I have to say that of all the books I have read in my life, this is the only book I ever wished I hadn't read! I loved Tony Perkins, especially in "Friendly Persuasion", but after reading of the life he led, I was sickened. I knew he was gay, and I didn't care, but the detail in this book was nauseating. If this is what it means to be gay, then what is the big attraction? It seems worse to me than drug addiction or the depths of alcoholism. A life possessed by debauchery. I am very sorry you don't have a rating to fit this terrible book.