[ WP ] A superhero struggles with anxiety and depression

I help whenever I can, but it's becoming more and more of a rarity these days. It's hard to save the world when you ca n't even force yourself to get out of bed. I can literally lift a 4 ton truck over my head with the power of my mind, but a few weeks ago I lay on the sofa for 9 hours just looking at the wall because I could n't force myself to get up and make something for dinner. 
 
 It did n't used to be like this. I used to be a hero. I know I did because my house is full of all the shit they gave me to prove it; the medals, the key to the city... they even gave me a decorative pistol once. Y'know, like the type you see old ex-military guys wearing with their outfits on Memorial Day? I keep it in the basement now. I kept looking at it and wondering what I'd do with it if my skin was n't so... bullet-proof. 
 
 Some days I snap out of it, and I feel like myself again. I'll throw the old cape and mask back on and soar through the city in a blur of technicolor, feeling the wind rush through my hair. The crowds of people gasp and cheer `` Welcome back!'' as I bounce from burning building to bank robbery, putting my world back together again. I try to enjoy it for as long as it lasts, and do as much good as I can in the meantime before I feel everything starting to fade back to grey. Sometimes the respite only lasts a few hours, sometimes as much as a few weeks or even longer. Eventually though, whether it creeps back slowly or rushes in with a sucker punch right in the middle of the Mayor's latest speech, it always comes back. 
 
 Occasionally I'll hear the TV or radio speculating as to where I've disappeared to this time, and that kinda hurts. I wish I could explain to them that I have n't gone anywhere. I'm still right here, I just ca n't be the version of me that they need me to be. So I put my other mask on and I move among them, unnoticed. 
 
 It's a funny thing, having a secret identity. To the people out there I'm just a plain old run-of-the-mill superhero. If only they knew my secret... 
 
 
 [ maybe a bit dark. Sorry, I did n't know what you were going for. ]
