[ CW ] End the story with `` And the home became a house ; an empty shell of what it once was . ''

As we huddled together in warmth of the sex we just experienced she talked about how we first met. I remember that day... It was three years ago. I was at a small get together with some friends and some people I did n't know. I was n't a huge social branch, neither were my friends; the occasion of the night was the DVD release of Hitch Hikers Guide to the Galaxy. It was n't something you would see any girls at... But my buddy had met a girl in the library she had come over, she also invited a friend. I remember the first time I saw her, standing there, she was cute. She was wearing a skirt, had long messy dirty blond hair, her sweater was slightly to big for her, and she was wearing converse. I was staring at her, hoping she would n't notice me.... But as our eyes met she, she smiled. Her smile was moving. The smile that sets your heart ablaze, the smile that your rarely see the first time meeting someone. I remember smiling back, which I rarely do; my smile was crooked, my knees were bent, I often slouched, I bit my finger nails, and I picked my nose when I was hoping no one was looking. I was n't the most confident person, I certainly would n't be the one to put myself up to talking to her so I continued to hide on the other side of the room; near the snacks. As the movie started, everyone engaged with it. I stood, awkwardly, near the edge of the couch hovering over everyone. Every other scene that took place my eyes would slowly wonder to this woman, this girl that I thought was so beautiful. Her laugh was great to watch, it filled me with joy seeing her smile. People would poke fun at her, she snorted when she laughed, but I loved it. 
 
 As the movie started to slow down for a second I made my way back to the snacks, I was slightly hungry. Someones hand had moved for the grapes, and I followed the arm from the fingers up to the head, it was her. I was in awe, speechless, as she stared at me and smiled. I was so nervous as I a war waged within my head about saying something, but something was different this time. I uttered something, I do n't know what I said... But I said something. My mind was cracking into pieces, I messed up. Conflicted I turned back to the food, my heart sinking. 
 
 When suddenly I heard a beautiful voice speak out, `` I'm good, how are you?'' I must have not messed up! Picking my heart up I dusted it off. Then I said back, `` I'm great, my friend invited me over. I like this movie, and the book was great too. How's the movie for you?'' She told me about how she had never read the book, I stared into her eyes. She also told me how she was liking the movie and how she liked the jokes, I still stared into her eyes. To be honest I can hardly remember our conversation, I was so hypnotize by her eyes, and her smile that I could n't recall a single thing I laughed at or she said. But by the end of the night I somehow ended with a new number in my phone,'Daph.' I did n't know if I would ever talk to her again, I was n't exactly the one to seek another person out. 
 
 But she seemed to be the person who would seek me out. She started texting me, firting with me. I was a better texter than I was talker, I could write anything but say nothing. She started trying to get me to come places with her, I did, it was fun. We often would watch movies, we would watch anything together; from stuff like Rocky Horrer Picture Show, Spirited Away, X-Men, Up, I am Legend, and Star Wars. We both loved movies, and we both seemed to like each others company a lot. 
 
 After about a two months of watching movies alone together, we kissed. It was pretty weird, both our first kisses, but we connected. After that things started moving. We started moving; holding hands, hugging, snuggling, and kissing for hours. Every time I kiss her till this day connects my heart with hers, its a feeling that I had never had, and a feeling that would never leave me. I was in love, she was in love, but we still danced around the term love. Its not that we did n't know what we were doing, it was just so hard to say that word to someone for the first time. But it started sneak out of our mouths here and there. 
 
 About six months into our relationship, we were watching Lord of the Rings. We were both huddled into a tent the I had set up in my living room. It was romantic, or silly but fun. I loved holding her next to me. She would hug me, make me feel no fear. We would kiss every hour, but the movies were so great that most of the time spent was spent hugging, and with our eyes glued to the television screen. As the first movie came to an end I lifted by body on top of hers, kissing her deeply. The was the closest I had gotten to a sexual adventure, and the closest she had gotten to an adventure of her own. As we slid our pants off we had no clue what we were doing... I did n't have protection, I never needed it before. So we stopped, but wanted to continue. I needed to, we needed to. 
 
 I threw on some pants, and I ran to the nearest store. She stayed in the tent, keeping our bed warm and safe. I bought my first box of condoms, and not the last box I would buy. It was awkward at first, I felt like peoples eyes were on me as I stepped up to the plate. I pulled out my wallet and threw the sides open. I saw my total and waited for my change, I did n't want the lose change, I just wanted my bills and my box. I felt so cool... I was about to lose my virginity to a girl, and I was about to take her virginity. I felt like I was someone from a movie, the cool guy I wish I was. They guy with the leather coat, or Howl from Howls Moving Castle. It was magic. 
 
 As I entered the room she looked excited. We had no experience doing this and it might have been the weirdest most awkward thing we had ever done together. Looking back at it, it was sad... I entered her, and she was really liking it I hope? I know it felt great for me, but I finished in about 30 seconds. I know I was n't an Olympic athlete when it came to sex, but could n't I do a little better than that? 
 
 The night moved on, we watched the rest of the movies and then we fell asleep talking about how great the adventures were, while embracing each other tightly. Even if it was n't the best performance I felt as if we were closer. But I woke up to nothing, no one there. I was empty armed, and I felt so lonely. I just sat up thinking, if It was because of my poor performance. It was a little awkward after, I admit. But it was also kinda fun. While my mind was nervously racing to figure out my wrong doing, she walked in. And I stopped thinking... She had the smile, the smile I first saw, the smile I loved, and the smile that threw my fears and thoughts away. 
 
 After that everything started moving so fast. We were doing it like bunnies, literally. On some days we would do it twice a day, I was getting pretty good, or so I thought. She moved in with me and everything was great. She was my best friend, and I was hers. She was what I wanted to do at the end of the day. She was who I wanted to fall asleep with. She was everything to me; we would study and dream together, we both wanted to travel, neither of us wanted kids, and we both wanted to own a business of some type at some point. Doors started to open for me, I started to come out of my shell and I have her to thank. She was my everything. 
 
 That brings us to this day, as we layed in bed no worries in the world. We had never fought, or even got tired of each other. It was strange being so close to someone. I had never ever been this close to anyone. I never wanted to lose her. I thanked her for my success, she was the reason in my mind I was successful. She believed in me... 
 
 But as she spoke she sounded sad, bringing me through the days of our relationship. Bring me to all the worriless, fun, great times we had. Our relationship was prefect. That's when she told me, `` I'm moving on.'' I broke inside. I was scared, sad, lonely. All within that one instance. She continued her thoughts out loud. Telling me how she needed to find herself. All I could think about was how I went wrong, what was wrong with me. My thoughts made me sadder and sadder. But they settled at the bottom, with my heart. The bottom of my soul where all I could squeak to my brain was, `` I lost my best friend, and my soul mate.'' She continued telling me how it was n't my fault, I did n't hear it, I just cried inside. As she got up to leave, she had already packed her things... I did n't see the signs. I hugged her good bye, and she left. 
 
 It was empty in the house, I was n't around. She took my soul with her. I stopped going out. People did n't see me as much. I kept my job, but was only doing the required work. Without her I was nothing. Without her my heart was empty. With out her my house was just a bunch of furniture wrapped in air. She left me, she was my best friend, and my soul mate. I had nothing without her, and the home became a house; an empty shell of what it once was...
