-changing event that had triggered it. 
 
 It was just a general discontent at how my life had turned out and the inevitable low self-esteem and self-doubt that went along with it. Add to all that the string of horrible recent relationships the past few years.. 
 
 Here I stand today five years later and the happiest I had ever been in my entire existence. 
 
 Silly me, I wasn ’ t paying attention when I should have been and my super insane best friend, a lab and collie mix puppy chose that moment to run and jump on me at full speed and proceed to lick me all over my face and neck as if he knew I was thinking of him. 
 
 He stayed on my lap, licked the spilt coffee off my shirt and chomped down on the bagel he knew he should eat and looked straight into my eyes. 
 I bloody teared and choked up. I held him tight and wept in gratefulness. I couldn ’ t have made it this far without him and these days I just can ’ t imagine sleeping without him by my side.... 
 

