[ CW ] Show a character suffering from a mental disorder without naming it .

A sense of euphoria overtook him as he approached the casino. He had been saving his money and living frugally for the better part of 6 months now his debts were almost all gone, with exception of the credit card he'd neglected so thoroughly. 
 
 Looking out from the parking garage's fourth story, the clear night air invigorated him. He deserved this. It is part of the human experience after all, the high of hitting a win at craps, the low of losing all two hundred dollars he could be saving for a trip to Spain. He wants that emotional connection with himself, knows it allows periods of thoroughly deserved self hatred followed by the triumph of overcoming that very emotion. 
 
 The following two weeks were exactly what he wanted. 
 
 This time however emergencies had arisen just before his cheque from work was due, and he knew this was going to be a bad month. 
 
 This time the world is scary and sleep is terrifying, he can not sleep for fear something interesting or relieving may arise while he sleeps. He makes coffee just before bed although he knows how sensitive he is to it. 
 
 He wakes up tired with the thought of his bank account already on his mind, he fumbles for his phone to open the bank app. No new charges. 
 
 The morning sees a fight with his girlfriend that started because of anger with himself about leaving his headset out for the cat to chew. He only knows this anger is misdirected because of the amount of times he's been here. He learns so much about himself during these introspective times. 
 
 The weather is nice today, maybe things are n't so bad.
