[ WP ] Ten years ago , you found an online service for delayed email , you decided to send one to yourself to this exact date . You reply for the sake of it , your younger self replies back , just once ...

I sort of remember what my email was. 
 This email service promised that they would store my piece of text and send them via their servers, to any date in the future. It was free, and everyone was doing in it. So I said what the heck. 
 Yeah, today I finally got it. 
 
 I wanted to tell my future self about the things that I liked, the songs that I had loved back then. 
 But I also had to tell myself that somehow I knew, that ten years from then, I would be alright. No more anxiety, no more depression. 
 
 I also remember sending myself a small chunk of japanese text, as I was studying it back then. I was sure I would be fluent and advanced when the email would reach me, perhaps even living abroad. Now that I see it, it really does n't make sense. It was a bad translation taken from an old translator service called babelfish. 
 
 I remember how I had written, how my future girlfriend would be like. I never really described her physically, just said to myself that she was beautiful and that I was a lucky man in the future. That I never really doubted myself. 
 
 I really was hopeful for my future. I longed for it. I was only sixteen back then. 
 
 I really wish I could reply to my younger self. I really want to tell him that he does n't need to be living in the state that he is. That he will meet three of the best friends in the entire world soon enough, even if they do n't seem like it at first. 
 
 I want to tell him the truth, I... Maybe I need to reply to myself. 
 
 So let me compose a new email, using the same service. What would I say to myself ten years ago? 
 
 Hello, silentsight. 
 I know how you're feeling right now. I know that you have the need to tell me how your world was. I just want to tell you that, we make it all right. 
 You were right, my girlfriend is beautiful. I never really imagined myself with anyone like her, I can hardly believe it still. 
 We make it ok in school. Yes, with a few hardships along the way... But somehow, I ended up where I belonged. You always liked explaining things and discovering how things worked in the world. You had a belief that perhaps, if you understood enough of physics, chemistry, sociology, psychology, engineering... you could learn how to ascend... 
 
 You really wanted to escape your world. Avoid everyone and everybody around you. You invented all these worlds, better and more interesting than yours. Everyday, when you walked to school, it would be the best part of your day. Because you would get to live and drift into your worlds. Remember the hero story? All the inventions you had in your mind? The flying car, the robots, the holographic projectors? 
 I wanted to really replay to you, because I need to tell you. 
 
 The stories have become real. 
 I am working on an engineering enterprise that automates everything, from cars to car making, robots... I specialize in 3D computing and projectors. Maybe the cars ca n't fly yet, but let me tell you, everything that I do, is really exciting. 
 You also write stories. All those that you remember from ten years ago, they have been escaping into words. You are pretty creative, let me tell you. 
 
 If there is anyone that you will ever get to hear in the world, I hope that at least you're paying attention to this email. 
 You are a good person, you have a good nature. Stop comparing yourself to the others, because that will only keep getting you deeper into your depression. It will also hinder your creativity, your intelligence. 
 When you come to the point where you have to choose to stay or quit, please stay. Endure and persevere, there will be a reward, I promise you. 
 What you're studying is really your passion, you can say you're just lazy, but in reality, you're just depressed. 
 
 It's your rejection you see. A general rejection that you put unto yourself. You believe everyone in the world will reject you, so you reject others the same way. You develop this antisocial behavior towards the world, and trust me, your friends and parents wo n't appreciate it. 
 I would like to tell you how to live your life smiling, walking while always looking ahead instead of to your feet. But you have to discover it yourself. You have to learn how to evolve on your own. 
 I did, and I could n't be happier. Well, at least as of this moment. I'm sure I will keep growing as we get older. 
 
 Yes, you do learn to speak Japanese. It's a long way, but you will use it in ways you've never imagined. 
 I learned to forgive myself and others, I know that this is hard to understand with only written words. You have to experience it, and first, you have to realize of everyone that you've harmed. 
 Especially, the harm we've made to ourselves. 
 
 It's not your fault. It never was. 
 You were programmed that way, to feel rejected. Be it by unfair genetics, by bullying, but most of all, because you always let yourself take it personally. 
 
 You really are a funny person, a great person that loves helping others. You are loving, and creative. Your projects will help so many, believe me. But most of all, believe yourself. 
 
 I pressed reply, and I guess I did n't hope anything would come of it. 
 But I woke up the next morning feeling great about myself. 
 
 Surprisingly, I got a small reply back. 
 
 `` I guess I always knew, but never wanted to do anything about it. Thank you, I will persevere. `` 
 
 Yeah, I remembered. I never had been able to explain it, but I knew what I had to do when I got that email of myself. I never told anyone. 
 I am who I am because I persevered, I guess this is weird but I felt like I had to tell my story. To me it was all very intuitive. 
 
 I wonder if I can send an email to my future self now? Maybe I just do n't need it anymore. 

