[ WP ] `` I 've had my last meal 13 times , final words 29 times , and been to my funeral 9 times ... I think this may be the one I do n't walk away from ... ''

`` I've had my last meal 13 times, final words 29 times, and been to my own funeral 9 times... all things considered, not that many times over the span of my life. I'm surprised I can even remember those numbers. It's been so long since I've felt another human, or even another... anything, for that matter. I've been floating for so long, it's like I'm in a dream. A never ending dream of horror and anguish and sadness and boredom. Every second, I feel like my body's about to explode from the lack of air pressure and oxygen, but it never does. I curse the one who gave this this power, though I suppose I ca n't really blame anyone but myself. 
 
 I do n't even know how much time has passed. It's been at least a few hundred thousand years. Maybe more- I see the stars going out, one by one. There are n't many left now. It's the only thing I have left to keep my sanity. I remember long ago, in the ages where I could still fake my own death and keep on living a happy life, there used to be a thing children would do. They would count sheep. That's what I'm doing, just with more. Once the last one goes out, I'll be next. That was what He told me, at least. 
 
 `` You will die when loneliness is all you have, and existence is utterly black. When the lights in your heart, along with the sky, finally extinguish.'' 
 
 That's what he told me all those years ago. So I've been patiently waiting for that to pass for a while now. I think... pray, more like, that this will be the one I do n't walk away from.
