[ wp ] after dying god informs you that hell is a myth , and `` everyone sins , its ok '' . instead the dead are sorted into six `` houses of heaven '' based on the sins they chose .

SLOTH 
 
 I gripped my hair and tore into my scalp with my nails. The pain could n't wake me from this terror I've willingly walked into. All my life I had wanted everything to stay the same, to stay placid and still. But now, all I had wanted was change. Yet with this privileged life within the walls, there was no means of escape. There were no days or spans of time. There were no voices or thoughts to dismiss besides my own. At first, I felt that I was given peace. I could finally receive the rest I so desperately desired. But now, I found the truth: 
 
 My body lay to rest on earth, given the comfort from thought and obligation; yet here was my mind in heaven -- a fire that I could not extinguish. 
 
 LUST 
 
 My realization was not immediate, instead being a slow churning of thought until it solidified into something concrete. 
 
 I sat at the foot of our bed and studied the shapes around me as if for the last time, though I knew I would wake up to it again and again like before. The room was serene and inviting, the light always surrounding my body with a false warmth. The bed was large and pillowed beyond necessity, and the comforter swallowed any shape as you sank into it, begging you never to leave its embrace. A hint of nutmeg and cinnamon lingered, wafting in from somewhere distant. Coupled with a woman, whose beauty knew no bounds and company that never faltered, it was my paradise. 
 
 As the unseen days passed turned into weeks, from weeks into months, my will began to falter. Her gasps were n't gratifying, the summits sank from euphoria to shame -- there was nothing of benefit to this repetition. I felt her hands slither and coil from behind my back, caressing my chest as her lips pressed into my neck. Her fingers were tracing my shoulders, and I knew this was a silent plead to turn and face her. 
 
 However, today, her hollow pleadings were left unanswered.
