[ WP ] The day after a suicide attempt


 `` Yes, I did try to commit suicide yesterday. 
 
 Here's why: Everything seemed to be weighing me down. As you know- I lost my girlfriend of 2 years. She, the person who was dearest to me, decided to shoot me in the heart and cheat on me. College already seems to be going downhill and I have n't even started! I do n't even know what I want to do in my life! My friends have all left me, ignored me and I felt so alone. Plus, I just could n't talk to you about this kind of thing... and I'm ashamed to say that. It also seemed like the darkness was just going to consume me at some point, so I decided to be the person who was able to choose his own fate before his inner darkness took over. 
 
 So I tied that noose tighter than the most skilled sailor's knot, attached it to the banister, dropped it around my neck, and stepped up on the chair. And I jumped, oh did I jump. I jumped of that chair like it was the largest cliff in the world. 
 
 However, once I jumped, in the split second of thinking I had, I realized that I had made the wrong decision. All of my problems in life could have been fixed- I could find a new girl, and one who I mean THE WORLD to at that! College is supposed to be the best years of our lives and I was getting depressed over it before I had even left home! My friends, well past friends now, obviously were n't the people I needed in my life if they could n't be there for me in my time of need! In fact, I'm going to make some new friends, real friends, friends who will care for me! And as for the darkness, it seemed to disappear. There was just one gleaning problem, I had just jumped off a chair with a noose around my neck and I was going to die..... 
 
 So I thank God, or luck, or whatever diety made that banister break and break loudly enough that our neighbor called 911. The paramedics found me unconscious and revived me...... It's... It's the only reason I'm still alive. The only reason I have a new lease on life. 
 
 So yes Mom and Dad, I did try to kill myself yesterday. However, I promise you will never have to worry about that EVER again... And as for these bruises around my neck, I'll proudly wear them as battle scars until they fade.'' 

