[ WP ] The day after a suicide attempt

I open my eyes and the first thing I notice is a tube down my throat. I try to fight the vent, but as fast as I try that a nurse appears next to my bed. “ Calm down dear, it ’ s going to be fine. I ’ m going to give you something extra to calm down. ” I see her hand reach for something but it is out of my line of vision. My hands are fixated to the bed. 
 I start to feel drowsy, it must be the effect of the ‘ something extra ’ the nurse was talking about. I am still awake but just kind of floating. I feel my parents next to my bed and I hear them. “ Why would she do something like this? She was fine, everything was fine. ” My mom is crying. 
 
 I only remember taking all the pills that I could find, I just wanted it all to end. I guess I didn ’ t succeed, I sure hope this is n't what heaven is like. The visite of my parent is short, I wouldn ’ t want them to know that I can hear them. 
 I know I must have disappointed them, I know that they don ’ t understand my motive. I just hope that they can forgive me. 
 
 The day passes, the nurses change shifts. The next nurse is talking about me to another nurse. “ Why would a young woman like her do this, I don ’ t understand what is wrong with the young people these days. ” I move my hand and try to open my eyes just to show her I can hear her. the other nurse points to me, probably to tell her to shut up. 
 
 My motive is unknown to all the people around me, I had just send a text to my parents, with the words “ I ’ m sorry, I loved you ”, They must have found me. I didn ’ t leave a note, I should have. Leaving my parents with no explanation was just stupid. They come visite me later on. My mom touches my hand and I move it as much as I can. The sedative makes is very difficult. I want to comfort her, I feel sorry for what I have done. 
 
 That evening I feel a lot of movement around me and I feel a little weird. I hear them talking. “ Her heart is working too hard, we started the right medication, all we can do is wait. We should probably call her parents, they need to be here. ” I can hear in his voice that this is me starting to check out.
