[ WP ] You live in a world where people 's shadows show who they truly are at their core . Some shadows look like monsters , some look like animals . You are the only person in the world with no shadow .

Everyone's looking at me and it's making me uncomfortable. 
 
 I have my hands in my pocket, I want to look down, but then they definitely will know I feel like I'm being attacked 
 
 I used to always glue my eyes to the floor- maybe that's why this happened 
 
 People's shadows bloom on the ides of March when they turn 14- maybe something to do with the 3-4-5 of the month, age, day digits 
 
 Maybe I jerk off too much 
 
 Fap, fap, fap, fap- like I'm on 4chan, or something like that 
 
 I feel so biologically weak 
 
 And left behind- all my classmates are out and about in the world, and I'm just kinda stuck.. 
 
 I do n't know why- everything was a system and structure up until this point, and I kept following the path up 
 
 Until eventually I recognized the entire time I was lost, and I did n't know where I was going, and if I went any further, I would really not like where I finally am 
 
 I never knew why the directions were the way they were 
 
 I just followed them 
 
 And when I realized it was because I was supposed to have a volition 
 
 I recognized that in actuality, I have none 
 
 I'll become passionate at a fleeting moment 
 
 It's like being impassioned is what fuels me, not a particular subject that impassions me to drive in a particular direction 
 
 So I too, like The Joker, am a dog chasing cars 
 
 Whatever excites me is what I go towards, and it's only a matter of time before I get hit by one 
 
 **SKRREEEEECCCHHHH*** 
 
 Onomatopoeia 
 
 The only word that could go through my head at a time like this 
 
 `` Hey jackass! Where's your shadow- how is anyone supposed to know you're on the road; why do n't you watch where **YOU** are going?!'' 
 
 Odd 
 
 Oh, I forgot to mention- you're from another world 
 
 Shadows dictate a lot more here than they do in your's 
 
 There are no lanes in roads or any forms of order- people's shadows are law and they dictate how this world works 
 
 Right, where was I.. 
 
 Oh, I shrugged my shoulders, blamed myself in my head, sighed and moved on 
 
 The man's shadow was a monster's, I could n't take him if I wanted to, and you ca n't change those kinds of people 
 
 Oh- hey, I remember what it was 
 
 Your tell tale classic story of romance 
 
 Only it's pathetic 
 
 When I was younger 
 
 Right, our hormones also kick in when we're 5, we're talking on a different time scale- and when I say 5, you probably thing 5 rounds of 365 days to the year 
 
 Sigh.. anyway 
 
 There was a beautiful girl- as you always know there has to be- and she was highly accomplished, her shadow was guarded, but she had such a strong spirit that you could already see it even though it was n't supposed to bloom 
 
 I wonder what it looks like now.. 
 
 Anyway- again 
 
 I was only moderately successful 
 
 My own friends would push me around, and my parents thought I was a puppet 
 
 I was one of those stories where my dad met my mom at the wife store, or she says it was the opposite way at the husband store, and I was a package deal for them 
 
 Guess that means I was adopted- who even knows, they never tell me the truth 
 
 Anyway, I would follow her around 
 
 Yeah, a pathetic creep 
 
 I did n't even understand the mating rituals, so all I can tell you was I was fascinated 
 
 I'd stare at her shadow all the time 
 
 Eventually I knew she caught me, but she still let it go on 
 
 I do n't know why, and why would I argue- I was hypnotized by her shadow, only imagining what it would look like if it bloomed 
 
 Oh- hey, Scott's shadow's changed from a wolf to some kind of bird.. 
 
 Weird 
 
 I did n't feel like hanging out so I bumped his shoulder and walked off 
 
 That's our introduction if that's the case 
 
 God, I'm so out of place- why am I alive 
 
 Everyone else has a shadow but me 
 
 Right, my story 
 
 She was meeting guys and dating here and there, and I was too dazed to even care 
 
 Eventually I saw her meet another guy that reminded me of me in some way, I ca n't say, but I was actually paying attention this time around 
 
 He was also pretty well accomplished- in fact he started developing his own shadow very early 
 
 He was holding her hands and I saw their shadows unite to bloom, which meant full bloom would turn their shadows into those of deities- like a phoenix or griffin, you know what I'm talking about 
 
