[ WP ] You died . You were reborn . You remembered your previous life . But that 's actually pretty useless - because you were n't reborn human .

So, the Hindo ’ s had it right after all. My new existence is more miserable than the last. Well, at least I don ’ t have to hear about next doors son. Now I have to spend this new life being trodden on, suppose it ’ s a good metaphor for my former life. 
 
 When I was dead everyone would walk all over me, now that I ’ m dead, people still walk all over me. Then again, I ’ m not dead. 
 
 The things that I would change now, everything seemed so important before I was reborn as a doormat. 
 
 I wouldn ’ t of dropped history for starters, so what if Mark wasn ’ t in the same class as you, your education is way more important than having someone to natter to. Maybe then I would have my own big consultancy firm that requires me to move to Sydney. 
 
 I definitely shouldn ’ t have relied on Mark. Poor bloke must of been sick of me constantly following him about, but talking to people was so scary back then, it got easier at uni though, but by then it was too late. 
 
 University, oh God why did I pick business administration. I wasted 4 years of my life learning how to analyse spreadsheets and graphs. Utterly pointless. 
 
 What could've been? I could of picked medicine. Yeah, I could of been a doctor saving lives or I could of picked English lit and written a best seller. Oh think of the movie deals and all the monies that could ’ ve rolled in. 
 
 But no, business admin. 
 
 Why didn ’ t i phone her? She gave me her phone number, Christ sake. She handed it straight to me and I convinced myself it was a mistake. 
 
 Not a day goes by where I don ’ t think about her, what I fool I was. Too late now, she married and you ’ re a doormat. 
 
 Shit, hope they don ’ t find a my little shrine or my hard drive.
