[ WP ] A new drug let 's you live a lifetime in one dream

Depression and sadness, the darkness of my thoughts pervade all my hours. There have been numerous times where I sit there and contemplate suicide, but never have the guts to go through with it. During one of my low points, I was staring blankly at the late night infomercials when it came on: Prolax, the new wonder drug. It sounded too good to be true, take it before you sleep and you'll dream of an entire lifetime. Instantly I knew I wanted to try this, maybe this would be my escape, maybe this would give me the solution to my despair. I called the 800 number and they sent me my free trial. It arrived within days and I hurried back up the stairs to my apartment to seek release. 
 
 It happened within minutes of taking the drug, dreams. I know everyone has dreams they remember vividly or can recall easily, these dreams were both of those things and more. It was n't as if you were dreaming of another life, that WAS your life. That first night I slept better than I had in years, no nightmares or night terrors, just beautiful, comforting dreams of a happy life. I remember waking up that first morning, reaching up to wipe the sleep from my eyes and finding the moist tears of joy tinged with sadness rolling down my face. I knew from just that free trial pill that I had to have more, I grabbed the phone and redialed the number, ordering a 6 months supply with next day shipping. 
 
 After this point, the next few months become a haze: work, eat, dream. It was n't even sleep to me anymore, it was just dream. I did n't care about the rest for my body, I just wanted that escape, that release from reality. For those few months, the nights were bliss, dreams of happiness, love, family, friends, and even loss ( you learn to recognize the beauty in loss after you've lived several lifetimes ). But then about the start of the fourth month, I began to notice a change. 
 
 Ever so slightly, my dreams and the life I was living in them started to develop a darkness. At first it was just a feeling, like the dark sky surrounding a vibrant sunset. Then things began to happen that were not what I wanted in my dream lives, a tragic accident here, a divorce there, normal everyday things, but not the sort I wanted in my alternate reality. Still, it was better than my current life, so I continued with the drug and the dreams but still they went darker. 
 
 Murder, betrayal, malice, these are the sort of things that began to control and pervade my dreams. I hated them now, so I tried to wean myself off of the pills ( They had become a habit at this point ). At first this seemed to work and the dreams stopped, but then about a week after taking my last one, it happened. A vivid life dream with no pills, it was terrifying. The dream was torture, nothing of the original pleasantness remained. These dreams were completely dark and ominous, worse than anything I could have ever thought of prior to experiencing it firsthand. 
 
 I ca n't take it anymore, once I thought that I would never be able to kill myself but Prolax changed that. So if you're reading this note, then you obviously found my body and I did in fact go through with it. I finally was able to reach the peace that I craved for so long. Forgive me for the trouble I may have caused, but I'm free now, I'm free.........
