[ CW ] Write a story that ends with `` I love her . That 's why I killed her '' .

I love her. That ’ s why I killed her. 
 
 The feeling was foreign to me. Was it really love? I had panicked. I didn ’ t know what it meant. My life had been an uninterrupted journey of egotism and self-absorption; then I met her. 
 
 My world collapsed. I did not understand how to depend on someone else for happiness and fulfillment. Is that what love is? I didn ’ t like it. It forced me to change. I hate change. 
 
 Happiness came first. That I didn ’ t mind. Happiness was good. But then things changed. My being happy depended on her being happy. This, I realized, I did not like. This was not good. I did not like compromise. My life was my own. My life is my own. Who was she to ask me to change? 
 
 Happiness did not stay. Frustration grew by the day. I knew I loved her, but I did not want to. I wanted my old life. It was happy. I controlled it. I enjoyed controlling it. Then she controlled it. I had to do something. 
 
 Love is bad. Dependence is bad. I had to rid myself of it. It wasn ’ t that I wanted her to die; but I did want to live. And how could I live for anyone other than myself? Her life meant my death. I wanted to go back to the way things were. I needed to go back to the way things were. I wish she had never existed. I needed her to cease to exist. 
 
 I love her. That ’ s why I killed her. 

