[ WP ] You 're about to say a speech at your best friend 's wedding . You 're in love with his new wife .

My hands are shaking. No matter what I try they wo n't bloody stop. I've already had a warning stare from my girlfriend about the number of times I've drained my glass of wine. Screw her! I'll drink what I like! Rachel's dad has nearly finished his speech. It'll be mine any minute now. 
 
 It was n't supposed to be like this. It was supposed to be me standing there saying `` I do''. Instead it was me organising the stag. Me sorting the seating. Me passing them the ring. This is not how is was supposed to be. This... this... charade is a massive lie! 
 
 She looks so pretty, so composed. How is she so calm? How the hell is she laughing? We've been having an affair for months! She was going to tell him it was over, but there was always a reason why it was the wrong time. We had sex yesterday for Christ's sake! The god damn eve of her wedding and she would n't put a stop what we have. What we had. She said she loved me and now she wo n't even look me in the eye. I loved her. I do love her. She is the most perfect part of my life. She makes me feel like nothing else matters, like everything I need is in one person. 
 
 Why is everyone staring at me?
