[ CW ] Introduce an object that is not used later and leaves me wondering what it is .

I know you'll never read this, but I wanted to tell you anyway. Maybe writing it out will help. Who knows. 
 
 I remember the first time I saw you and held you in my arms. I laughed when you screamed at me. I ’ m sorry, it was just too funny; I was so happy, and you were so angry. You poor little thing. 
 
 When your mother left... well, you probably don ’ t even remember her. She didn ’ t stay long enough to watch you take your first steps. Still, I ’ ll bet you felt a little sad when I cheered you on at your soccer games with the other moms, or when I went with you to pick out a dress for the homecoming dance. Hah, I scared your poor date so much when he came to pick you up. He must have dropped that corsage five times trying to put it on your wrist with those shaky hands. You just sighed at me, gave me that look. 
 
 I loved that little look. I tried not to be a pushover, but if you really wanted something you knew I ’ d give in. It was too easy to say yes to you. You ’ d give me that big lopsided grin and I ’ d roll my eyes. I was just trying to hide my smile, but I bet you already knew that. 
 
 Today is your 18th birthday. Would have been. Is. 
 
 And I ’ m here with the newspaper and my coffee, staring at a package on the kitchen table. It ’ s not really that large, but I can ’ t seem to see around it. 
 
 It ’ s from your mother. 
 
 We never heard from her after the day when… but it does n't really matter now. I ’ m not sure what she would have sent after all these years, or what she was hoping to accomplish, but the box is addressed to you, so I guess she ’ s not aware. I ’ m going to bring it out with the rest of the trash after I finish my coffee. I think that ’ s what you would have done too, but I guess I can ’ t be sure. If not, I'm sorry. 
 
 Miss you. Love you, 
 
 Dad 

