[ WP ] Its always been a bit of myth that newborn infants are all knowing until their first birthday , then one night as you 're holding your daughter , she turns to you and says `` there is no meaning , we are born to die '' .

Her eyes were blue and serious, more aged than any I had ever seen in the face of a child. 
 
 `` I wanted you to know, before I forget. I know I will. But you will be so important to me, you need to know it.'' 
 
 I blinked at my eight month old daughter, who had just spoken a string of sentences, only made more horrifying and odd by the fact that they were depressing things coming from the mouth of a cherub. 
 
 She clenched her tiny fists and looked frustrated, apparently that was all she could muster. The ominous exorcist worthy stuff was done hopefully, and I dismissed it as me lacking sleep. 
 
 `` Mother.'' Again that tiny, ancient voice. 
 
 `` Nothing we do matters, its cyclical, we are born, we pack our lives full of mundane things that do n't make us happy. We love people, they leave us, we wither, and then we die.'' She was staring hard at the cheerios on her highchair tray. 
 
 `` We're puppets, energy recycling, and nothing more. And we ca n't escape it.'' Tears welled in her giant eyes and she let out a sob. 
 
 I had never read a parenting book that detailed anything like this, so while my infant was speaking to me I felt like I was having a small panic attack, wondering who I could call about this. 
 
 Her little fists slammed into the tray and she yelled angrily. This was n't a tantrum, it was frustration, it was despair. 
 
 `` I love living, and I love you. AND I WANT THAT TO MATTER!.'' 
 
 A small smile passed on my face. Yes this was weird, yes this was scary, but she was my baby, and I loved her more than everything that ever was or ever will be. So I reached out and I touched the soft curls on top of her head. 
 
 She looked up at me, her eyes streaming with tears that she should not have been able to understand. 
 
 `` Oh my littlest love. It matters to me.'' 
 
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