[ WP ] What it takes to get into heaven .

I laid on my bed, unaware of what was about to happen. I had led a bad life, I knew it. But I wanted to be forgiven. So I closed my eyes. I started to pray. I asked God to look upon me and see me. To see all i had done. I asked him to look at me and see the remorse, my shame. 
 
 I did n't know if he could hear me. All I could hear was the monitors I was connected to. I kept praying. I made a list of all the things I'd done wrong. That I could remember anyway. I thought about them and how wrong they were. I thought about the people I'd hurt, the evil things I'd done. I felt ashamed. I felt small and bad. I felt as if, maybe, I did n't deserve forgiveness. How could any one forgive all the evil I've perpetrated? 
 
 But I kept my eyes closed and prayed. I heard the monitors slow, then the beeping stopped. I did n't know if I was still alive. I did n't know if I was dead. I could n't open my eyes. Then I felt a tug, something pulling me. I felt heat and warmth, but I did n't know where it came from. Then I heard it. I heard but not with sound or words. I heard it in myself. I heard what I had been seeking. `` You have been forgiven.'' I opened my eyes and I was there.
