[ CW ] We now live in a dictatorship where the evil dictator has banned the letter `` E. '' Tell of how this came to be .

I must find my thrills in things that, until now, I was too ignorant to worship. Crisp air. Warm sunlight on my arms and torso. Still nights. Though, such luxurious things do not last. I think about my last'outdoor hours' fondly. I can not go outdoors again for six months ( my son brought about this sanction whilst walking too far away from our convoy ). It's almost humorous to think that initially I had faith that His dynasty would lift our country from dusk and bring us into light, into growth, up to par with all surrounding nations. But His laws, His limitations - His dynasty has brought about nothing but a rapid fall into obscurity. 
 
 Most of us nowadays `` talk'' in basic, primal mumbling. Waving hands. Signaling wildly. It's just a mandatory, arbitrary limitation - to affirm our social positions. I am low. I am subhuman. I lay no claim to having a right to normal communication, or to talking. At all. Nobody can - nobody but Him. His mind casts a shadow upon our country, upon us. God is a work of fiction and His dominion is all that is important in this world. This is axiom. No human that is not Him can sustain any form of individuality. I would n't actually say I'm `` human'' at all now. According to His law, I am filth. I am an animal. I am dust. I am nothing. 
 
 This I know. This is all I know. This is all my son will know. Our King's abdication is not in sight on any horizon. I can not allow such ludicrous notions in my thoughts. And so I go on. I can not *not* go on. That is simply not an option, though in my soul's bottommost abyss, I wish it was. 
 
 ( i feel compelled to edit this and say that holy jesus fuck this took me way too long and left me with an undying gratitude for `` E'' s existence )
