[ cw ] write about the strangest/scariest/saddest dream you 've ever had in less than 200 words .


 I remember that things were n't going too good at the time. That I kept telling myself that things fell apart faster than they came together. So I worked hard and I put in my hours, telling myself that if things did n't work out then maybe I could buy a gun next month. Swear to God, simple as that. So I kept going till my eyes were melting and I kept going till this one night where I could n't go to sleep. I closed my eyes, my body buzzed and I rose up and I saw myself. My goddamn husk. I was n't asleep, I saw everything and I saw what I wanted but could n't have. What a strange time that was, to be suspended in liquid. Then the alarm came on and my eyes blazed brighter than they had any right to and my mouth clenched harder than it should have. My hand could n't stop searching for that gun I wanted to put in my mouth and my brain kept telling me that I should be sad that I could n't find it.
