[ WP ] Man with an emotional disorder sees everything as flat and lifeless

Everything is monotony monotony monotony everything is the same as it's always been and will ever be 
 
 i look and i see colors everywhere tailored to twist my mind i see too much and i see nothing i want to scream and scream and scream 
 
 i tell my friends to look away but they never stop who are they but clones clones clones duplicates of duplicates there are billions all the same 
 
 the street corner where i live has brothers and sisters in other cities all the same always the same my home is nothing but a remix of the same thing 
 
 the sounds i hear can never be different always the same always made by the same people always screaming and screaming for attention 
 
 the women are always prude and the men are always monsters always trying to make fetuses instead of friends never different i came from them just like you did 
 
 half of me is an idiot and half of me is a prick same as everyone creatures of grand mass production the world is flat flat flat like cement you ca n't build on like a piece of paper you ca n't write on like a pillow you ca n't sleep on 
 
 they tell me to take my pills but how can i they make the world big i like the world small without them i can see! i can see! if i take them the world seems nice nice nice 
 
 the pills are liars arrogant liars the world is flat and pharmaceuticals can only change my perspective my insignificant perspective that never feels i never cry myself to sleep or laugh or smile or feel pain life is perfectly flawed so i hide hide hide behind drinks behind my fake life a life lived by so many others 
 
 i work at the end of the world every day for the entirety of my existence who is the crazy one? i know you live this life too i know everyone is like me everyone wants to break *free* 
 
 the governments are always the same same same like from a dystopia always controlling and overbearing like your drunken father coming to get you again you ca n't run and so i ask what is your say? what do you say? what can you say? who can listen? who wants to listen? is it you listening to yourself again and again and again? would you notice if i repeated a line would you even notice? 
 
 everything is monotony monotony monotony everything is the same as it's always been and will ever be 
 
 
 