 I was in shock- I was happy, but really sad all in the same 
 
 This time she saw me and gave me a disapproving glare 
 
 It was like her eyes were on fire, and mine grew darker until they were pitch black 
 
 I felt my soul shatter- I think; it could be possible 
 
 It's not a feeling I can describe- you ca n't relate because it has to have taken place within you too for you to understand 
 
 As I'm staring up and kicking a can down the street- I think about it now and when I was 14 on the ideas of March, I felt a knife drive into me 
 
 Prophetic 
 
 I looked around for my shadow, but I guess it had either been consumed in me, or vanished 
 
 Weird, I could only remember the stares I got when that happened 
 
 I did n't think it was a big deal 
 
 Then again, I thought nothing was a big deal 
 
 There were ceremonies going on for all of the other shadow bloomings, including those of unified shadows 
 
 I did n't see any, I hid like a shadow 
 
 Something compelled me to go out this morning 
 
 I had n't been anywhere in what feels like years 
 
 Then again- how would you know what that means in this whole picture of things? 
 
 I was seeing all kinds of animals and monsters- sparrows uniting with swans, pidgins with eagles, I even saw a valkyrie- I never understood what that shadow was all about 
 
 Monsters generally were alone or with other monsters- serpents with dragons, alligators with piranhas, but these only looked like those creatures- I do n't know what the actual monsters were 
 
 It was just weird 
 
 And I felt like I was being pulled towards something 
 
 Maybe my shadow was making a late arrival.. 
 
 `` Hey- look at this queer- he's no alpha! I've never seen a man.. or should I say boy with no shadow! Ha ha ha..'' 
 
 Hi to you too.. 
 
 I felt odd walking with no purpose- having no place- I could've'at least' been a black sheep- that would make enough sense 
 
 But I did n't mind either 
 
 I do n't know why 
 
 I felt like I could be a burden on others with a shadow of my own 
 
 Crowding their dimensional space 
 
 Could it be fear? 
 
 No- I clearly love that emotion too much to let it indulge me 
 
 I stopped right at a place where I think I wanted to or was supposed to 
 
 Am I schizophrenic? 
 
 God- it was n't even a voice 
 
 I was just about ready to listen to anything at this point 
 
 I looked up 
 
 Fuck! I was looking down 
 
 Suddenly a bright light 
 
 Wow, cliché 
 
 But wait- I could n't stop looking 
 
 What the hell is going on? 
 
 Am I being possessed? 
 
 Give me a break- after all I've been through already 
 
 Okay, whatever- I'm here, I'm right now, this is in the present 
 
 Ow.. fucking... 
 
 My retina- I can feel it moving- it's burning 
 
 Why ca n't I stop 
 
 I just feel like I'm at the mercy.. 
 
 There's a weight 
 
 It's getting heavier 
 
 It's on my head 
 
 And I ca n't stop it 
 
 It's forcing me to look down, but I ca n't even see anymore!! 
 
 What the fuck?! 
 
 I'm taking my hands out of my pocket 
 
 Struggling to force my chin up 
 
 I do n't think I even have pupils anymore 
 
 I ca n't recognize anything 
 
 I ca n't even scream- it's like something's shouting from *within* me 
 
 I ca n't bear the weight anymore 
 
 Dropping to my knees 
 
 Okay- this is weird 
 
 This is n't an anime- this is real life 
 
 There are people with shadows 
 
 I'm not losing it, I'm not going insane 
 
 This is just a dream 
 
 This is just a nightmare 
 
 My jaws are open like a dog trying to yelp, but nothing's coming out 
 
 I feel like tearing my hair out 
 
 I'm starting to see black start to develop below me.. but everything was just white 
 
 I'm so confused right now 
 
 I just want to go.. somewhere.. nowhere... 
 
 I'm feeling my body collapse into it 
 
 Unbelievable pressure 
 
 Are my bones cracking? I ca n't even tell anymore 
 
 I wonder if anyone is seeing all of this 
 
 Why wo n't they help? 
 
 Fuckin.. monsters 
 
 Maybe all of them.. that does n't make sense.. 
 
 I'm starting to get lighter 
 
 It's getting lighter 
 
 I think.. I'll just... 
 
 Let go
