[ WP ] Write the most lovable character possible , then kill them in the most heartbreaking way .

She never saw herself the way I saw her. 
 
 God, was she beautiful. In a broken way, she was so beautiful. She had been used, criticized, beaten down, and made to believe she was worthless. She was ashamed of who she was yet she was so painfully honest. 
 
 She was afraid of being rejected for the mistakes she had made but those never mattered to me. 
 
 I knew that she was scared. She had been through a lot before I found her and she was terrified of getting close to someone again. I do n't know what I did to deserve it, but she opened up to me. She shared with me her fears and insecurities along with her wildest dreams and aspirations. 
 
 She loved me. She loved me and I knew it. I knew it in the way that you know your name. She did n't just love, she declared love. And she had so many different ways of saying it too. I always admired that about her. She had a beautiful way with words and she could find a thousand ways to profess her love. I knew it though. I did n't need her to tell me. I could just feel it. 
 
 Every time we touched it was a sigh of relief. Like we were where we belonged. She had become the greatest part of my being. 
 
 I was going to give her the world. She was my happiness and her smile is what I fed on. The way she laughed was so genuine and sweet, you could n't help but laugh with her. And she was always laughing. I ca n't remember a time that we were together and we did n't laugh. 
 
 She had the strangest, craziest, most beautiful mind. She did everything with such passion and intensity. I used to watch her when we were together. She had so many different expressions and I loved watching them dance across her face while I tried to figure out what they meant. 
 
 She was so open with me and I knew I could ask her anything, but she kept certain things to herself and I could never bring myself to ask her about them. There were times where she would look troubled, lost in her thoughts. As soon as she noticed I was looking though, that beautiful smile would surface and she would go back to normal. 
 
 I love her so much. She came to me broken and I tried so hard to put her back together. I thought she was happy. She always talked about how happy I made her and how she could n't wait for our future together. We made so many plans. 
 
 `` My love, 
 You are the most incredible man I know. You have accepted me despite all of my flaws and I will never be able to repay you for that. To love you has been a privilege and to be loved by you has truly been a blessing. I can not express to you how appreciative I am of you, for you have always respected me and made me feel comfortable in my own skin. Because of you, I know that I am beautiful. I FEEL beautiful. No one has ever had an effect on me quite like you. Unfortunately, I have been trapped in my own mind lately. It seems as if they do n't like me the way you do. They tell me that I'm only going to hurt you, that I will never be good enough for you. At first they whispered it, but now they are screaming at me. I think they might be right. I will never be as good as you. I try to be open with you and show my love that way, but they keep telling me that I'm doing it wrong. The noise is deafening. I ca n't take it anymore. Make it stop. Please! Why did n't you ever help me?! I know this is n't your fault. You've never been anything but good to me. You've treated me like a princess since the beginning. Something is n't right though. Something with me. I'm afraid I ca n't be fixed and I can feel it getting worse. It's taking over. I love you. Please do n't ever forget that I love you. I have to do this though because I do n't want them to hurt you. I have to stop them. It will be okay though. We can be happy once they're gone. I can fix this. 
 ~Forever'' 
 
 `` Baby, 
 Everyone keeps telling me to move on but I ca n't. I think of you always. I hear you laughing, I see you dancing around my room, you're still here are n't you? I rub my eyes but you're still standing there smiling at me with that beautiful smile of yours. I reach out to touch you but I ca n't. You are always out of reach. What I would n't give to hold you again. To kiss you. To run my fingers through your hair as you sleep on my chest. Why did you leave me baby? You are my everything. My better half. I try to be functional, to do what's expected of me, but I ca n't do it anymore. I ca n't pretend like I am not broken, wandering around this life that has no meaning since you left me. I am nothing without you and I can not take one more minute of this miserable life in which you are only alive in my memories. I'm on my way baby, you do n't have to wait any longer. We can finally be together in a world free of our pain. 
 XO''
