[ WP ] It turns out that when you die , your soul is launched back in time , effectively becoming your own guardian angel .

It's cold today and I overslept. For Gods sake I'm an invisible force made of energy and I oversleep. I guarantee I forgot to put a jacket on today... this is the time I got that terrible flue that made my first kiss with Carrol all snotty and disgusting. Oh well I better fucking catch up. 
 
 I swoop, swing, glide, heck why do I put in the effort I know I can instantly appear next to myself with a blink of an eye. Maybe the monotony of my actions make me feel like I'm alive again. I see myself riding the bike along in the street, without my jacket... 
 
 Well nothing I can do now I guess I'll just stalk myself for while and see what today brings. Is today a school day? Yup, I'm following myself to school and I have no jacket on. Is it lunch time yet? 
 
 Smack! I slap my own living flesh with the force of a thousand hammers! Just my hand gosh what kind of monster do you think I am? Of course I ca n't really hurt myself, all the living me does is every so slightly twitch my hand and drop that sucker to the ground. No fish sticks today, those things get half the school sick. It looks like I'm annoying myself today. I see a scowl on my face that says `` What the fuck was that?!''. OH well! Onward and forward it's just another day self preservation! Are we home yet? 
 
 Home sweet home, nice and warm and I'm pretty sure I feel that cold creeping up right about now. I see myself heading to my room, up the stairs and to the bed. I guess this is as good a time as ever to check on mom. 
 
 I walk to her room and I notice the silence again. The silence only someone not alive can hear, no breath no steps nothing but silence when I'm alone. Outside of her door I hear her moving about and I peak through the doorway and see her making her bed. She's alone too with no husband around to help with kids. He left us too soon. 
 
 I hover around her and watch her movements. My loving mother just filling her days even on her days off. She cleans, cooks and even now just sitting on her bed looking through a photo book of the times past. I miss her so much, I can feel a tear come to my eye just being around her. 
 
 She turns to look at me and stares. I go wide eyed for a second as she looks on in confusion. I'm invisible now just energy and I forget they can sometimes feel me. She stands and starts to walk out. Where is she going? OH CRAP. 
 
 I snap straight to my room and what do I see? Your average everyday teenager under the sheets spanking it like no tomorrow! Dammit, does this count as child porn? I smack the walls and shake my bookshelves and hope to God that stops my living actions. I watch myself freak out and pull both hand out from under the covers. I'm drenched in sweat and I ca n't believe I just watched myself jerk it. Right as the mother swings the door open to see me. 
 
 `` Honey are you okay? Your drenched in sweat! You must have forgot your jacket, oh goodness you better not have caught a cold!'' She rushes to my bedside and touches my head. 
 
 `` I'm fine! It's nothing I can deal with a cold!'' I cry in shame, surprise? Maybe relief I was n't caught or even all three. 
 
 I look on watching myself relive my life and just hope I can make a change. As for today? Job well done. 
 

