[ WP ] A new drug let 's you live a lifetime in one dream

I do n't want to wake up. I do n't want to close my eyes and never see the woman that I love again. I stare deep into her soul. Tears are streaming down her beautiful face as she caresses my withering hand, now riddled with liver spots and wrinkles. The doctors have taken the drips and tubes out now. I have maybe a minute left. 
 
 How am I going to go back now? I've lived a life. An entire fucking life. And it kills me in so many ways that the one person worth living for is an elaborate fantasy concocted in the mind of some reckless teenager. I've lived to the ripe age of 73, and in moments, I'll find myself back there. With that stupid fucking seventeen year old burnout. Lying on the ground in some grotty basement with his'friends'. Just chasing the next high.'Oh weed is n't cutting it anymore? Try Nova!', they said. It's incredible, they promised. 
 
 Fuck Nova. Fuck drugs. Fuck everything. I've opened a door that I'll never be able to close. The one thing I desire, so tantalisingly close and yet so far away. I can never replace her. Goodbye, Amanda, my love.
