[ WP ] A love story about a girl/boy who does n't want to be in love .

He was looking at her again, smiling with his eyes. He started doing that a few days ago when she gave him a few compliments to lift up his morale. He was frustrated that he was not doing so good at basketball because of his height. And she just kinda snapped: `` You are smart, not bad looking and you have a bloody motorcycle. It really does not matter if you are not good at basketball. You can not have them all, you know? `` 
 
 
 He was shocked for a moment, and looking at her like nobody ever said that to him before. Short time later, he started confiding in her. He started getting too close. She hated that. She knew what that might lead to. And indeed he was a great guy. There was only one problem. Two problems actually. He was 6 years younger than her. She did not look her age and they had a lot in common, but still the age difference bothered her a lot. And it was not about society norms, or what their friends would say. It was about him, using her to become a man and then dumping her in order to prove his manhood to a younger woman. It happened before, with somebody else, and she almost killed herself after he left. And she was n't sure she could get used to this, meaning, living every moment with a man as it might be the last one because one day without any warning it will be the last one. 
 
 
 The second problem was that, after the previous breakup she decided to focus on her carrier. And she had a full time and a part time job. And some health problems which needed weekly analysis and treatment. And she had a cat. And the cat needed attention too. She could not fit a relationship in her schedule. And she definitely did not need the insomnia caused by her missing him and wishing he would sleep by her side. And there was the younger colleague with blue eyes and big tits. She was cuddling up to him like a cat to its owner. Men are weak you know, and younger girls are easier to impress. He might choose the easy way. 
 
 
 How did she allowed this this to happen? How did she allowed herself to fall in love with him? He was a man-child who will not grow up until he will be 35 at least. And she wanted a partner which would be as smart and evolved professionally as she was. Not this shy man-child with a passion for doves and motorcycles. Yes, freaking doves. He is taking care of them and breeding them for contests. And she had a cat. This was destined to be a failure since before even beginning. So, rationally thinking, nothing was even started and you can not have an appetite for something you never tasted right? But she was yearning for him, dreaming about him, missing him. And hating the younger colleague, although she was a really nice and troubled girl. And maybe she needed him more than she did. And maybe she could give him more attention and love than she could. 
 
 So obviously, falling in love was not an option. And he knew nothing about what she felt, so there was no harm done. Except to her. So she did the best she could. She made an appointment with a psychologist to learn how to control her feelings and making them go away.
