[ WP ] You are the world 's best assassin , and you have never failed to carry out a contract.Tell me about the first time that you fail .

Killing someone is not easy. Its very hard to break a neck or stab through clothes and muscles into soft tissue, even with training. Even with perpetration. 
 
 Its better to be far away, with a bullet or a switch, watching but not present. Never present. 
 
 The first time - the first time I killed it was a cat. I hit it with my car. I must have broken its back. It was carrying a kitten. It died instantly, I think. The mother was not so lucky. 
 
 I had to beat it with a car jack. It cried like a child. It was too heavy to be effective and I almost missed the first time I swung... 
 
 When I got home I had to wash the jack in the sink. I thought about the kitten for days. It was too young, eyes closed and pink. The whole litter must be dead. I drove back the next day and looked in the woods but I never found them. 
 
 I never like to be close. It is odd when you can feel them fight so hard and then the sudden switch into... Nothing. The looseness, and whole body shuddering sigh that goes on and on and then stops. Their skin is still warm. There is an uncanniness. I once walked in a room and thought my daughter had died. 
 
 She was curled on the couch. I could not see her chest moving. When I picked her up she flopped and I almost dropped her. I shook her hand. She was awake in an instant. I could feel her little form tense with life. 
 
 I carried her to bed. 
 
 Then next day I went to work. I could n't do it. 
 
 The second day was the same, and the third. At the end of the week I resigned. 
 
 I had a bullet in my head before the hour was up. It was not instant. I could feel the heaviness, the lack of interest, the deep soft sinking. 
 
 I thought of that cat, of the car jack and the lonely woods. 
 I thought -
