[ WP ] Everything is the same except for one thing . Suicide hotlines give advice to people to help kill themselves instead of pushing them away from it .

`` Dedicate yourself to an idea.'' 
 
 That was the line I'd heard a dozen times or more. Calling up several times a week. At the bottom of the barrel, stuck at the depths with all those hopeless cases and lonely hearts that welcomed despair. Thinking there was no real help for us. 
 
 At least that's what we had thought. 
 
 Maybe I'm just stubborn at heart. More likely, I was just that little bit too hopeful. But I had sought help, many times, as so many others have before me, when I really started to think that all the drugs, well-wishes and forced motivation had left me in the same place I always was. And, needing something to latch on to, I'd noticed this same phrase from all those stangers I had seen at the meetings. 
 
 `` Dedicate yourself to an idea.'' 
 
 Always the same story. What followed was a rhetoric of best intentions and terrible consequence in what you could n't help but feel in your heart was the right thing to do. But it was n't until I caught that same phrase over again. Parroted like a line from a self-help book or a motivational speech. I could n't help but wonder about it. 
 
 Always stated with a steady voice. Always. A compassionate face staring at you, as if the person saying it had no better intention than that what they were saying was good and right and would help all the people they talked to like it was the Lord's work. Most of them probably believing what they were saying was verse and scripture. 
 
 And I would think, `` Nah. You've had a rough time. That's only natural to believe you're beyond help.'' 
 
 But I had reached out. 
 
 To those friends I'd made in the lonely, nearly forgotten corners of community centres and town halls throughout the city. Always the same line. Sometimes, even, the same faces. 
 
 And, then, we had gotten to thinking. 
 
 Maybe there's something more to it. That one phrase, repeated over and over. Maybe all these volunteers and well-wishers and bleeding hearts were n't what they made out to be. That there was something more. Something darker and more sinister, covered up by the background noise of good intentions. 
 `` Dedicate yourself to an idea.'' 
 
 Misguided or not, we've dedicated ourselves to an idea. Maybe this was somehow the intention all along. Regardless, we're dedicated now.
