[ WP ] You live in a world where human beeings only fall in love once . If your partner dies you spend the rest of your life alone . You finally fell inn love three months ago at the age of 28 , and now your partner is dying of an incurable illness .

EDIT: also I kind of got caught up writing this and forgot the 3 months ago thing, so if you want me to I can delete this. I'm sorry, this is the first WP I've done. 
 
 
 Coming home to your spouse after a long day of work is usually something people look forward too. We all go through the same shit, day after day, but there's always that one person you can come home to that makes everything alright. 
 I wish I could hold on to that feeling forever, but with my wife slowly passing, I just ca n't seem to remember what it's like. 
 
 I walk into my house and I feel it, the same feeling you get when you go into a hospital. It's so quiet that you can hear all your thoughts, too many to be comfortable with. 
 
 `` Hi baby.'' My wife looked up at me as I came into the bedroom. She's so pale. So so pale. Her eyes are glossy and her hands are cold, I just want to hold them forever. She can barely mutter any words, but somehow she finds the strength to every time I come home. I knew she was closing in on her final days. I could feel the tears pooling around my eyes. 
 
 `` Alison, I love you. I'll always love you.'' I kissed her forehead, her blonde hair in little ringlets framing her forehead. 
 
 `` I love you too Teddy.'' She gave my hand a squeeze and I would n't dare let go. 
 I walk to the bathroom to grab a cold wash cloth, I blot her head as I silently say a prayer. 
 
 `` Please God, please God do n't take her now. You ca n't do this to me, please I'll do anything, please.'' 
 
 I've said this same prayer ever since she became sick, she does n't know I say them, I have to be strong for her. 
 
 `` Come lay with me baby'' she says with her eyes closed. 
 
 I crawl into bed with her, I ca n't take my eyes off her. The woman I have spent 14 years with is about to leave me. Every memory I have with her, will be just that. I hold her against me so tightly. 
 
 `` Teddy, do n't cry.'' 
 
 `` I'm not'' 
 
 `` I can hear you baby, everything's okay, we have to be strong.'' 
 
 Tears were now soaking my shirt, I could n't hold them back. Sometimes being brave is so hard, it's painful. I ache, my whole body hurts. It's like a weight is on my chest. I go to the bathroom to compose myself. I think to myself I can do this, I remind myself how strong my wife has been and I have to be the same. I need to be. I ca n't help but think about the day we got married. I had never seen someone so beautiful. I've never seen someone so full of life and joy, so full of ambition. Hearing her say those words `` I do'' was like something I've never experienced. I married the love of my entire life, my soul mate, and now she's leaving me and there's nothing I can do about it. 
 
 I walk back into the room. 
 
 `` Alison.'' 
 
 No answer 
 
 `` Alison?'' 
 
 Still, nothing. The room lay silent and I can feel something I've never felt before. A level of fear and anxiety that is not familiar to me. 
 
 `` Alison baby plea-'' 
 
 `` Teddy, sh, it's okay. It's time.'' 
 
 `` No baby no, please no, not right now I need you.'' I run over to her, and put my hand on her forehead. `` Please baby it's not time, it's not time, look at me baby please.'' I kissed her forehead, and she slightly opened her eyes, she smiled at me. 
 
 `` I'll always love you Theodore, you changed my life in ways you'll never know.'' 
 
 ``'No Alison! No! Please! It's not time, it's not fair please baby, I ca n't do this without you. I ca n't be strong it's so hard to be strong. Please I need you.'' I could barely get through my words, I could barely see in front of me. Tears clogged my eyes and my throat, I felt like I was drowning and would never stop. 
 
 `` Goodbye my love, we'll see each other again one day.'' She said drifting away into her words. I knew what had happened. That was it. The end. She was gone. 
 
 `` No Alison, no please, please baby'' I could n't control myself and threw my body over her, when my uncontrollable sobs, were interrupted by crying. 
 
 `` Daddy? What are you doing on mommy?'' 
 
 I had woken up my 4 year old, Anja, who had been asleep on the couch, it took everything in the universe to keep it together. 
 
 `` I was just tucking her in hunny, she's sleeping. Come on let's go in your bedroom.'' 
 
 I carried her in my arms and could n't help but notice her hair the the same ringlets as her mom. I tucked her into bed, and turned on the music box her mom had given her for her 1st birthday. I turned to cover my tears. 
 
 `` Are you crying daddy?'' 
 
 `` No hunny I'm fine.'' I tried to hide my face and climbed into the bed with her. `` Get some sleep sweetheart, you've got school in the morning'' 
 
 `` Do n't cry daddy, we have to be brave, that's what momma always tells me.'' 
 
 I looked at my daughter, an angel from my wife, and I realized I'll have her and not just a memory. I closed my eyes and kissed my daughter goodnight. 
 
 `` I love you'' 
 
 
 

