[ WP ] You have a large number in your head , it 's counting down . What happens when it reaches zero ?

I do n't remember when I started counting down, but the number was always in my head. 
 
 Once every ten minutes, or whenever I remembered, I'd lower the number by one. Assigning numbers helped me remember, and it helped me forget. 
 
 Ten million I met my wife, five million she met her husband. Three million I met the judge, one million I was free. You know how it goes. 
 
 I sit on my porch, and it strikes me that my number is twelve. Twelve. That's one hell of a number. A dozen. If I ate an egg every number, I'd have eaten a dozen eggs. That sounds obvious when I say it like that, does n't it? 
 
 So I bought a dozen eggs. Eleven, ten, nine, eight. The numbers count down, the box empties. I think of how different ten million is to five. God it's been as long since she left to now as the duration of our life together. 
 
 Seven, six, five, four. These eggs taste good. I'm eating them raw. What's the point of wasting time? 
 
 Three, two, one. The last egg is gone, I wait patiently, and then zero hits. 
 
 And nothing happens. And nothing ever will happen to me again. And I realise I will never have another ten million, another five million, another three, another one, or even another dozen. 
 
 I am alone. I was alone with my counting, and I am alone without.
