[ WP ] `` I 've had my last meal 13 times , final words 29 times , and been to my funeral 9 times ... I think this may be the one I do n't walk away from ... ''

“ Immortal never aging never dying living the dream only the dream never stops. Life ’ s a relentless march a suicide march that I ’ m stuck on forever. Talk about cruel and unusual but that rule wasn ’ t around then so that ’ s not a real argument. I ’ ve enjoyed my last meal 13 times the first is still the most famous you ’ ve seen the pictures don ’ t look at me like that. I know you have I ’ ve seen my own funeral 9 times and gotten to be above ground for 7 of those don ’ t ask about number 5 Germans am I right. I spent thousands of years hunting redemption from the Big man upstairs but never found it I ’ m not surprised with what I did the worst thing in the world. The big man sure does know how to punish people and what I did was personal the mob have the rule no families for a reason, wish I was around when they made it. I ’ ve said famous last words 29 times I ’ m the most quoted man in history gone to collage you ’ ve read my book ever gotten a shot your welcome. I ’ ve seen it all but I ’ m not walking away from this one because I am in control now you hear me! I control my destiny me! You said I feared this well I embrace it! I Cain, I Judas, I Machiavelli, I Dr. Francis Rynd am ready to meet you again. We used to talk you gave me a mark and let me wander eternal. Well I ’ m ready to meet in person see this I have a gun I can do what no one could. Not the Nazis when I fought in WWII! Not the British when I George Washington freed America! Not the South when I Abraham Lincoln freed a people! Only I Cain the unredeemable can do this you said I could end it well I will goodbye cruel world, the man upstairs made you but you can ’ t say I didn ’ t help. I ’ ve lived to long I ’ m sorry to all I ’ ve killed I ’ m sorry mother farther I was the original disappointing child I ’ m sorry brother I ’ ll see you soon. ” 
 So ends the journal of Cain the first killer of a fellow human.
