[ WP ] Everyone has a reaper . The further away it is , the longer you have left to live . Every day it inches a little bit closer , but it is always there . Except yours , which disappeared three weeks ago

Dear Mr. Reaper, 
 
 I have n't seen you in a while. I left you a plate of cookies like you always like, but they were still there in the morning. When I got home from school they were gone, and mom said she ate them. She said she's been eating them for the past few weeks. I'll leave them in my bedroom from now on. I hope they're good! 
 
 Love, 
 
 Emily 
 
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 Hi Mr. Reaper, 
 
 Mom told me to stop leaving plates of cookies out. I can do what I want with my allowance! That's what I wish I could say. But her house, her rules. So, no more cookies. I'm sorry. 
 
 Love, 
 
 Emily 
 
 ____ 
 
 Dear Mr. Reaper, 
 
 Where have you been? I'm getting lonely. I had dialysis this morning and you still have n't come by. The doctors seem happier these days. Does this mean I'm not gon na see you again? 
 
 I miss you. You always had the best jokes, even if mom frowned and made a face when I'd tell them to her. 
 
 Love, 
 
 Emily 
 
 ____ 
 
 Dear Mr. Reaper, 
 
 I did something I should n't have. I drank the whole bottle. You did n't come back. 
 
 Love, 
 
 Emily. 
 
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 Hi Reaper man!! 
 
 I think I 
 
 might be drunk? Like that's what mom calls it when she's crying in the floor at night. she does n't Do that much these days. Sorry I forgot to capitalise and well I'll do it better next sentence haha 
 
 It's weird to right haha cause you do n't hear me laugh anymore 
 
 Is n't it funny how write sounds like right? You would think it was funny. You would tell me I'm silly and that if I laugh too hard I'd die. And I'd laugh more. We'd laugh together more. 
 
 The room is spinny 
 
 I still miss you 
 
 Love love a lot, 
 
 Emily 
 
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 Dear Mr. Reaper, 
 
 I turned 12 today. Dad showed up! I told him about you and how I have n't seen you in forever and he made a weird face. Mom and him, no, he and mom talked for a while after that. 
 
 I'm gon na do what they do. If I do n't hear from you tomorrow, you're gon na regret it! 
 
 ( But not really. I think. Do you still care about me? ) 
 
 I have to go back to dialysis now. I hope you still read my diary. I hope you still get these letters. 
 
 Love, 
 
 Emily 
 
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 Dear Mr. Reaper, 
 
 I have n't written to you in a long time. But you also have n't been here. I miss you. 
 
 I'm doing better at school. My attendance went back up, so that's good, right? 
 
 Love, 
 
 Emily 
 
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 Dear Mr. Reaper, 
 
 I just want you to know you were my closest friend. When everyone laughed at me you were there, watching from the window. When I cried, you told me it was okay. When we played chess, hands never touching, I felt like the happiest girl in the world. I know I'm only 13, but I miss you more than anyone else in the whole world. More than Perry when the vet put her down. 
 
 I miss you more than I know how to write. 
 
 Love, so much, 
 
 Emily 
 
 ____ 
 
 Dear Mr. Reaper, 
 
 The car swerved. 
 
 Emily 
 
 ____ 
 
 Hi. 
 
 I'm 16 now. 
 
 I do n't go to hospital anymore. 
 
 You probably are n't reading these. I do n't know where you went. 
 
 I grew up a bit. People are telling me reapers do n't dissappear. But you did. 
 
 I hate you. 
 
 I still wish you were here. 
 
 -Em ( like it? It's my new nickname ) 
 
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 Mr. Reaper, 
 
 I graduated this year. I also drank way too much that night. Enough to kill me. But it did n't bring you closer to me. It did n't make me feel any less sad. 
 
 I still ache for you. You do n't know what it's like to have your heart torn out. Or maybe you do, since you're dead and all. 
 
 Come back to me. Please. I ca n't do this whole life thing without you. And apparently, I ca n't die without you, either. 
 
 I could pretend to be 11 again if that's what kept you around. Maybe you knew I was growing up and that's not what strikes your fancy. There's not much research on you guys ( which is why I'm majoring in Arcane Science ). I do n't care. I just want you, with all your problems. 
 
 No, I need you. Please, just come back. I'd do anything. 
 
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 Dear Mr. Reaper, 
 
 Drano is fucking shit. You're fucking shit. This world is shit, and the only person to make it better fucking dropped out of my life, just when things were getting better. I wish you were dead. 
 
 I wish I was dead. 
 
 Em 
 
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 Baby, please. 
 
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 If you had a phone, I'd call you once in a while. Or is that too needy? Was I too needy? Is that why you left? 
 
 I ran into Dad at the supermarket. He looks old. He mutters to his reaper when he thinks I'm not looking. He's going to die soon. 
 
 Why wo n't you come back? Even he came back, and he has four other kids. Mom missed him so much. 
 
 Why do n't you miss me like I do? 
 
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 I did n't mean anything when I said I hated you. 
 
 Just come home. Come home, back to me. 
 
 Love, 
 
 forever and always, 
 
 Emily
