[ WP ] Everyone has a reaper . The further away it is , the longer you have left to live . Every day it inches a little bit closer , but it is always there . Except yours , which disappeared three weeks ago

I saw my reaper once. I was 17 years old and suicidal. My reaper was beautiful. She had long dark hair, just a bit curly and dressed as you would if you were a member of the Addams family. It was the moment when I saw there were parts of the world that fought beside you. Parts of the Universe that forever fought when you slept. 
 
 The thing I remember was that my reaper had an intensity, She had a desperation that I've never seen before or since. Some people talk about their guardian angels as beings that look out for you. I met mine. He did n't particularly care for the job. 
 
 My reaper, however she fought for me. She fought to be beside me. There was a maniacal light in her eyes when she fought to be near me. To be near me. Nobody has done that before or since. 
 
 I was 17 that day and I almost jumped. I saw my reaper fight as hard as she could to be there at my fall. To make sure that she was there at the end of my Journey. It was the moment I decided to live. She would have to wait for me. I could n't go to her a disappointment. I could n't have all that trouble wasted on me. When I die I will go to her worthy of being striven for. 
 
 That day she disappeared. I stepped back. Love will wait. Many times since then I've wanted to go to her. To see beauty again. But each time she is n't there to greet me. I must do more. 
 
 I must be more. 
 
 She's not fighting for me anymore. 
 
 I must have her back, and to do that I need to live in such a way that she will be there to greet me when I lay down that final night. I will not go to my love a disappointment. I will not give her forever with a man who would n't be his best for someone that would fight that hard. 
 
 She's the reason to get up in the morning and the reason to lay down at night. I will make myself the type of person that I would journey with so that when at last we meet again she can say 
 
 `` Where have you been?'' 
 
 and I can say 
 
 `` I have been preparing myself for you.'' 
 
 and when we journey from this world together we will be ready for the next.
