[ WP ] If you stay alive for no other reason , do it for spite .

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 I lay still. The pain was indescribable. I lay still. 
 
 I wanted to die. I wanted to live. I wanted anything - *anything! * I knew I was dying. There was a hole in my head. I knew this was it. 
 
 I wanted to say that I was n't moving out of bravery, or my tolerance for pain. The truth is, I do n't think I *could* move. Whatever damage I'd done to myself, I doubt I could have done anything. I just lay there. I just lay there for the last satisfaction of my life. 
 
 I wanted to see the son of a bitch press that button. *I* sent me to my death. *I* wanted to send him to his. That was the only satisfaction I could get here, bleeding and dying on the cheap carpet I had n't thought of as a problem until this moment. 
 
 I had fourteen minutes to go. He knew this; I knew this. 
 
 I *couldn't* die before that point. I *couldn't*. I *had* to see that motherfucker die. 
 
 If I had to stay alive for no other reason, it was to see him die. I *had* to see me die. Fuck him. *Fuck him! * 
 
 Spite is all I have left. 
 
 That motherfucker was going to suffer like I did. And I was going to stay alive long enough to see it.
