[ WP ] Today you realize the real reason why the earth is the way it is . Its because you long back you forgot you were the one who created it in the first place .

I was always described as someone who did n't think things though, I always go about things in the most convoluted way possible. But I do n't care what others thought about me, in my current situation how could I. I am in crippling debt from my student loans, I got this debt to get a good job, a career. But this debt forced me to work a dead end job. I could put more effort in finding a job, its been hard, some say impossible, but all I have to do is try. But working this full time job to cover the cost of school really doesmt leave me with any time at all. Oh well I just need to look the bright side. 
 
 While looking at the brightside, the glare caused me to walk into the road, i didnt see the that car. 
 
 Luckily I have medical insurance, unfortunately they will only cover the emergency room, and when I was admitted. Im still responsible for the copay and ambulance ride, so im stuck with a bill of $ 1,800. I really need some reconstructive surgery as well, my joints have bone fragments moving around, it hurts like hell, but it is consideres either cosmetic, or non threatening, its viewed as plastic surgery. 
 
 As i leave the hospital with pain in each joint, I try not get down, I need to just keep my chin up. The sky is so beautiful.....the last thing I saw, as I was hit by an ambulance. 
 
 Everything was dark, I had died, or at least in the world I created, I realize that now, I was the one that created this. It was so obvious, all the short cuts, the dead ends, the pointless red tape that made no sense. Oh well, I will start again. And create an even better world. But I should do this quickly or else I may miss 16 and pregnant. 

